Archives for category: ADVENTURES OF LIVING WITH A PSYCHOTIC CAT

ONE OF THE THINGS I AM REALLY SCARED OF MAY HAPPEN WHETHER I LIKE IT OR NOT, THE CAT, MAY GET TAKEN TO THE VET AND PUT TO SLEEP BECAUSE MY DADDY IS GETTING SCRATCHED BY HIM AROUND THE HEAD.  THE CAT SPENDS A LOT OF TIME ON TOP OF THE CHAIRS AND THE ONLY THING I CAN DO TO HELP THE CAT STAY ALIVE IS TO DILIGENTLY SHOO THE CAT FROM THE TOPS OF THE RECLINERS AS THE CAT SMACKED  DAD UPSIDE THE HEAD AND DAD SAID IT JUST MISSED HIS EYE AND CAUGHT IN HIS EAR…THE ONLY WAY TO STOP THIS IS TO KEEP THE CAT FROM SITTING WHERE IT COULD POTENTIALLY  BLIND DADDY SO HAVE GOTTEN A FLY SWATTER AND I AM NOW SITTING BEHIND DADDY AND WHEN THE CAT TRIES TO CLIMB UP TO THE BACK OF THE CHAIR, I WILL BE WAITING WITH THE FLYSWATTER, I CAN ALSO GET A SPRAY BOTTLE TO HELPTRAIN THE ANIMAL.  THE ONLY OQTHER THING WOULD BE FOR ME TO VERY QUICKLY GET ME A SMALLRV OR TRAILER AND MOVE ME AND THE CAT INTO IT.   I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH ABOUT THE CAT BEING VERY SMART AND THAT IT IS EXTREMELY TRAINABLE AND THAT IF IT CANNOT KEEP FROM SWIPING AT DADDY I WILL HAVE TO LEAVE THE MAIN HOUSE WITH THE ANIMAL, AS I KNOW WHAT BEING GOTTEN RID OF FEELS LIKE.   I GUESS DADDY HAD ALREADY MADE HIS MIND UP TO PUT THE CAT DOWN THIS MORNING BUT I REFUSE TO LET HIM OFF THIS SO EASILY AND I INSIST THAT IF THE CAT IS GOING TO BE KILLED THAT HE DO THE DIRTY WORK HIMSELF, FUNNY HOW IF YOU ARE THE ONE WHO HAS TO DO THE KILLING HOW MUCH HARDER IT SUDDENLY IS…SO THIS IS MY NEW STRESS FACTOR, HAVING TO MAKE SURE DADDY DOES NOT SNATCH THE CAT UP WHILE I AM ASLEEP AND RUN THE ANIMAL OFF TO A VET TO GET KILLED.   I AM ALREADY DEALING WITH STRESS BECAUSE OF MY HEALTH PROBLEMS AND THE HACKING I AM STILL DEALING WITH AT THIS VERY MINUTE AS SOMETHING KEEPS GRABBING CONTROL OF THIS IPAD WHILE I AM TYPING, THE GOD AWFUL SOUND THAT HAS RETURNED AFTER TWO SMALL BREAKS FROM THE NOISE AND HAS COME BACK WITH A VERY PAINFUL AND FAST TAPPING AND MY DADDY WITH THE ATTITUDE THAT THE CAT IS GOING TO BLIND HIM THERFORE IT SHOULD BE KILLED WITHOUT TRYING ANY KIND OF TRAINING TO STOP THIS.   IF I HAVE TO, I COULD EVEN MAKE THE CAT SOCKS TO WEAR AND KEEP THE CLAWS COVERED…AND IF YOU THINK I HAVE NOT HAD MORE THAN A FEW THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW I COULD DO THIS -YOU ARE WRONG AS WHEN MY DADDYSTARTED TO GET THESE DEEP CUTS ON HIS ARMS FROM THE CAT, THE NAILS BEING TRIMMED WAS THE FIRST THING I DID AND THINK OF WAYS TO COVER ITS CLAWS WHILE DADDYWAS HEALING UP WAS SECOND. IF I HAVE TO I WILL GET A CAMPER FOR ME AND THE CAT TO LIVE IN BECAUSE YOU JUST DO NOT GO AROUND KILLING YOUR PETS BECAUSE YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW TO STOP IT FROM DOING SOMETHING THAT YOU DO NOT LIKE.  YES, IF THE CAT DIES, I AM GOING AWAY MYSELF.  THAT IS THAT.   I WOULD NOT WANT TO LIVE WITH DADDY IF HE DOES KILL THIS ANIMAL.  NO I DO NOT WANT DADDY GETTING BLINDED BY HIM SO THAT IS WHY I AM GOING TO SIT BEHIND DAD WITH AFLYSWATTER AND TRAIN THE CAT NOT TO SIT WHERE IT. CAN REACH HIS FACE BUT HE HAS TO WEAR THE LONG SLEEVED SHIRTS TO PROTECT HIS ARMS FROM SCRATCHES AS HE ALREADY KNOWS HIS FLESH IS HEALED AND SHOULD WEAR LONG SLEEVES TO PROTECT FROM FUTURE SCRATCHES TOO, HE WENT AND GOT THE SHIRTS, NOW HE HAS TO WEAR THEM.   IF I HAVE TO, I WILL CLEAN OUT A SIDE OF THE SHOP AND MOVE ME AND THE CAT. I THERE BUT I GOT TO MAKE SURE IT DOES NOT GET KILLED FIRST.  THERAPUTIC WRITING DONE BY A RATHER UPSET KARIN WRAPE 9-14-17 CAUSE YOU JUST DO NOT TAKE THE LIFE OF YOUR PETS SO LIGHTLY THAT YOU LOOK UPON THEM AS DISPOSABLE.  I AM ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE THE SOUND NOT ONLY AFFECTS THE CAT BUT THAT IT CAUSES MY DADDY TO THINK AND ACT STRANGELY TOO EVEN IF HE DOES NOT BELIEVE IT DOES, I SEE IT.  THAT IS ENOUGH FOR ME.  LOOKS LIKE I WILL BE SLEEPING ON THE COUCH TO TRY AND KEEP CAT FROM GETTING TAKEN OUT WHILE I SLEEP.

