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TODAY WAS ONE FOR THE BOOKS.  ON MY WAYS BACK FROM A DOCTORS OFFICE  I SEE A RED HEADED CHICKEN FLYING OVERHEAD AS I NEARED MY DADS HOME AND ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD WAS A LARGE FEMALE BUZZARD WITH A WING FLIPPED OVER AND UNABLE TO FLY.  I WENT HOME AND LOOKED FOR SOME AGENCY THAT HELPED WILD ANIMALS THAT ARE HURT BUT ONLY ABLE TO TALK WITH ONE VET THAT DEALT WITH INJURED RAPTORS AND I GOT THE QUICK AND DIRTY VERSION OF WHAT SHE WOULD DO, WERE SHE ABLE TO-TRY TO TWIST THE FLIPPED OVER WING AROUND AND IF THE WING WERE TOO BADLY DAMAGED, SHOOT THE POOR CREATURE.  MY DAD WAS KIND OF SHOCKED WHEN I PICKED UP ONE OF MY BLANKETS AND HEADED FOR THE CAR WITH IT AND I TOLD HIM I SIMPLY COULD NOT DO NOTHING AFTER SEEING AN ANIMAL IN PAIN LIKE THAT AND PROCEEDED ON.  I THREW THE BLANKET OVER IT AND MANAGED TO TWIST THE WING AROUND A BIT BEFORE THE POOR CREATURE SKITTERED OFF INTO THE THICK UNDERBRUSH AND IT WAS MOVING BETTER THAN IT WAS BUT TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, I DO NOT SEE THE BIRD MAKING IT THRU.  NATURE IS NOT BEING CRUEL INTENTIONALLY-THIS IS THE WAY OF WILD THINGS, LIVE FAST AND REPRODUCE IS THE MOST YOU CAN HOPE FOR BEFORE YOU END UP SOMETHINGS DINNER.   I JUST WONDER HOW MANY PEOPLE WOULD RISK GETTING A GOOD STRONG PECK WITH THE BEAK OF A WILD BUZZARD TO TRY AND HELP IF THEY SAW IT HURT LIKE I DID… ONE OF THOSE THINGS YOU CANNOT UNSEE.  THE ONLY OTHER THING ABOUT TODAY IS THE SOUND ASSAULT IS PRETTY BAD TODAY WITH THE VERY FAST TAPPING SOUND IN THE KITCHEN AREA KEEPING ME IN MY PILLOW FORT ON THE COUCH TRYING TO PROTECT MYSELF FROM THE SOUNDWAVES HITTING MY BODY BUT IT LOOKS LIKE THE DAMAGE HAS BEEN DONE, NOW I AM GETTING NOSEBLEEDS.  I THOUGHT I WAS SWEATING FROM BEING ON THE LAST 3/4 MILE JOG OF THE DAY, AND I LOOK DOWN AND INSTEAD OF SWEAT I SEE BLOOD ALL DOWN THE FRONT OF MY TOP AND BLOOD SPATTERS ON MY ANKLES.  THIS SOUND IS CAUSING ME TO HAVE NOSEBLEEDS. GREAT.  WHATS NEXT? ANAL BLEEDING? JUST ONE MORE REASON FOR ME TO ENJOY EVERY SINGLE BITE OF THE COOKIES I MADE THIS MORNING WITH PLENTY OF COLD MILK, BEST ENJOY THE GOOD STUFF WHILE I STILL CAN…MY DAD IS GETTING ON ME FOR DRINKING THE MILK SAYING IT HAS A LOT OF FAT AND WILL CAUSE ME TO GET FAT BUT DAMN…I DONT HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF ANYTHING IN MY LIFE BUT A DADDY WATCHING EVERY SINGLE BITE I EAT AND TELLING ME I AM GONNA GET FAT.  I HAVE EDEMA PROBLEMS CAUSING WATER TO GATHER AROUND MY ORGANS AND JUST WENT TO A DOCTOR YESTERDAY TO GET BLOODWORK AND A FLU SHOT AND REFERRALS TO OTHER  DOCTORS, AND I WAS ABLE TO SHOW THE DOCTOR MY CLOUDY URINE SAMPLE BEFORE IT WAS SENT OFF, THE DOCTOR NEEDS TO SEE JUST HOW CLOUDY IT IS SO HE KNOWS ALL THE PARTICULARS OF MY HEALTH ISSUES SO HE CAN HELP ME BEST AND I AM SURE HE WAS QUITE SURPRISED I WOULD NOTICE SOMETHING LIKE THAT BUT I NOTICE MOST EVERY ISSUE THAT RELATES TO MY HEALTH PRETTY QUICK SO A NOSEBLEED LIKE THIS IS DEFINITELY GOING DOWN IN MY DAILY LOGS AND WILL BE TOLD TO THE DOC AS SOON AS I GO BACK TO DISCUSS MY BLOODWORK, TIL THEN , I WILL TROT MY TWO AND A HALF MILES ON MY TREADMILL AND ENJOY EVERY SINGLE BITE OF COOKIE I WANT AS YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU WILL GET YOUR LAST ONE…MMMMMDADDY COOKIES……………..I AM DOING THE WORK TO TRY AND BATTLE THE EDEMA AND TO TRY AND GET AHOLD OF THE DOCTORS I NEED TO HELP ME TAKE CARE OF MYSELF TIL ME AND THE DOC GET THEM BLOODWORK RESULTS BACK I AM GONNA ENJOY EVERY COOKIE LIKE IT COULD BE MY LAST ONE BEFORE I GET ORDERS FROM THE DOCTOR TO STOP EATING COOKIES.  OH AND THE CAT SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT SLEEPING NEXT TO ME ON THE COUCH! FOUR MONTHS SINCE I MET THE SCARED FELINE AND NOW HE SLLEPS NEXT TO ME…NO DADDY IS NOT PUTTING DOWN THE CAT, IF HE WANT TO KILL SOMETHING TO PUT IT OUT OF ITS MISERY, I CAN POINT HIM DOWN THE ROAD TOWARDS THE BUZZARD TO CHECK AND SEE IF IT IS SUFFERING…one more dumb thing… the mental health doc who wanted to put me on a drug i have refused before cause of the rediculously bad side effects that would definitely harm me called today to see if i was going to bother with another appointment and i guess she already knewi was not coming back from the tone of the voice over the phone.  nope, had she bothered to read my files she would have known i have refused this drug before just necause of pre existing health issues it would negatively affect.  if they aint gonna read my previous file notes, why do they bother summoning them?   jan lorenz. one more doctor not out to help me but to promote some friggin drug for pharmacutical companies.