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ME, PAYING TO MEET MEN??? IT IS NT SO MUCH TO MEET MEN AS TO TALK OR TYPE MESSAGES TO OTHER HUMANS.  I DO NOT KNOW IF I WILL GO OUT WITH ANYONE BUT THERE IS NO HARM IN LOOKING, IS THERE?  THERE ARE A WHOLE BUNCH OF MEN ALL AROUND MINEOLA AND THE SURROUNDING AREAS THAT ARE LOOKING FOR LOVE BUT I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL OR GOD WILL SEND ANOTHER DRUNK OR DRUG ADDICT MY WAY…I HAVE FOUND OVER THE YEARS WHEN YOU PRAY, TO BE VERY SPECIFIC OR THE FIRST THING YOU ASK FOR WILL BE SENT AND SOMETIMES THE RESULTS END UP BEING A DISASTER.  SO I AM MAKING SURE THEY ALL KNOW I COME WITH ISSUES AND WHAT TYPE OF ISSUES THEY ARE.  THE HACKING AND AUDIO TORTURE I AM BEING SUBJECTED TO THIS VERY MINUTE ARE NOT SOMETHING I COULD HIDE EVEN WERE I TO WANT TO HIDE THAT.  I CANT EVEN SLEEP IN MY BED ANYMORE AS THE NOISE IS SUPER CONCENTRATED IN THE CORNER MY BEDS LOCATED INTO THE POINT I JUST CANNOT DO IT ANYMORE.  THE SOUND IS COMING OUT OF THE FLOOR VENTS FOR CERTAIN AS I HAVE USED SEVERAL APPS TO LOCATE WHERE THE HIGH DECIBEL LEVELS ARE BEING EMITTED AND THE DECIBEL LEVEL WITH THE AC OFF IS A CONSTANT 100 DECIBELS FROM EVERY SINGLE VENT, INCLUDING THE BATHROOM.  I AM SURE MY IPAD IS BEING USED TO PIN POINT MY LOCATION INSIDE THE TRAILER AND WILL MOST LIKELY HAVE TO CHANGE WHERE I SLEEP EVERY DAY OR SO BUT IF THAT IS WHAT IS REQUIRED TO GET MORE THAN 2 HOURS OF SLEEP A NOTE, SO BE IT.   THE FRIGGIN ONLINE MASTER GAMER HAS STARTED TO SEND ME VIDEOS OF HIM PLAYING SOME DUMBASS ONLINE ROLEPLAYING GAME AGAIN, 3 am LAST NIGHT… THE SOUND IS GETTING RATHER IRRITATING AGAIN TOO. AND IS CHANGING FROM A JUMPY CRICKET WITH FAST TAPPING AND A BACKGROUND HISS TO AN ALMOST INSECTIOD SOUND AND THE VERY, VERY FAST TAPPING SO I THINK THIS WEEKEND THE AUDIO TORTURE IS GOING TO BE ESPECIALLY BAD AS IT WAS WHEN IN COLORADO AND THERE EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND WAS A NIGHTMARE WITH CONSTANT SLEEP DEPRIVATION TO KEEP ME EXHAUSTED SO THEY COULD INSTILL THE FIGHT OR FLIGHT SYNDROME AT WILL.  ME TRYING A SOCIAL SITE IS A GOOD THING AS I HAVE BEEN ALONE A LONG, LONG TIME.    NEXT ITEM OF THE DAY…MY DADDY HAS SOME VERY NICE VCRs AND TWO OF ONE KIND IN PARTICULAR THAT HE LIKED A REWIND FEATURE ON.  THIS MORNING HE COMES TO ME AND TELLS ME ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO USE EITHER REMOTE ON THE TWO UNITS AND THEY HAD QUIT AT THE SAME TIME. SO RIGHT AWAY I GET OUT MY AM/FM RADIO AND DETUNE IT AND THEN PRESS A BUTTON ON THE REMOTE AND HEAR A BUZZ ON THE RADIO…THAT TELLS ME THE REMOTE IS NOT THE PROBLEM, IT IS A SETTING ON THE VCR OR THE REMOTE OR BOTH. SO I GET BOTH NNITS AND THE MANUAL FOR THEM OUT AND CHECK THE REMOTE SETTINGS AND SURE ENOUGH, THEY WERE SET TO VCR A AND ALL I HAD TO DO WAS PUNCH A COUPLE OF BUTTONS AND GOT BOTH REMOTES WORKING FOR DADDY…UNCLE HOMER HAD COME OVER AND LOOKED AT THE VCRS AND TOLD DADDY IT WAS THE REMOTES…WRONG ANSWER. GUESS HE NEEDED SOMEONE A LITTLE SMARTER …ME! SO THAT IS MY MORNING, FINDINGOUT THE CREEP THAT HACKED MY OLD CELLPHONE IS STILL SENDING ME VIDEOS OF HIMSELF PLAYING GAMES TO  MESS WOTH MY HEAD, AND FIXING STUFF FOR DADDY HE THOUGHT WAS BROKEN!  HOME MADE COOKIES AND MILK FOR BREAKFAST AND NOW ON TOP OF ALL THAT, THE CAT HAS GIVEN ME THE FRONT PART OF THE CAT COSTUME TOPET AND DADDY HAS THE BACK HALF FOR A CHANGE…FUNNY HOW THINGS WORK OUT!  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE  9-1-17