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I HAVE A CATEGORY CALLED LIFE WITH A CAT MORE PSYCHOTIC THAN I AM.  THE CAT IS MORE PSYCHOTIC THAN I AM BECAUSE IT DOES NOT UNDERSTAND SOME THINGS BUT I CAN SEE THOSE LITTLE WHEELS SPINNING IN ITS LITTLE HEAD SOME DAYS, OTHER DAYS-THE CAT CANNOT DEAL WITH THE SITUATIONS AND RESORTS TO EITHER FIGHT OR FLIGHT MODE OR IS JUST SCARED OF EVERYTHING.  I GET LIKE THAT MYSELF SO I UNDERSTAND IT.   TODAY I FOUND MYSELF IN A AITUATION THAT SICKENED ME…MY DAD HAD CALLED THE VET AND WAS GOING TO HAVE THE PSYCHOTIC CAT PUT DOWN BECAUSE IT IS LIVING WITH A LOT OF FEAR, AND I GUESS MY DAD THOUGHT IT BETTER TO THROW THE CAT AWAY IN A MANNER OF SPEAKING RATHER THAN HELP TRAIN IT TO DEAL WITH LIFE WITHOUT BEING PARALIZED BY FEAR.  I STILL HAVE LOTS OF FEARS THAT MOST PEOPLE DO NOT SEE BECAUSE I AM TRYING MY BEST TO DEAL WITH THESE FEARS BY MYSELF, I DO NOT HAVE ANY PSYCIATRIC DOCTORS TO HELP ME ANYMORE SO I DEAL WITH THESE THINGS THE BEST I CAN AND NOW I WONDER HAS MY DADDY THOUGHT OF GETTING RID OF ME?  HE DOES NOT BELEIVE A WORD I SAY ABOUT THE SOUNDS THAT PLAGUE ME OR ABOUT THE HACKING I AM STILL DEALING WITH TO THIS VERY DAY BECAUSE HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND ANY OF THE TECHNICAL STUFF.   NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT, THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT MY PARNTS DID WITH ME WHEN I WAS A KID, BECAUSE I WAS LOOKED UPON AS INCORRIGIBLE AS A CHILD, BOTH OF MY PARENTS DID THEIR BEST TO THROW ME AWAY JUST LIKE THEY DID THEIR MARRIAGE WHICH WAS NOT WORKING OUT, THEY BOTH DID THE SAME THINGS BUT IN DIFFERENT MANNERS, MY MOM PUT ME IN FOSTER HOMES AND MENTAL HEALTH FACILITIES AND MY DAD FARMED ME AND MY SISTER OUT TO WHOMEVER HE COULD PAY TO TAKE CARE OF US WHILE HE WAS DOING WHATEVER IT WAS HE DID BACK THEN, PART OF THE TIME WE LIVED WITH MY AUNT MARTHA AND UNCLE CHUCK AND THOSE WERE THE BEST DAYS OF MY CHILDHOOD AND WHEN THEY WERE GONE, I WAS GOTTEN RID OF FIRST TO A FOSTER HOME AND A FEW YEARS LATER MY KID SISTER WAS PUT IN FOSTER CARE TOO.  I DO NOT KNOW WHY I WAS NOT VALUED MORE BY MY PARENTS BUT I AM POSITIVE MY BEING THE INCORRIGIBLE ONE IS WHAT MADE ME THE FIRST TO GO INTO FOSTERCARE… BECAUSE I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE MY PARENTS BREAKING UP OUR HOME I WAS LOOKED UPON AS SOMETHING TO BE GOTTEN RID OF AS TOO MUCH TROUBLE TO KEEP.  THIS CAT HAS CHANGED SO MUCH FROM WHEN I FIRST MET IT YOU WOULD NOT EVEN RECOGNISE IT AS THE SAME CAT.   YEAH, SOME DAYS THE CAT HIDES AND IS SCARED OF ITS OWN SHADOW BUT OTHER DAYS IT IS SO LOVING THAT IT GETS IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING.   WHAT THE CAT NEEDS IS WHAT I NEEDED BACK THEN-SOMEONE WITH THE TIME TO TEACH IT HOW TO BEHAVE.   IF I HAD GOTTEN THAT-I WOULD HAVE TURNED OUT MUCH DIFFERENT, BUT I DID NOT GET THAT SO I GREW UP UNWANTED AND REPELLED BY ALL DUE TO MY BEHAVIOR.   I DROVE PEOPLE AWAY ON PURPOSE, I GUESS IN MY ATTEMPTS TO GET ATTENTION, I DID NOT KNOW WHO TO BEHAVE, IT WAS NOT AN ACT. I JUST DID NOT KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE LIKE A LADY AND NO ONE REALLY HAD THE TIME OR THE PATIENCE TO DEAL WITH THE WILD ONE AND I WAS THROWN OUT.  BACK TO THE CAT…IT IS NOT LIKE IT IS A FEMALE CAT PRODUCING A LITTER OF KITS EVERY COUPLE MONTHS AND MAKING ALL FEEL GUILTY LOOKING AT THE STARVED CREATURES AS THEY TRY THEIR BEST TO GET SOME ATTENTION AND FOOD, THE BASIC NEEDS OF EVERY CREATURE.  THE ONLY THING REALLY WRONG WITH OUR CAT IS IT A FLEA BITTEN RUG WITH A CATTITUDE THAT CHANGES AS SWIFLY AS MY BI POLAR MANIA DOES AND IT IS DEALING WITH IT THE ONLY WAY IT KNOWS HOW TO, IT GETS SCARED AND HEADS FOR DADDYS LAP, ITS ONLY SAFE PLACE NOW THAT I AM HERE… I KNOW WHY DADDY IS KIND OF TIRED OF THE THING IN HIS LAP AS IT HAS TO BE HOT ON THE LAP FOR HOURS EVERY DAY BUT THAT IS NO REASON TO HAVE IT PUT DOWN WHEN WE HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO TEACH THE ANIMAL TO SIT NEXT TO US.  IF THAT LIITLE ANIMAL ONLY KNEW WHAT MY DADDY WAS THINKING THIS MORNING I BET HE WOULD NOT BE ON HIS LAP LIKE HE HAS BEEN.   IT WOULD FEEL BETRAYED.  AND THAT IS HOW I FEEL EVERY TIME MY DAD TELLS ME THE SOUND I AM BEING TORTURED WITH IS BULLSHIT.  THIS SOUND IS SOMETHING THAT OTHERS HAVE HEARD, POLICE AND CLINIC STAFF INCLUDED AND WHEN SOMEONE DOUBTS THAT IT IS TRUE JUST BECAUSE THEY DO NOT HEAR IT, I WONDER IF THEY THINK EVERYTHING I SAY IS FALSE.  TO BE CALLED A LIAR ABOUT SOMETHING JUST BECAUSE YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT REALLY SUCKS BUT IT SUCKS MORE FOR THOSE IS THE CARE OF THOSE WHO DO NOT BELIEVE US.   MY FORMER MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDER ACTED THE SAME WAY MY DAD DOES…THEY COULD NOT HELP ME SO THEY TRIED TO GET ME PUT IN AN INSTITUTION AS BEING GRAVELY DISABLED.   AND IF YOU THINK THIS IS BULLSHIT, I HAVE THE POLICE REPORT WHERE THEY CONSPIRED TO KEEP ME ON A MENTAL HEALTH HOLD AS LONG AS POSSIBLE FOR ANYONE TO READ, I MAY EVEN POST IT ON THE WEB AS IT IS QUITE A FUNNY THING TO READ ABOUT YOURSELF…ESPECIALLY THE PART WHERE THE COPS LISTED MY RACE AS ‘BLACK’…YOU WOULD GET A LAUGH OUT OF HOW I DEALT WITH THAT AS I DREW A SHIRT THAT READ ‘black lives matter’.   I FELT OUTRAGED THAT BECAUSE THEY COULD NOT HELP ME THAT THIER RECOURSE WAS GETTINGME PUT IN A LONG TERM MENTAL HEALTH HOLD MUCH LESS THAT THEY SAW ME AS BEING A NIGGER…  SO BEFORE YOU JUDGE ANYONE OR ANYTHING DEALING WITH A SITUATION THEY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE, INCLUDING MY DADDY THINKING A CAT WAS AS DISPOSABLE AS HIS KIDS WERE WHEN HE WAS A DRINKER, YOU MAY WANT TO TRY AND PLACE A DOLLAR VALUE ON THE THING BEFORE THROWING IT AWAY BEAUSE SOMETIMES YOU CANNOT GET BACK WHAT IS THOWN OUT.  AND I ONLY PUT IT THAT WAY BECAUSE MONEY SEEMS TO BE THE ONLY MEASURE OF WORTH PEOPLE UNDERSTAND…ME, MONEY IS NOT MY GOD. I HATE THE STUFF.  YOU CANNOT SCREW IT EAT IT OR GET LOVE FROM IT AND IT IS WHAT PEOPLE KILL FOR.   THE THINGS I VALUE ARE THE HARDEST THINGS TO COME BY…CARE, HONESTY, HOPE AND LOVE.  THE THINGS I NEVER HAVE HAD.  BUT I AM STILL SEEKING THESE THINGS EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I MAY NEVER FIND THEM, MAYBE I SHOULD SIGN UP TO FARMERS.COMhehehe writing done by karin wrape 8-9-17  and for you daddy…you get rid of ME before you ever think of harming that cat.ONE LAST THING…THE DVR AND TV SERVICE THAT SHOULD BE CUT OFF WAS RECORDING PROGRAMS THIS MORNING.  AND SOMEONE STILL IS ADDING A WHOLE LOT OF ADULT PROGRAMMING AND SPORTS CHANNELS TO THE THING TO THIS VERY MINUTE THERE ARE ABOUT 175 CHANNELS I KEEP TRYING TO LOCK DOWN FROM THE PEOPLE HACKING IT

I ACTUALLY GOT SOME SLEEP LAST NIGHT…THE PEOPLE WHO ARE CAUSING THIS SOUND IN THE TRAILER AND THE CAR ARE DOING THIER BEST TO KEEP ME EXHAUSTED BUT I ACTUALLY GOT SOME SLEEP LAST NIGHT AND WOKE TO ONLY ONE CHANNEL FOR SPORTS UNLOCKED ON DVR AND THE SOUND WAS NOT NOTICEABLY PRESENT, THAT IS WHAT MUST HAVE LET ME GET TO SLEEP TO WHERE I WAS ABLE TO DREAM AND FEEL A BIT BETTER TODAY.  I DO NOT KNOW HOW LONG THE SILENCE WILL LAST BUT IT IS USUALLY NOT VERY LONG, AND REQUIRES BEING PUT ON THE CALENDAR AS A DAY WITHOUT AUDIO TORTURE.  MY LEFT HANDED WRITING IS GETTING BETTER THAN MY RIGHT HANDED WEITING AND YESTERDAY I FILLED OUT A DOCTOR OFFICE FORM WITH MY LEFT HAND AND IT WAS ACCEPTABLY LEGIBLE, I EVEN WRITE IN MY LOGS LEFT HANDED WHILE DRIVING…  THAT IS ONE OF MY CONTINGENCIES IN CASE THE PEOPLE HACKING ME BROKE MY RIGHT ARM IN SOME KIND OF ATTACK SO I WOULD BE ABLE TO STILL WRITE SHOULD THIS HAPPEN.  ANYONE THAT KNOWS ME KNOWS I AM REAL BIG ON CONTINGENCIES AND USUALLY HAVE THREE ALTERNATIVES TO WHATEVER I FEEL NEEDS BACK UP.   THAT IS THE REASON WHY WHEN MIND SPRINGS MENTAL HEALTH TRIED TO PUT ME IN LONG TERM MENTAL HEALTH HOLD FOR BEING GRAVELY DISABLED I KNOW THAT WAS SOMETHING THEY WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO PROVE AS I HAS EVERY SINGLE THING IN MY LIFE NECESSARY TO SURVIVE MINUS TWENTY DEGREE WEATHER WITH A BACK UP SHOULD HEATING OR COOKING ITEMS QUIT WORKING.  I AM NOT EVEN SLIGHTLY GRAVELY DISABLED, I DO HAVE A FEW TREMINAL ILLNESSES BUT I TRY TO TAKE THE BEST CARE OF MYSELF POSSIBLE AS THAT DEATH THING IS REALLY PAINFUL AND I AM NOT QUITE DONE WITH MY EARTHLY TASKS YET.  I STILL HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO GET A PRIMARY CARE PHYSICIAN YET AS I HAVE CALLED EVERY SINGLE DOCTOR OFFICE MEDICARE PROVIDED ME WITH NUMBERS TO AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM REFUSED TO TAKE ME AS A PATIENT AS I HAVE NUMEROUS SEROIUS HEALTH ISSUES, I AM RUNNING OUT OF MEDICATIONS I NEED AND WAS LOOKING INTO GETTING MEDICATIONS FOR PETS LIKE I USED TO WHEN I WAS STILL A DOPE ADDICT-WHEN I WOULD GET SERIOUS INFECTIONS, I COULD GET FISH ANTIBIOTICS REAL CHEAP BUT MY EDEMA IS GETTING BAD AND FISH DO NOT TAKE WATER PILLS SO I WAS LOOKING INTO OTHER AVENUES SUCH AS CANADIAN PHARMACIES AND LIVESTOCK MEDICATIONS BUT I ENDED UP GOING TO AN EMERCENCY CARE CLINIC ND WAS ABLE TO GET FOUR MONTHS OF MY WATER PILLS PRESCRIBED SO THE NEXT PROBLEM WILL BE MY THYROID MEDS AND I STILL HAVE AROUND TWO TO THREE MONTHS OF THEM BEFORE THINGS GET SEROIUS, PLENTY OF TIME TO DO DOCTOR SHOPPING WITHOUT BEING STRESSED.  NOTICE THE CHANGE IN MY WRITING FROM BEING EXTREMELY ANGRY WHEN EXHAUSTED ABOUT STUPID STUFF LIKE DVR HACKING AND TELEPHONE DISRUPTIONS BUT AFTER FOUR OR FIVE GOOD HOURS OF SLEEP THAT I CAN LOOK UPON THE STRESS FACTORS IN MY LIFE WITHOUT FREAKING OUT…THE DVR SHOULD GET SHUT OFF BY SATURDAY AND THEN I WILL DISABLE THE SATELLITE DISHES ON ROOF TO ELIMINATE THEM AS POSSIBLE SOURCES OF THE AUDIO TORTURE.   