LOOKS LIKE IT IS GOING TO BE A TOUGH DAY AS THE SOUND WHICH KEPT ME FROM SLEEPING IN MY BED LAST NIGHT IS GETTING WORSE… LAST NIGHT THE SOUND WAS ONLY HISSING LIKE ONE PISSED OFF SNAKE AT ME AND WHEN DADDY WENT TO BED THE SOUND INTENSIFIED TO AN ALARMING DECIBEL LEVEL AND WAS COMING FROM,THE CORNER WHERE MY BED IS IT WAS SITUATED EXACTLY WHERE MY FOAM MATTRESS IS ON THE FLOOR.  I WAS LOOKING OVER AT THE AREA AFTER I WAS DRIVEN FROM  ONE COUCH TO THE OTHER ONE LIKE I WOULD SE SOMETHING TANGIBLE HANGING INTHE AIR CAUSING THE NOISE… ANYHOO, IT WAS SO BAD I DECIDED NOT TO SLEEP IN THE BED LAST NIGHT AND THOUGH IT WAS WAY TOO SOFT FOR MY SPINAL FUSION TO BE SAFE  I SLEPT ON ONE OF THE COUCHES LAST NIGHT AND MY SLEEP WAS KIND OF BAD, BUT I DID FINALLY GET TO THE POINT OF DREAMING.  THIS MORNING WHEN I GOT UP, THE SOUND HAD AGAINCHANGED TO THE JUMPY CRICKET SOUND I HAVE BEEN HEARING QUITE A BIT OF LATELY BUT THE TAPPING OR TIC TIC TIC SOUND WAS NOT IN IT AS USUAL AND RIGHT AFTER DADDY FED OUR CAT, THE CAT CRAWLED UNDER HIS COVERS INHIS BED AND THREW UP ITS BREAKFAST…DADDY HAD TO WASH HIS COVERS THIS MORNING AND HE HAD JUST DONE THAT THE DAY BEFORE… THEN I NOTICED THE SOUND HAD CHANGED RIGHT AFTER THE CAT PUKED AND THE JUMPY  RICKET SOUND WAS GONE LEAVING ONLY THE HISS THAT CAN BE HEARD EVEN OVER MY APPLE EADBUDS WHEN WATCHING SOMETHING ON MY IPAD… IT KEEPS GETTING LOUDER THEN LOWERING AND I WONDER JUST HOW BAD TODAYS TORTURE IS GOING TO BE FOR DADDY AND THE CAT.  I AM PRETTY MUCH USED TO HAVING A CONSTANT HEADACHE BUT WHAT WORRIES ME IS THE BLEEDING THAT STARTED A COUPLE DAYS AGO WHEN THE SOUND FIRST DROPPED THE JUMPY CRICKET SOUND AND TIC TIC TICKING AND BECAME A LONE HISSING SOUND.   SOMETHING IS CONSTANTLY TAKING MEMORY SNAPSHOTS OF THIS IPAD ABOUT EVERY HOUR AND WHENI LOOK AT THE ANALYICTICS THERE ARE A WHOLE LOT OF DIRTY PAGES AS WEL, AS TWO ACTIVE CPUS AND WHEN I AM TYPING LIKE RIGHT NOW AND WANT TO CHANGE TO THE NUMBERS KEYPAD, I CANNOT DO IT.  THIS HAS BECOME AN ISSUE IN THE LAST FEW DAYS, NOT BEING ABLE TO GET TO THE NUMBERS KEYBOARD.  WELL THIS IS ALL THAT IS OF INTEREST AT THE MOMENT, I HAVE DONE MY MILE ON MY TREADMILL THIS MORNING AND BREATHING IS KINDOF HARD TODAY BUT THAT IS MOST LIKELY FROM THE HUMID AIR SO I AM GOING TO END THIS POST AND DO SOMETHING TO TRY AND TAKE THE HISSOFF MY MIND  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE, 8-29-17  I SEE PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AT MY WORDPRESS POSTS AND WAS HAVING A BLAST SEEING WHAT OTHERS READ AND ACTUALLY RE READING WHAT I WROTE BACK THEN…ONE THING EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE AWARE OF IS THAT I WRITE WHAT IS ON MY MIND AT THE MOMENT AND THAT I DO NOT BOTHER TYING TO CORRECT ANYTHING BECAUSE IF I TRY TO PROOFREAD ANYTHING, CHANCES ARE THE POST WILL DISSAPPEAR… KEEP THAT IN MIND BEFORE YOU START TO BITCH ABOUT MY SPELLING AND TYPOS, PLEASE AND OF COURSE ANY AND ALL COMMENTS ARE WELCOMED WHETHER GOOD OR BAD!  AND IF YOU DO LEAVE A COMMENT  IF I CAN ACTUALLY SEE IT, I WILL MOST LIKELY RESPOND TO IT!