HERE IS A GOOD LAUGH…GAVE MY NEICES A PILE OF PCs AND THEY GOT ONE GOING AND ARE PROBABLY CONNECTING TO FAMILY INTERNET WITH THE DEVICE THAT HAS A VPN PROFILE ON IT DATED 7-23-13, THE EXACT DATE I CAUGHT MICHAEL SHURERS ROUTER CONNECTING TO MY ETHERNET TO MODEM INTERNET AND CREATING NEW USERS WITH THIER OWN PASSWORD AND ANSWER TO A SECRET QUESTION, THE PC I BOUGHT FROM AN ENGLEWOOD, COLORADO WALMART AND WHEN OPENED INSIDE THE STORE, THE BRAND NEW PC HAD THE VPN CONFIGURATION ON IT BEFORE IT EVER LEFT WALMART…I HOPE MY FAMILY IS READY TO DEAL WITH THE HACKING I DEAL WITH EVERY SINGLE DAY SINCE HEN BECAUSE THIEVES NEVER STOP AT ONE…  MY FAMILY IS FIXING TO HAVE EVERYTHING THEY OWN HACKED AND SINCE THEY THINK GOD WILL PROTECT THEM FROM THIS, I GUESS WE WILL SEE JUST HOW GOOD IS AT BLOCKING HACKERS,hehehe… REALLY-I AM POSITIVE THAT ONCE THE KIDS CONNECT TO ANY INTERNET THE FAMILY IS PAYING FOR THAT THEY WILL SOON BECOME VICTIMS JUST LIKE ME AND BEGIN TO AUFFER THE SAME CRAP I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH SINCE 2013…THAT IS IF THEY ARE SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW WHAT HACKING LOOKS LIKE… UNLESS MY FAMILY CONSISTS OF MORONS WITH SELECTIVE STUPIDITY THEY SHOULD BE ABLE TO TELL WHEN THINGS START TO GO TO HELL.   BUT MOST PEOPLE ARE UNAWARE OF THE VARIOUS TYPES OF CRIMES THAT CAN BE DONE WITH A STUPID PC OR A SMART PHONE, THE MAIN HACKING PORTS ARE 80, 443 and 1900 AND THEY WILL NEED TO WATCH TO SEE IF ANY STRANGE DEVICES SHOW UP ON THE NETWORKS CAUSE ONCE THESE HACKERS HACE YOUR IP AND ROUTER INFO THEY DO NOT SEEM TO HAVE A PROBLEM GETTING PASSWORDS AND CREATING SHELL ADVANCED FIREWALL RULES THAT WILL LITERALLY LOCK EVERYONE OUT OF THIER THINGS OR PROVIDE THE HACKERS WITH FREE TV OR SPORTS THROUGH ONLINE GUIs  AND I HAVE CAUGHT QUITE A FEW TYPES OF ATTACKS, EVERYTHING FROM PROGRAMS SPECIFICALLY FOR FERRETING OUT PASSWORD TO DIFFERNT TYPES OF BRITE FORCE, DICTIONALRY ATTACKS AND OF COURSE THE ‘GET’ METHOD OF HACKING.  MY FAMILY SHOULD WATCH THIER ANTIVIRUS PROGRAMS FROM BEING TAKEN OVER BY THE ‘TRUSTED INSTALLER’ AND WATCH THIER EVENT LOGS TO SEE IF THERE ARE ANONYMOUS LOG ONS THAT END UP TAKING ADMINISTRATIVE  CONTOL OF THIER VARIOUS DEVICES AND ESPECIALLY FOR  COMMAND CREATED WITH THE SHELL COMMAND PROMPT WINDOW…THAT WILL SHOW UP AS TAKING OVER CONTROL OF ANY MICROSOFT PROGRAMMING BASED DEVICE OR FOR THE QUAGGA REMOTE ACCESS VIA Iv6 THAT I HAVE ON THIS IPAD I AM USING RIGT NOW.  APPLE IS GOING TO BE ADDING 64 BIT PROGRAMMING TO THIER STUFF AT THE END OF AUTUMN, SO IF ANY C++ PROGRAMMING OR SCRIPTING STARTS TO SHOW UP ON APPLE PORDUCTS THE FAMILY MAY HAVE, THEY WILL KNOW THIER STUFF HAS BEEN HACKED.  THERE ARE SO MANY WAYS PEOPLE CAN BE EXPLOITED THROUGH TECHNOLOGY AND MOST PEOPLE CAN NOT EVEN IMAGINE THE THINGS BEING DONE, MUCH LESS BELIEVE THEM TO BE POSSIBLE, BUT I GUESS IT IS LIKE SPEAKING IN TONGUES…YOU WILL NOT KNOW IT IS REAL UNTIL YOU EXPERIENCE IT FIRSTHAND, TIL THEN MOST PEOPLE THINK IT TO BE BULLCRAP, I AM STILL TRYING TO PROVE OR DISPROVE OF SPEAKING IN TONGUES MYSELF AND I PRAY NOT ONLY TO EXPERIENCE THIS FOR MY SELF BUT ALSO FOR THE GIFT OF INTERPRETATION SO IF I EVER DO EXPERIENCE SPEAKING IN TONGUES, I WILL KNOW WHAT I AM SAYING…LATELY AT CHURCH, I HAVE FELT A MANEVOLENT PRESENCE THERE AND LITERALLY NO SPEAKING IN TONGUES HAS BEEN DONE THERE WHEN I AM PRESENT, BUT I CANNOT SAY FOR A FACT IF THEY ARE JUST PUTTING ON A SHOW WHEN THEY DO THIS OR IF I HAVE CAUSED THE HOLY SPIRIT TO DEPART FROM MY FAMILYS CHURCH, I AM STILL DOING MY EXPERIMENTS TO FIND OUT EITHER WAY IF IT IS REAL OR JUST CROWD INDUCED SPEAKING IN TONGUES AND I WONDER IF WHEN THESE PEOPLE WHO SHABALA AT CHURCH DO THIS IN THE PRIVACY OF THIER HOMES… I SAW A CHURCH SHOW ON TV WITH SOME GUY BY THE NAME OF PRINCE RUNNING THE SHOW AND WHEN HE WAS PRAYING  HE BEGAN TO SPREAK THE NOW FAMILIAR PHRASING BUT WHEN HE DID IT, THERE WAS NO JOY OR SHAKING OF THE BODY OR ANYTHING THAT WOULD MAKE ME BELIEVE IT WAS NOT AN ACT, IN FACT THE GUY WAS SAYING THE ‘SHABALAs’ IN SUCH A MONOTONE I WAS ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE HE WAS FAKING IT… I TOLD MY AUNT MARTHA ABOUT THIS FAKER AND APPARENTLY THEY WORSHIP THIS NUT AND BELIEVE HIM TO REALLY BE SPEAKING IN TONGUES.  I HOPE THEY ARE NOT SENDING THIS FAKE CHRISTIAN A BOATLOAD OF MONEY CAUSE IF THEY ARE-THEY ARE SCREWING THE POOCH BY SENDING THIER MONEY TO A PERSON WHO IS CLEARLY DOING THIS SPEAKING OF TONGUES AS AN ACT.  BODY LANGUAGE SAYS IT ALL CLEARLY.  IF YOU WANT TO SEE A BERY CLEAR CASE OF BODY LANGUAGE-GO TO YOUTUBE.COM AND LOOK UP VIDEOS POSTED BY KARIN WRAPE, SPECIFICALLY THE ONE CALLED ‘i do not like being touched like that’…AND YOU WILL BE ABLE TO SEE WHAT BODY LANGUAGE IS AND HOW CLEARLY YOU CAN TELL WHAT A PERSON IS FEELING SIMPLY BY WATCHING THIER BODY.  MY FORMER SECTION EIGHT WORKER, LINDA BLACKWELL ENDED UP WITH CRIMINAL CHARGES OVER THAT VIDEO SO A JUDGE COULD CLEARLY SEE THAT I INDEED DID NOT LIKE BEING TOUCHED. AND ESPECIALLY LIKE THAT…  WELL, I JUST THOUGHT I WOULD GET SOME OF MY THOUGHTS OUT AND ALSO APOLOGISE TO MY FAMILY FOR THAT ARTICLE I WROTE WITH CURSING IN IT.  SOME DAYS YOU REALLY DO NEED TO CURSE.  AND THAT WAS ONE OF THEM.  IT CAME OUT MAILY FROM ME BEING EXHAUSTED AND PISSED OFF BECAUSE I HAVE TO RID MYSELF OF THE TV SERVICE I JUST PAID A CHUNK TO GET AND HAVE TO RID MYSELF OF WITHIN TWO MONTHS BECAUSE OF THE JERKS AHCKING THE DVR…AND IF YOU REALLY DO NOT THINK A DVR CANNOT BE HACKED OR REMOTELY ACCESSED, JUST REMEMBER THE COMANY PROVIDING IT IS REMOTELY ACCESSING THE THING SO YOU CAN GET TV…SELECTIVE STUPIDITY…I GUESS WE ARE BORN WITH IT AND PART OF THE GROWING TO BECOME AN ADULT INCLUDES LOSING THAT NIATIVITY WE HAVE WHEN  WE ARE KIDS.   LOSING THAT IS WHAT MAKES US NO LONGER CHILDREN, I FEEL.   WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 8-3-17 and after over sixteen hundred words that some of you are going to read, there should be at least one comment…unless you want to remain selectively stupid, that is,hehehe  and if you do not believe people can use electronic devices to harm you, i sure hope you end up a victim of one of these creeps so you know by personal experience what i say is totally possible and really real.

YEP, ANOTHER DAY OF BEING WOKEN UP XTREMELY EARLY BY THIS GOD AWFUL SOUND THAT HITS 100 DECIBELS IN MY DADDY’S TRAILER AND THE SAME SOUND IS ALSO IN THE CAR AGAIN… LIKE I WOULD NOT NOTICE ONE HUNDRED FUCKING DECIBELS OF THIS SOUND I AM BEING TORTURED TO DEATH WITH…  THE MESSED UP PART IS THE SOUND HAD STOPPED.  IT WAS SO NOTICEABLE I WROTE ABOUT IT.  THEN THE SOUND STARTED UP AS A HISSING SOUND AND THE EXACT SAME SOUND IS IN THE CAR.  AND AT ONE HUNDRED DECIBELS TOO.  THIS IS NOT CICADAS BECAUSE THE SOUND CHANGES AND WHEN THE SOUND CHANGES IN THE TRAILER-IT CHANGES IN THE CAR TO THE SAME SOUND CURRENTLY TORTURING ME.  TODAY IT WAS SO BAD IT FELT LIKE INSECTS WERE ON MY SKIN IN THE CAR…BUT IT IS ACTUALLY SOUND WAVES HITTING ME FROM SOMETHING THAT HAS BEEN PUT IN OR ON THE CAR.  THE SAME THING IS UNDER THE TRAILER I AM SURE.  I HAVE AN APP ON THIS HACKED IPAD FOR A DECIBEL METER AND IT IS READING 100 DECIBELS EXACTLY.  IN BOTH THE CAR AND THIS TRAILER.  NO HIGHER.  I ALSO NEED TO MENTION THE AMOUNT OF CHANNELS IS GETTING TO THE STUPID POINT AGAIN.  I HAD LOCKED EVERY CHANNEL DOWN THIS MORNING AND THIS EVENING THERE WERE 438 MORE CHANNELS ON THE UNLOCKED SIDE AND WHEN I PUT EVERY ONE BACK ON THE LOCKED SIDE THE TOTAL IS  ONE THOUSAND AND FIFTY SEVEN FUCKING CHANNELS.  I TOOK PICTURES OF THE AMOUNT OF CHANNELS I HAD LOCKED DOWN.   DISH TELLS ME OVER AND OVER THAT A DVR CANNOT BE HACKED… JUST HOW FUCKING STUPID DO THE DISH PEOPLE THINK I AM?  APPARENTLY AS STUPID AS THEY ARE IF THEY THINK A DVR CANNOT BE HACKED BY AN AUDIO AND VIDEO BUSINESS I STRAIGHT UP CAUGHT HACKING A DVR AND CUTTING INTO A SATELLITE DISH AND STEALING EQUIPMENT FROM ME AFTER FORCING ME TO MOVE AFTER CATCHING THE THEFT.   I REALLY DOUBT THIS WILL MAKE IT OUT TO THE INTERNET BUT I FEEL THE NEED TO WRITE ABOUT THIS QND AS SOON AS I CAN GET MY PHOTOS IN THE CLOUD SO I CAN MAKE SOME NICE VIDEOS FOR YOUTUBE POSTING-THAT IS WHAT I WILL BE DOING NEXT.  MAKING SURE THAT EVERY DAMN PERSON I CAN GET TO WATCH MY VIDEOS KNOWS THAT I STILL HAVE SOME JACKASS ASSOCIATED WITH MICHAELS AUDIO AND VIDEO FROM GRAND COUNTY, COLORADO HACKING INTO MY PAID FOR SERVICES TO THIS VERY DAY AND DOING THE SAME AUDIO TORTURES AS I SUFFERED FOR YEARS IN COLORADO HERE. THAT PUNK MICHAEL SHURER WENT TO A LOT OF TROUBLE TO DESTROY MY LIFE SO I FEEL IT MY DUTY TO WARN THE WORLD ABOUT THIS RANK HACKING BUSINESS THAT REFUSES TO LEAVE ME IN PEACE.   I AM SURE THEY HAVE INVADED MY DADS PHONE LINES AS THE SAME HANG UPS AND POPS CLICKS AND ECHOING IS HAPPENNING WHEN I MAKE CALLS AS WAS HAPPENNING WHEN I POSTED ALL THE YOUTUBE.COM VIDEOS ABOUT HOW  Y PHONE USED TO SOUND.  MY DAD MAY THINK THIS IS BULLSHIT BUT HE DOES NOT KNOW WHAT IS CAN BE DONE TO HARM YOU OR STEAL FROM YOU IF YOU HAVE THE PROGRAMMING SKILLS AND ZERO ETHICS LIKE MICHAEL SHURER AND HIS ROTTEN EMPLOYEES OF HIS THEIVING BUSINESS DO.  I PAID A LOT OF MONEY TO GET TV SERVICE AFTER YEARS OF DOING WITHOUT IT DUE TO CATCHING THE INVASION OF MY SATELLITE DISH AND DIRECT TV DVR BY MICHAEL SHURERS EMPLOYEES WHO WERE HOUSED IN THE APARTMENT BUILDING I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO RNT A UNIT IN.  IT IS THE SAME EXACT CRAP AS WAS HAPPENING THEN SO IT MUST BE THE SAME RANK PEOPLE AND DRUG ADDICTS DOING THIS.  ENOUGH SAID.  