 

I HAD TO SELL OR GIVE AWAY PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING I HAD BECAUSE OF THE CRAP GOING ON IN  MY LIFE AND NOW, WHILE I AM NO LONGER IN THOSE BEAUTIFUL MOUNTAINS-I SEEM TO BE GETTING BACK THE IMPORTANT STUFF I HAD TO GIVE UP AND I ENDED UP WITH VERY SAME MODEL OF INVERSION TABLE I USED TO HAVE AND NOW I HAVE A WAY BETTER TEADMILL THAN I HAD WHEN I TROTTED OFF THE 100 + POUNDS I LOST  AFTER GETTING UP OVER 288 POUNDS AS I WAS WHEN I VISITED MY DADDY BACK IN 2012.  TONITE MY DADDY GOT THE SATISFACTION OF WATCHING ME TROT JUST OVER 3/4 A MILE IN 15  HAVE GOTTEN BACK UPTO 190 lbs DUE TO INACTIVITY AND EDEMA.  I COLLECT WATER AROUND MY ORGANS.  MY DADDY MAKING HOMEMADE COOKIES IS NOT HELPING MY WEIGHT EITHER BUT WHO COULD RESIST COOKIES YOUR DADDY MADE FOR YOU MUCHLESS HOME BAKED PIZZA??? MY OLD TREADMILL WAS NICE BUT THIS ONE IS THE DELUXE MODEL AND VALUED AROUND $1000 BUCKS…  YOU CAN BET I WILL GET MY MONEYS WORTH OUT OF IT RIGHT QUICK AS MY LAST ONE HELPED ME TROT OFF OVER 100 POUNDS, I DO NOT KNOW WHAT PRIME BITCH MEAT GOES FOR A POUND BUT IF IT SELLS FOR AS MUCH AS THE CURE 81 HAMS GET FOR ME N DADDY, ON MY LAST TREADMILL  I TROTTED OFF OVER $300 DOLLARS WORTH OF FAT.  AND ROUTINE IS GOOD FOR US BI POLAR FOLK…  I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL BECAUSE OF THE SOUND INDUCED MIGRAINES AND WATCH MY BLOOD PRESSURE REAL CLOSE AS WELL AS STAY OUT OF THIS DAMP AIR SO MY LUNGS DO NOT DEVELOP PNEUMONIA AS THIS HUMIDITY MAKES BREATHING HARD AS IT IS BUT I HAVE DONE THIS TREADMILL THING BEFORE SO THIS IS NOT MY FIRST RODEO WITH THESE THINGS.  I KNOW I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL NOT TO GET EXCERCISE INDUCED MIGRAINES SO I TROTTED AT A LAZY 3 MILES AN HOUR TIL THE LAST MINUTE WHERE I JUMP THE SPEED UP A COUPLE NOTCHES TO GET THAT HEART RATE UP BUT I KNOW THESE THINGS CAN HAPPEN IF I AM NOT CAREFUL AND KNOWING IS HALF THE BATTLE.  SO HERE I AM STARTING OUT MY EXODUS TO NOWHERE IN MY DADDYS LIVING ROOM ON A HIGH DOLLAR TREADMILL INSTEAD OF A WALMART CHEAPO TROTTER, I STILL SWIM ACROSS THE LAKE WHEN THE MIGRAINES AND THE GOD AWFUL SOUND  GET MORE THAN I CAN STAND AND YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO CATCH THIS 54 YEAR OLD GAL WITH ALL THESE BLOOD DISEASES AND EMPHYSEMIA SPORTING A RED AND WHITE BIKINI ON MY WAY TO THE LAKE IF YOU LOOK CLOSELY I SHOULD NOT BE HARD TO MISS AS I AM TOTING A  BLOW UP KIDDIE POOL DOWN TO TH LAKE OVER MYSHOULDER ALONG WITH MY FAVORITE SWIM FINS AND A JUG OF JUICE AND IF YOU MISS ME ON THE WAY TO THE LAKE-YOU CAN FIND ME OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF LAKE HOLBROOK WITH THE TURTLES CHASING AFTER ME!   IF YOU WANT ANY BEFORE AND AFTER PICTURES-I SUGGEST YOU START SNAPPING THEM ASAP AS I WILL NOT BE AT 190 lbs FOR LONG… WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 8-16- I AM DOING THESE THINGS WITH SOUND INDUCED MIGRAINES…OH ALMOST FORGOT TO MENTION GOODWILL AND THE BROKEN VCR…I GOT ONE FOR MY COUSINS AS THEIRS WAS BROKEN AND THE ONE I GOT FROM GOODWILL DID NOT WORK…THEY THOUGHT THEY WOULD GET AWAY WITH NO REFUND EVEN THOUGH IT WAS A PALTRY AMOUNT, I MADE A COMPLAINT AND THEN I FIND OUT THE GUY WHO FINALLY DID END UP TAKING THE BROKEN VCR BACK IS FAMILY AND THEY DID NOT KNOW I WAS GETTING THE THING FOR FAMILY!  I TRIED TO GET MY COUSINS SOMETHING TO WATCH VCR TAPES ON BUT ENDED UP WITH ANOTHER DRESS FOR CHURCH!  AND OUR PSYCHOTIC KITTY WAS AN ANGEL TODAY WITH PEOPLE IN AND OUT OF THE HOUSE MOVING FURNATURE AND EXCERCISE EQUIPMENT IN AND OUT AND PEOPLE OF ALL KINDS, HE ONLY WENT UNDER THE TABLE FOR A BIT AND THEN CAME OUT TO BE HELD AND LOVED BY OUR VISITING FAMILY MEMBERS!!! HE WAS AN ANGEL TODAY CONSIDERING HE WOULD NOT COME OUT OF THE CLOSET WHEN I FIRST MET HIM!!!