I WILL MAKE SURE EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT THE SOUTHERN STAR DISH INSTALLER WHO TOOK PICTURES OF MY DADS PC WITH HIS CELLPHONE.  THE JERK BROUGHT A DVR WITH A CORRUPTED HARD DRIVE AND I WOULD NOT BE THE SLIGHTEST BIT SURPRISED TO FIND SOME KIND OF HIDDEN CAMERA IN THE DVR RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME WERE I TO TAKE IT APART…AND I JUST MAY AS DISH IS NOT GOING TO GET ONE MORE FUCKING DIME FROM ME OR MY BANK ACCOUNTS.  I ALREADY CAUGHT MY BANK CARD BEING USED IN MASSECHUSETTES AND CHANGED THE ACCOUNT NUMBERS AFTER I GOT  THE MONEY BACK FROM THE THEFT FROM WELLS FARGO AND THEY ARE WATCHING MY ACCOUNTS VERY CLOSELY NOW AS THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME I HAVE CAUGHT THEFT FROM MY ACCOUNTS AFTER GETTING TV SERVICE.   DO NOT TRUST ANYONE FROM SOUTHERN STAR IN YOUR HOUSE.  I HAVE CAUGHT TWO DIFFERENT COMPANIES WITH DISH LIKE NAMES REMOVING MONEY FROM MY BANK ACCOUNTS, THEN THE BANK CARD NUMBER BEING USED AT A GULF STATION IN ANOTHER STATE.  IF YOU LET ANYONE ASSOCIATED WITH SOUTHERN STAR IN YOUR HOUSE AFTER READING ABOUT MY DADS PC GETTING PICS TAKEN BY AN SOUTHERN STAR EMPLOYEES CELL PHONE, YOU DESERVE TO BE STOLEN FROM BECAUSE YOU ARE SELECTIVELY STUPID.  THERAPUTIC  WRITING DONE BY A TORTURED KARIN WRAPE 8-1-17 To tell you the truth, i really do not give a crap if this makes it to the internet or not…i just needed to let off some steam after another day of audio torture and a very early awakening.

I WAS DOING AN EXPERIMENT TO SEE IF THE SOUND I AM BEING TORTURED WITH WAS GOING TO HAVE BAD EFFECTS ON OTHERS IN THE CONGREGATION BUT IT WAS SPOILED BY THE WOMAN WHO WAS SITTING NEXT TO ME WHO REFUSED TO PUT THE CELL PHONE POINTED DIRECTLY ME AWAY.   I WAS SITTING IN THE LAST PEW AND THE SOUND THAT IS KEEPING ME A TORTURED SOUL IN MY DADDY’S HOME AND IN THE CAR HE GOT FOR ME TO USE, WELL, IT IS IN THE CHURCH NOW… I SEE THEY ARE TAKING VIDEO OF THE SERMON AND I DO NOT KNOW IF THAT COULD BE SOMETHING EMITTING THE SOUND, AT THIS POINT EVERY ELECTRONIC DEVICE IS SUSPECT.   MY OXYGEN CONCENTRATOR BEGAN TO EMIT A HIGH PITCHED SQUEAL MY DAD THOUGHT WAS COMING FROM MY IPAD, WHEN I GOT UP I SAW IT WAS MY OXYGEN CONCENTRATOR AND THIS HAS BEEN AN ISSUE IN THE PAST, MY O 2 DEVICES BEING KILLED ONE AFTER ANOTHER AND MY REGULATORS BEING DESTROYED-THE LAST ONE ACTUALLY HAD THE GUAGE BLOW APART…THE COMPANY SUPPYING MY OXYGEN HAD NEVER SEEN A REGULATOR BLOW APART BEFORE BUT I HAVE SEEN LIGHT BULBS BLOW UP IN TWO DIFFERENT COUNTIES IN COLORADO.  IT TAKES 142 DECIBELS TO BLOW UP LIGHT BULBS AND I HAVE  SEEN THE DECIBEL METER AT MY DADDY’S PICKING UP ONE HUNDRED DECIBELS FROM VENTS IN THE FLOOR, EVERY SINGLE VENT I CHECKED AND EVERY SINGLE VENT WAS AT ONE HUNDRED DECIBELS EXACTLY.  MY CORNER I SLEEP IN IS A HORROR TO LAY IN AND NOW I HAVE TRIED YET ANOTHER TYPE OF HEADPHONES  AND WHILE THEY GREATLY REDUCE THE NOISE – I CAN STILL HEAR THE SOUND VERY CLEARLY OVER THESE IN EAR NOISE CANCELLING HEADPHONES…  LAST NIGHT I WAS WAKEN UP BY THE SOUND JUST AFTER 12:30 am AND I WAS ONLY ABLE TO GET LESS THAN TWO HOURS OF SLEEP, COULD NOT GO BACK TO SLEEP TO A DREAM STATE AS THIS GOD AWFUL SOUND WAS A CONSTANT HISS.   I WAS ON 300 mg. of SEROQUEL AND VALIUM AS WELL SO I WOULD BE FRESH AFTER WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD BE A NIGHT OF REST BUT I WAS WOKEN OUT OF A DRUG INDUCED SLEEP YET AGAIN.  THIS IS EXTREMELY NOTICEABLE AFTER TWO DAYS OF SILENCE.   THE FACTS ARE THE SOUND IS THE SAME IN HOME, CAR AND CHURCH SO I THINK IT BEST TO STOP GOING TO CHURCH BEFORE OTHER PEOPLE THERE GET SICK.   ONE GOOD THING HAS HAPPENED TODAY, THE CAT GAVE ME ABOUT A HALF HOUR OF QUALITY CAT TIME AS DADDY IS KIND OF SICK OF THE CAT BEING STUCK TO HIS LAP…NOTHING LIKE A HOT FURRY ORANGE CAT SHAPED RUG STUCK TO YOUR CROTCH, HAHAHA!   IF HE IS AT THE PC OR JUST WALKING AROUND, THE CAT HAS TWO CHOICES, MY LAP OR NONE AT ALL…  AFTER THE DISH DVR IS GONE FROM THE HOUSE I  WILL BE SITTING NEXT TO DADDY AGAIN WATCHING THOSE OLD MOVIES WITH HIM AGAINAND THIS TIME I WILL APPRECIATE IT A WHOLE LOT MORE THAN I DID BEFORE GETTING THE HACKED DVR FROM DISH TV OR I DISH.COM LLC, ALL I KNOW FOR FACT IS I WAS PAYING MONEY TO TWO DIFFERENT  COMPANIES AND I CAUGHT SOMEONE BUYING GAS WITH MY CARD NUMBERS IN MA.  FROM A GULF STATION AND I WAS NO WHERE NEAR MASSACHUSETTES…WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE, 7-30-17 AFTER WHAT I WOULD CALL RUDE TREATMENT BY SOMEONE AT A MINEOLA CHURCH.   CAN HARDLY WAIT TO SEE IF SOMETHING ACCESSED THIS IPAD WHILE THERE IN THE DIAGNOSTIC LOGS…AND I WOULD BET CASH MONEY THERE WILL BE SPORTS PROGRAMMING ADDED TO THE UNLOCKED CHANNELS OF MY DVR AND THE PHONE HAS BEGUN TO GET HUNG UP DURING CALLS TO DISH TV JUST LIKE I USED TO DEAL WITH WHEN I HAD A LANDLINE AND ECHO OR THE SOUND JUST NOT BE ABLE TO BE HEARD ON MY END.

MY HARD HEADED FATHER WILL NOT LET ME DRIVE TO GAS STATION ALONE.  HE WANTS TO FOLLOW ME AND LEAVE THIS PLACE WITH NO ONE HERE AND I HAVE A REALLY BAD GUT FEELING THAT THEY WILL BREAK IN WHILE HE IS GONE AND HARM THAT CAT HE LOVES SO MUCH SO I REFUSE TO LEAVE TIL THIS FEELING GOES AWAY.  THE SPORTS CHANNELS ARE  THAT ARE BEING ADDED IS GETTING TO THE REDICULOUS POINT. AND I WAS GOING TO GO TO THE LINRARY AND DO SOME SHOPPING  UT THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, I WILL LET DADDY GET A GALLON OF GAS NEXT TIME HE GOES TO TOWN IF ONLY TO PROTECT HIS FRIGGIN CAT FROM BEING POISONED.  HE DOES NOT BELIEVE A WORD I SAY ABOUT THESE HACKERS AND THIER EVIL ACTIONS IN THE PAST.  HE BASICALLY IS CALLING ME A LIAR BY SAYING BULLSHIT TO EVERY THING I TRY TO TELL HIM.  HE THINKS CICADAS ARE MAKING THIS SOUND BUT CICADAS DO NOT CHANGE THE SOUND THEY MAKE ANY MORE THAN THEY ARE IN THE CAR MAKING THE SAME SOUND AS IS IN THE TRAILER EVEN WHEN CAR IS NOT AT IT.  CICADAS DO NOT CHANGE THE SOUND THEY MAKE FROM A TIC TIC TIC SOUND TO A JUMPY CRICKET SOUND THEN TO A STEADY HISS AND THE SOUND IN THE CAR CHANGES WHEN IT DOES IN THE TRAILER. NO WAY IN THE WORLD CICADAS COULD BE THE CAUSE OF THIS NOISE.  THEY MAY BE GETTING AFFECTED BY IT-THAT IS A VERY DISTINCT POSSIBLITY… SO UNTIL DADDY GOES AND GETS SOME GAS DOR THE CAR HE DROVE HOME WITH THE IDIOT LIGHT ON- I AM STUCK HERE.  WRITING DONE BY A VERY IRRITATED KARIN WRAPE AS I WATCH THE AMOUNT OF SPORTS CHANNELS BEING ADDED GET TO THE POINT OF WELL OVER 1000+ CHANNELS.  I WAS GOING TO UPLOAD A VIDEO OF THE CHANGES TO YOUTUBE.COM BUT THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN TIL DAD GETS THE CAR SOME GAS.  TO FEEL THERE IS GREAT DANGER IN YOUR GUT AND TO LEAVE HIS BABY UNATTENDED WHEN I KNOW JUST HOW EVIL THE PEOPLE HACKING ME ARE WOULD BE CRAZY.   I GUESS I CARE MORE ABOUT THE DAMN CAT THAN MY DAD DOES.

SUBJECTS TONIGHT ARE INTERESTING TO ME AS THE FIRST DEALS WITH STUPIDITY CHECKS, AS I CALL THEM AND THE SECOND DEALS WITH  EXPERIMENTATION…TWO OF MY FAVORITE THINGS!  TODAY’S STUPIDITY CHECKS WERE PRETTY GOOD AS THEY BOTH INVOLVED BANKING… ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASION I HAVE FOUND THINGS IN MY BANK SRATEMENTS THAT ARE CAUSE FOR A PAUSE, NUMBERS MOST FIND CONFUSING ARE WHAT I SEEM TO CATCH JUST FOR THE SIMPLE FACT THEY REPEAT THEMSELVES SUCH AS DATES OUT OF ORD OR THAT REAPPEAR WHEN THEY SHOULD NOT, PAID POSTAGE BEING TRACKED BACKWARDS TO POINT OF ORIGIN TO REVEAL WHO HAS TRIED TO GIVE ANONYMOUS GIFTS AND KNOWING THE NAME OF THE SECRETARY INTHE OFFICE WHO WROTE OUT THE SAME REPORT NUMBER I REQUESTED A COPY OF TWICE, STRANGE CHARGES ON MY BANK ACCOUNT FROM A DIFFERENT STATE AFTER GETTING DISH INSTALLED AND GIVEN ACCESS TO MY BANK ACCOUNT AND WHEN DOING THE RECOVERY CLAIM AT THE BANK TODAY I EVEN CAUGHT THE WOMAN DOING THE TRANSACTION AS WRITING FIVE HUNDRED INSTEAD OF THE ACTUAL AMOUNT I HAVE IN THE ACCOUNT…I CALL THEM STUPIDITY CHECKS JUST TO SEE HOW CLOSE I AM WATCHING…TO CALL THIS ANYTHING ELSE WOULD BE GIVING THENTHIEVES MORE CREDIT THAN DUE AS SOME OF THIS WAS INTENTIONAL STUPIDITY AS IN THE CASE OF THE WINTER PARK P.D. TRYING TO SEND ME AN ANONYMOUS  $100 SAFEWAPY GIFT CARD AFTER CATCHING THEM TRYING TO CHARGE ME TWICE FOR ONE REPORT BY TRACING THE METERED POSTAGE BACK TO CAROL MCHENRY WHO WAS THE WINTER PARK,CO. PD SECRETARY, REVEALING THE TRUE SOURCE OF THE GIFT CARD-OR JUST PLAIN OLD HUMAN ERRORS SUCH AS TYPOS OR IN THIS CASE, A LARGER AMOUNT HAND WRITTEN OUT WHEN FILLING OUT A MONEY TRANSFER…THE ONES ON THE STATEMENT FROM ANOTHER STATE…WELL, THAT THERE IS JUST PLAIN OLD HUMANITY STICKING IT TO YA EVERY CHANCE GIVEN AS THIS HAPPENED DIRECTLY AFTER SIGNING UP WITH WHAT I THOUGH WAS DISH TV BUT MY STATEMENT SHOWED TWO DImFFERENT COMPANIES AS TAKING MONEY FROM MY ACCOUNTS…THE FUNNY THING IS I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO WATCH MY BANK ACCOUNTS AS I WOULD NORMALLY HAVE  BEEN AS I HAVE TO TRAVEL TO GO TO THE NEAREST BRANCH OF MY BANK.   