AFTER A TWO DAY BREAK THE SOUND IS BACK WITH A VENGANCE… THIS IS THE WORST CHEST PAIN I HAVE HAD IN A WHILE.  I KNEW IT WOULD BE BAD BUT THIS IS REDICULOUS.  MY DAD IS LOOKING KINDA RATTY TOO. HE WILL SWEAR UP AND DOWN THIS NOISE IS NOT HARMING HIM BUT HE HAS QUIT WEARING HIS HEARING AIDES AND CONTACT LENSES AND IN MY OPINION HE HAS BEEN THINKING QUITE RADICALLY WITH THINKING ABOUT PUTTING THE CAT DOWN… HE HAS BEEN GETTING SCATTERBRAINED EVEN THOUGH HE WILL NOT ADMIT TO IT AND DOING THAT COUGH THING PEOPLE AROUND ME DO WHEN THE NOISE IS PRESENT.  THE DVR IS STILL ACTIVE AND SOMEONE KEEPS UNLOCKING SPORTS CHANNELS AND CHANNELS TO WATCH  MOVIES THE WHOLE DAY.  THE SOUND IS A JUMPY CRICKET LIKE SOUND THAT HAS OTHER SOUNDS BURIED IN IT THAT I CAN HEAR WHEN WEARING MY NEW APPLE HEADPHONES THAT DO NOT HAVE A MICROPHONE BUILT INTO THEM.   MY DADDY ACTUALLY TRIED TO WATCH A MOVIE WITH ME TODAY, DJANGO UNCHAINED BUT I COULD SEE HE WAS DISTRACTED AND HAD HIP PAINS SO I LET HIM OUT OF THE MOVIE ABOUT AN HOUR INTO IT AND AM WATCHING AN OLD EDDIE MURPHY MOVIE WITH HIM AND THE CAT WHO HAS BEEN AN ANGEL TODAY, LETTING ME HOLD HIM FOR ABOUT AN HOUR OVER IN MY BED WHEN DADDY AND I WERE WATCHING DJANGO AND AFTERWARDS I HELD THE ICE CREAM BOWL AS THE KITTY HAD HIS TREAT FOR THE NITE, THE FACT THE CAT ATE WHILE I WAS HOLDING THE BOWL DID NOT GO UNNOTICED BY ME AND I MADE SURE DADDY SAW IT TOO.  THE CAT CAN CHANGE, JUST LIKE THE LIGHTBULB IN THE PSYCHIATRIST OFFICE, THAT IS AN OLD JOKE I USED TO TELL WHEN I WOULD GET TAKEN IN ON M1 HOLDS…HOW MANY PSYCHIATRISTS DOES IT TAKE TO CHANGE A LIGHTBULB?  JUST ONE BUT THE LIGHTBULB HAS GOT TO WANT TO CHANGE…AND I CAN SEE THE CAT WANTS TO PLEASE US, IT REALLY DOES TRY, I CAN SEE THAT, WHY OTHERS THINK CATS CANNOT BE EITHER TRAINED OR HERDED I DO NOT KNOW AS I HAVE SUCESSFULLY TRAINED AND HERDED THIS CAT TO THE ANIMAL IT IS TODAY THAT WILL LET PEOPLE WHO COME OVER PET IT INSTEAD OF RUNNING AND HIDING UNDER THE CHAIR LIKE IT USED TO DO…IN FACT, I HAVE NOT SEEN THE CAT HIDE UNDER THE CHAIR AT ALL IN THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS!  I HAVE CHANGED HAVE CHANGED TOO, I USED TO SMOKE WEED QUITE A BIT AND I HAVE QUIT…   WELL IT IS ABOUT 8:30 pm AND DADDY IS OFF TO BED AND I AM HEADED THERE MYSELF, NO EXCERCISE TONITE AS I AM IN TOO MUCH PAIN.  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 8-10-17  hopefully this sound will not kill me while i sleep.

I HAVE A CATEGORY CALLED LIFE WITH A CAT MORE PSYCHOTIC THAN I AM.  THE CAT IS MORE PSYCHOTIC THAN I AM BECAUSE IT DOES NOT UNDERSTAND SOME THINGS BUT I CAN SEE THOSE LITTLE WHEELS SPINNING IN ITS LITTLE HEAD SOME DAYS, OTHER DAYS-THE CAT CANNOT DEAL WITH THE SITUATIONS AND RESORTS TO EITHER FIGHT OR FLIGHT MODE OR IS JUST SCARED OF EVERYTHING.  I GET LIKE THAT MYSELF SO I UNDERSTAND IT.   TODAY I FOUND MYSELF IN A AITUATION THAT SICKENED ME…MY DAD HAD CALLED THE VET AND WAS GOING TO HAVE THE PSYCHOTIC CAT PUT DOWN BECAUSE IT IS LIVING WITH A LOT OF FEAR, AND I GUESS MY DAD THOUGHT IT BETTER TO THROW THE CAT AWAY IN A MANNER OF SPEAKING RATHER THAN HELP TRAIN IT TO DEAL WITH LIFE WITHOUT BEING PARALIZED BY FEAR.  I STILL HAVE LOTS OF FEARS THAT MOST PEOPLE DO NOT SEE BECAUSE I AM TRYING MY BEST TO DEAL WITH THESE FEARS BY MYSELF, I DO NOT HAVE ANY PSYCIATRIC DOCTORS TO HELP ME ANYMORE SO I DEAL WITH THESE THINGS THE BEST I CAN AND NOW I WONDER HAS MY DADDY THOUGHT OF GETTING RID OF ME?  HE DOES NOT BELEIVE A WORD I SAY ABOUT THE SOUNDS THAT PLAGUE ME OR ABOUT THE HACKING I AM STILL DEALING WITH TO THIS VERY DAY BECAUSE HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND ANY OF THE TECHNICAL STUFF.   NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT, THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT MY PARNTS DID WITH ME WHEN I WAS A KID, BECAUSE I WAS LOOKED UPON AS INCORRIGIBLE AS A CHILD, BOTH OF MY PARENTS DID THEIR BEST TO THROW ME AWAY JUST LIKE THEY DID THEIR MARRIAGE WHICH WAS NOT WORKING OUT, THEY BOTH DID THE SAME THINGS BUT IN DIFFERENT MANNERS, MY MOM PUT ME IN FOSTER HOMES AND MENTAL HEALTH FACILITIES AND MY DAD FARMED ME AND MY SISTER OUT TO WHOMEVER HE COULD PAY TO TAKE CARE OF US WHILE HE WAS DOING WHATEVER IT WAS HE DID BACK THEN, PART OF THE TIME WE LIVED WITH MY AUNT MARTHA AND UNCLE CHUCK AND THOSE WERE THE BEST DAYS OF MY CHILDHOOD AND WHEN THEY WERE GONE, I WAS GOTTEN RID OF FIRST TO A FOSTER HOME AND A FEW YEARS LATER MY KID SISTER WAS PUT IN FOSTER CARE TOO.  I DO NOT KNOW WHY I WAS NOT VALUED MORE BY MY PARENTS BUT I AM POSITIVE MY BEING THE INCORRIGIBLE ONE IS WHAT MADE ME THE FIRST TO GO INTO FOSTERCARE… BECAUSE I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE MY PARENTS BREAKING UP OUR HOME I WAS LOOKED UPON AS SOMETHING TO BE GOTTEN RID OF AS TOO MUCH TROUBLE TO KEEP.  THIS CAT HAS CHANGED SO MUCH FROM WHEN I FIRST MET IT YOU WOULD NOT EVEN RECOGNISE IT AS THE SAME CAT.   YEAH, SOME DAYS THE CAT HIDES AND IS SCARED OF ITS OWN SHADOW BUT OTHER DAYS IT IS SO LOVING THAT IT GETS IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING.   WHAT THE CAT NEEDS IS WHAT I NEEDED BACK THEN-SOMEONE WITH THE TIME TO TEACH IT HOW TO BEHAVE.   IF I HAD GOTTEN THAT-I WOULD HAVE TURNED OUT MUCH DIFFERENT, BUT I DID NOT GET THAT SO I GREW UP UNWANTED AND REPELLED BY ALL DUE TO MY BEHAVIOR.   I DROVE PEOPLE AWAY ON PURPOSE, I GUESS IN MY ATTEMPTS TO GET ATTENTION, I DID NOT KNOW WHO TO BEHAVE, IT WAS NOT AN ACT. I JUST DID NOT KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE LIKE A LADY AND NO ONE REALLY HAD THE TIME OR THE PATIENCE TO DEAL WITH THE WILD ONE AND I WAS THROWN OUT.  BACK TO THE CAT…IT IS NOT LIKE IT IS A FEMALE CAT PRODUCING A LITTER OF KITS EVERY COUPLE MONTHS AND MAKING ALL FEEL GUILTY LOOKING AT THE STARVED CREATURES AS THEY TRY THEIR BEST TO GET SOME ATTENTION AND FOOD, THE BASIC NEEDS OF EVERY CREATURE.  THE ONLY THING REALLY WRONG WITH OUR CAT IS IT A FLEA BITTEN RUG WITH A CATTITUDE THAT CHANGES AS SWIFLY AS MY BI POLAR MANIA DOES AND IT IS DEALING WITH IT THE ONLY WAY IT KNOWS HOW TO, IT GETS SCARED AND HEADS FOR DADDYS LAP, ITS ONLY SAFE PLACE NOW THAT I AM HERE… I KNOW WHY DADDY IS KIND OF TIRED OF THE THING IN HIS LAP AS IT HAS TO BE HOT ON THE LAP FOR HOURS EVERY DAY BUT THAT IS NO REASON TO HAVE IT PUT DOWN WHEN WE HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO TEACH THE ANIMAL TO SIT NEXT TO US.  IF THAT LIITLE ANIMAL ONLY KNEW WHAT MY DADDY WAS THINKING THIS MORNING I BET HE WOULD NOT BE ON HIS LAP LIKE HE HAS BEEN.   IT WOULD FEEL BETRAYED.  AND THAT IS HOW I FEEL EVERY TIME MY DAD TELLS ME THE SOUND I AM BEING TORTURED WITH IS BULLSHIT.  THIS SOUND IS SOMETHING THAT OTHERS HAVE HEARD, POLICE AND CLINIC STAFF INCLUDED AND WHEN SOMEONE DOUBTS THAT IT IS TRUE JUST BECAUSE THEY DO NOT HEAR IT, I WONDER IF THEY THINK EVERYTHING I SAY IS FALSE.  TO BE CALLED A LIAR ABOUT SOMETHING JUST BECAUSE YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT REALLY SUCKS BUT IT SUCKS MORE FOR THOSE IS THE CARE OF THOSE WHO DO NOT BELIEVE US.   MY FORMER MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDER ACTED THE SAME WAY MY DAD DOES…THEY COULD NOT HELP ME SO THEY TRIED TO GET ME PUT IN AN INSTITUTION AS BEING GRAVELY DISABLED.   AND IF YOU THINK THIS IS BULLSHIT, I HAVE THE POLICE REPORT WHERE THEY CONSPIRED TO KEEP ME ON A MENTAL HEALTH HOLD AS LONG AS POSSIBLE FOR ANYONE TO READ, I MAY EVEN POST IT ON THE WEB AS IT IS QUITE A FUNNY THING TO READ ABOUT YOURSELF…ESPECIALLY THE PART WHERE THE COPS LISTED MY RACE AS ‘BLACK’…YOU WOULD GET A LAUGH OUT OF HOW I DEALT WITH THAT AS I DREW A SHIRT THAT READ ‘black lives matter’.   I FELT OUTRAGED THAT BECAUSE THEY COULD NOT HELP ME THAT THIER RECOURSE WAS GETTINGME PUT IN A LONG TERM MENTAL HEALTH HOLD MUCH LESS THAT THEY SAW ME AS BEING A NIGGER…  SO BEFORE YOU JUDGE ANYONE OR ANYTHING DEALING WITH A SITUATION THEY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE, INCLUDING MY DADDY THINKING A CAT WAS AS DISPOSABLE AS HIS KIDS WERE WHEN HE WAS A DRINKER, YOU MAY WANT TO TRY AND PLACE A DOLLAR VALUE ON THE THING BEFORE THROWING IT AWAY BEAUSE SOMETIMES YOU CANNOT GET BACK WHAT IS THOWN OUT.  AND I ONLY PUT IT THAT WAY BECAUSE MONEY SEEMS TO BE THE ONLY MEASURE OF WORTH PEOPLE UNDERSTAND…ME, MONEY IS NOT MY GOD. I HATE THE STUFF.  YOU CANNOT SCREW IT EAT IT OR GET LOVE FROM IT AND IT IS WHAT PEOPLE KILL FOR.   THE THINGS I VALUE ARE THE HARDEST THINGS TO COME BY…CARE, HONESTY, HOPE AND LOVE.  THE THINGS I NEVER HAVE HAD.  BUT I AM STILL SEEKING THESE THINGS EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I MAY NEVER FIND THEM, MAYBE I SHOULD SIGN UP TO FARMERS.COMhehehe writing done by karin wrape 8-9-17  and for you daddy…you get rid of ME before you ever think of harming that cat.ONE LAST THING…THE DVR AND TV SERVICE THAT SHOULD BE CUT OFF WAS RECORDING PROGRAMS THIS MORNING.  AND SOMEONE STILL IS ADDING A WHOLE LOT OF ADULT PROGRAMMING AND SPORTS CHANNELS TO THE THING TO THIS VERY MINUTE THERE ARE ABOUT 175 CHANNELS I KEEP TRYING TO LOCK DOWN FROM THE PEOPLE HACKING IT

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YEP, THIS MORNING THE SOUND RETURNED WITH A VENGANCE.   I WAS WAKENED AT 4 am AND WHEN I GOT UP TO PEE, MY DADDY DID AT THE VERY SAME TIME…COINCIDENCE?  MAYBE.  ANYHOO, THE SAME SOUND WAS AGAIN IN THE CAR WHEN I HAD TO GO TO THE BANK AND IT USUALLY GETS TO 100 DECIBELS BUT TODAY IT WAS REALLY BAD, THE SOUND WAS SUPER INTENSE TO THE POINT THAT RIGHT AWAY I COULD NOT SEE WITH THE GLASSES I WAS WEARING AND HAD TO PULL OVER AND CHANGE GLASSES AND THE CAR WAS ACTING REAL CREEPY TOO, USING A LOT MORE GAS THAN IT NORMALLY WOULD AND I SHOULD KNOW AFTER THOSE LONG DRIVES TO COLORADO AND BACK, I COULD GET OVER FOUR HUNDRED MILES ON A TANK OF GAS BY RUNNING AT AROUND 2000 RPMs…  SO WHEN I GO THRU OVER A QUARTER TANK OF GAS ON A SHORT TRIP TO TERREL, IT IS AWFUL NOTICEABLE CAUSE I WAS ONLY DRIVING AT 45-50  mph AT AROUND 1500 rpms.  BACK TO THE NOISE-IT WAS SO BAD THAT I WET DOWN SOME PAPER TOWELS AND COVERED MY RIGHT EYE AND PUT ONE OF THE NOISE CANCELLING EAR BUDS INTO MY RIGHT EAR AS THE SOUND COMES FROM DIRECTLY BEHIND ME AND TO THE RIGHT REAR OF THE VEHICLE, WITH THIS KIND OF PROTECTION FROM THE SOUND WAVES I AVOIDED GETTING A MIGRAINE ON THE WAY TO THE BANK.  THE WHOLE WAY I WAS PICKING UP STEREO FROM MOST PASSING VEHICLES, THEY WERE WALKING ALL OVER THE RADIO STATION I WAS LISTENING TO AND UNTIL I CHANGED THE STATION I WAS STUCK LISTENING TO HALF THE SONGS OF SOME COUNTRY AND WESTERN STATION.  ON THE WAY BACK I GOT AN IDEA, SINCE THE SOUND WAVES WERE HITTING ME AND ACTUALLY MOVING THE HIARS ON MY ARMS-I GOT A CARDBOARD BOX OUT OF THE TRUNK AND KIND OF FOLDED IT UP TO KEEP THE MAJORITY OF SOUND WAVES FROM REACHING MY HEAD AND WHILE I MAY HAVE LOOKED LIKE A FOOL WITH ONE SIDE OF MY GLASSES PACKED WITH WET PAPER TOWELS AND A CARDBOARD BOX DEFLECTING SOUND WAVES COMING FROM THE BACK OF THE CAR AND THE SPEAKERS FADED TO COMING TOTALLY FROM THE FRONT SPEAKERS, I MADE IT TO DADDY’s WITHOUT GETTING THE MIGRAINE THE SOUNDS COMING FROM THE BACK END OF THE CAR PRODUCE… BY THE TIME I GOT HOME I SWEAR THE DECIBEL LEVEL COMING DROM THE REAR OF THE CAR  WAS SO LOUD I COULD BARELY HEAR THE STEREO AT FULL BLAST OVER THAT GOD AWFUL SOUND.  IT MUST HAVE GOTTEN OVER 120 DECIBELS AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT LIGHT BULBS START TO BLOW UP AT 142 DECIBELS LIKE THEY WERE DOING IN THE TRAILER I WAS TENTING IN HOT SULPHER SPRINGS, COLORADO WHEN I STARTED GETTING THE MIGRAINES AND HAD TO BE PUT ON MIGRAINE MEDICATION.  NEXT TIME THE BULBS STARTED POPPING WAS WHEN I HAD MY RV AND THE WEEKEND TORTURES WERE REDICULOUS AS NOT ONE SINGLE ELECTRONIC THING IN THAT RV WORKED, I HAD  TO MAKE A 12 VOLT PLUG TO CHARGE MY STUFF MYSELF AND HOOK IT UP TO THE BATTERY.   ALSO I HAD GONE THRU THE WHOLE TRUCK AND DISABLED ANYTHING WITH WIRES, INCLUDING PULLING OUT THE STEREO AND REMOVING ALL SPEAKERS, DICONNECTING THE AC UNIT AND EVERY PANEL I  THAT DAMN TRUCK TO TRY AND ELIMINATE ANY SOURCES OF ELECTICAL THINGS IN THE RV AS POSSIBLE SOURCES OF THE NOISE… I EVEN UNPLUGGED LIGHTS AND HEATERS SO THAT IF I DID ANY NIGHT DRIVING, I HAD TO USE HAZARD LIGHTS.  I REALLY HAVE RRIED TO ISOLATE THE SOURCE BUT STILL THE BEST I CAN DO IS GET THE DECIBEL LEVELS IN MY IMMEDIATE SURROUNDINGS  AND IN THAT WAY TELL WHERE THE SOUND IN COMING IN FROM AND I HAVE IT DOWN TO THE REAR PASSENGER SIDE OF THE CAR AND THE AC VENTS IN DADDY’S TRAILER AS INCOMING SOURCE OF HIGH DECIBELS AND THAT IS WHEN THE AC IS NOT RUNNING, IT IS AT 100 DECIBELS FROM THE FLOOR VENTS AND THE SOUND CONCENTRATES IN THE CORNER I AM SLEEPING IN AND INCREASES IN INTENSITY AFTER DADDY GOES TO BED.  THE POOR CAT MUST BE GOING OUT OF IT’S MIND FROM THE NOISE.  ALSO THE OTHER DAY THE SOUND IN BOTH TRAILER AND CAR WAS A JUMPY CRICKET SOUND, THIS MORNING BOTH SOUNDS ARE THE SAME HISSING SOUND I AM SO FAMILIAR WITH BY NOW AND OF COURSE I HAVE A SMALL HEADACHE FORMING WHICH I WILL MOST LIKELY TAKE SOME OPIATES TO STOP BEFORE THE NIGHT IS HERE AS I AM WATCHING WHAT SHOULD BE THE LAST DAY OF THE DISH SERVICE AND AS SOON AS THEY CUT THIS CRAP OFF, I AM DISABLING ALL SATELLITE DISHES ON THIS TRAILER.   I AM SURE I WILL BE HORRIBLY TORTURED THIS WEEKEND AND THEY HAVE BEEN ADDING SPORTS CHANNELS AGAIN WHILE I WAS AWAY AT THE BANK SO I AM REDORDING ON ALL THREE TUNERS TIL SERVICE IS CUT  OFF IN AN EFFORT TO KEEP THE HACKERS FROM WATCHING MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL ON MY LAST DIME OF DISH SERVICE.   I DO NOT THINK I WILL RETURN THE DVR.  I THINK I WOULD RATHER DESTROY THE THING OUT OF SHEER MEANESS…LET THEM BILL ME FOR IT, I COULD CARE LESS AFTER BEING CALLED A LIAR REPEATEDLY BY THE DISH FOLKS WHO CLAIM A DVR CANNOT BE REMOTELY ACCESSED…  JUST THEM THINKING A DVR CANNOT BE REMOTELY ACCESSED BY AN AUDIO AND VIDEO BUSINNESS THAT BRAGS SPECIFICALLY ABOUT REMOTELY ACCESSING EVERY SINGLE THING IN YOUR HOME PISSES ME OFF SINCE I HAVE MORE THAN ENOUGH PROOF TO THE CONTRARY THAT THEY CAN, INCLUDING THE SMART CARDS I WAS FINDING IN THE TRASH WHEN  I FIRST CAUGHT EMPLOYEES OF MICHAELS AUDIO AND VIDEO HACKING INTO MY DIRECT TV SATELLITE DISH.  I STILL HAVE THEM IN CASE ANYONE DOES NOT BELIEVE ME, I AM MORE THAN WILLING TO PULL THEM OUT FOR ANYONE TO SEE.   SO NOW YOU KNOW THE TYPE OF EXPERIMENTATION I HAVE DONE TODAY AND THAT I CALL IT SUCESSFUL TO THE POINT THAT I PLAN TO GET A LOT MORE CARDBOARD AND BLOCK THE WHOLE BACK HALF OF THE CAR OFF FOR MY PROTECTION WHEN DRIVING.  TIL I FIND THE THING PRODUCING THE NOISE-THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO DRIVE AS SAFELY AS POSSIBLE. FRIGGIN SHAME I HAVE TO GO TO THESE LENGTHS TO PROTECT MYSELF FROM THE SAME NOISE I HAVE DOCUMENTED BEING TORTURED BY WHEN IN DIFFERENT AREAS OF COLORADO MOST EVERY WEEKEND.  LOOKS LIKE THE JERKS HAVE PUT THE SAME THING PRODUCING THE NOISE IN BOTH THE TRAILER AND THE CAR AND THIS IS ALL I CAN DO UNTIL I CAN VISUALLY INSPECT UNDER THE TRAILER AND THE BACK HALF OF THE CAR.  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 8-4-17   ANYONE CARE TO COMMENT ON THE PROTECTIVE STRATEGIES I HAVE COME UP WITH???  I SEE WHAT YOU PEOPLE ARE READING ON THIS SITE SO WHY ARE YOU SO SCARED TO LEAVE ANY COMMENTS?
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