I AM SURE THE YOUNG LADY DOING THE VARIOUS TASKS I HAD HER DOING REALLY DID WRITE THE WRONG AMOUNT BY ACCIDENT BUT HAD IT GONE UNNOTICED, IT COULD HAVE CAUSED MORE PROBLEMS THAN I NEED IN BANKING,hehe  STRANGELY, THE YOUNG LADY HELPING ME STARTED TO GET A LIGHT COUGH AND EVEN SIGNED MY BOOK OF DAILY LIVING STATING SHE AGREED WITH THE SENTENCE I WROTE IN IT STATING SHE HAD NOT HAD ANY PREVIOUS COUGH THE WHOLE DAY…SOMETHING I HAVE SEEN OTHERS DO AROUND ME A LOT LATELY AND WHEN I WAS SPEAKING WITH MY MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDER TODAY- SHE GOT A NOSEBLEED.  I AM NOT EVEN GOING TO GO INTO MY EXPERIENCE AT CHURCH LAST SUNDAY-SUFFICE TO SAY THAT PEOPLE AROUND ME UNAWARE I WAS WATCHING THEM EXIBITED A NUMBER OF RATHER STRANGE BEHAVIORS UNWITTING TO ME BEING THE POSSIBLE CAUSE OF THESE REACTIONS…I WILL BE DOING MORE EXPRIMENTS IN THIS CHURCH OTHER THAN GLUEING ALL THE HAIR ON MY ARMS DOWN TO SEE IF THEY RISE, WHICH I HAV DONE AND INDEED, THEY DID RISE EVEN THOUGH THOUROUGHLY GLUED DOWN WITH HAIRSPRAY…TONIGHT I DID WATER TORTURE TO SEE IF I OULD TELL THE DIFFERENCE OF WATER THAT HAD BAD THOUGHTS PROJECTED AT IT MENTALLY FROM WATER THAT HAD GOOD THOUGHTS PROJECTED AT IT AND I WILL BE DAMNED IF THE FIRST THREE TIMES I DID THIS AFTER MY COUSIN HAD DIRECTED GOOD THOUGHTS AT ONE CUP OF WATER AND MANEVOLENT ONES AT THE OTHER GLASS WHILST I WAS AWAY FROM TABLE AND UNAWARE OF HOW SHE WOULD IDENTIFY WHICH WAS WHICH…I PUT MY FINGERSIN BOTH UPS FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME AND BETWEEN CHANGING TO NEXT GLASS, WIPING THE FINGERS FREE OF ANY WATER FROM THE FIRST GLASS-I CORRECTLY TOLD HER WHICH GLASS HAD RECIEVED GOOD THOUGHTS AS BEING KIND OF CHARGED AND THE ONE SENTTHE NEGATIVITY BEING FLAT…ENOUGH TO ONVINCE ME I CAN FEEL THE DARKNESS UPON THE WATER.   I AM NOT SURE IF I AM BETTER AT DETECTING MALICE OR IF I AM BETTER AT DETECTING THE POSITIVE, BUT I CAN CLEARLY TELL THERE IS A DIFFERENCE.  THAT THE THE POINT  OF THE EXPERIMENT, TO SEE IF THERE WAS SOMETHING I COULD DETECT DIFFERENT.  TURNS OUT I AM ABLE TO DO MORE THAN HAVE DREAMS THAT COME TRUE.  I CAN FEEL THOUGHTS.  BUT IS THAT NOT LIKE JUDGING A PERSON ON SIGHT WITHOUT THEM SAYING A WORD?  I FEEL I AM XTRA SENSITIVE TO ELECTRICTY AND THE SOUND OF ELECTRONIC STRAIN AS WELL AS EXTREMELY SENSITIVE TO LIGHT…AND THAT IS WHAT WE BECOME HYPERSENSITIVE TO WHEN WE GET MIGRAINES-LIGTH OR ENERGY AND SOUND OR AS A COMBINATION, ELECTRONIC SRAIN SUCH AD LOW INTENSITY HUMMING AND INFRASOUNDS, THAT BASS BEAT YOU HEAR FROM A TOAD CAR HOPPING AROUND WITH THE STEREO ON AND THE CAR OFF.hehehehe   I AM WATCHING EVERYTHING I CAN AND HYPER AWARE OF OTHER THINGS YOU DO NOT REALIZE I AM WATCHING.  ALL OF YOU OUT THERE THAT I ENCOUNTER IN MY DAY ARE ALL PART OF MY EXPERIMENTS WITH HUMANITY AND MY READING OF BODY LANGUAGE AND MY SEARCH FOR HONESTY WHETHER IT BE FROM THOSE I SPEAK WITH AND THEM BOTH UNDERSTANDING WHAT I AM TRYING TO POINT OUT AND HAVING AN OPEN MIND WHEN IT COMES TO THE CAPABILITES OF BOTH KNOWLEDGE AND SELECTIVE STUPIDITY. CANNOT HAVE ONE WITHOUT THE OTHER, I GUESS… SO I AM GONG TO SEND THIS TO MY NEW PERSON HAVING TO DEAL WITH MY VICTIMIZATION AND STUDIES  INTO HACKING AND WAYS TO HARM OTHERS THROUGH ELECTRONIC DEVICES,WHETHER WITH MALICE AND FORETHOUGHT OR BY PROXIMITY TO SOMEONE HARMING ME THROUGH THEM AS I FEEL NOW THAT OTHERS ARE GETTING HARMED BY THE THINGS I HAVE BEEN DOCUMENTING HARMING ME SINCE MY FRIEND DIED OF A G.I.BLEEDOUT THE SAME TIME ME AND THE NEIGHBORS  ON THE OTHER SIDE OF ME DEVELOPING MIGRAINES.  I NOW HAVE MORE BURST BLOOD VESSELS ON THE BACK OF MY RIGHT HAND TODAY AND I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH THREE DIFFERENT SOUNDS THAT I AM TORTURED BY, OF IT REALLY WAS CICADAS, THE SOUND WOULD NOT BE THE SAME IN THE CAR AS IN THE HOUSE WHEN THE CAR LEAVES THE HOUSE. ENOUGH SAID THERE EXCEPT THE CICADAS WOULD NOT INTENTIONALLY CHANGE THE SOUND THEY MAKE FROM A FAST TIC TIC TIC SOUND TO AN ANGRY BUZZING SOUNDOR A JUMPY CRICKET SOUND IN THE SPACE OF THREE DAYS AND INTENISFY IN ONE AREA.  MORE ON SOUND AND STUPIDITY LATER BUT FOR NOW, I AM SATISFIED IN SAYING I HAVE SEEN OTHERS AFFECTED BY SOUND EFFECTS AROUND ME.  THERAPUTIC WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 7-25-17 AND SINCE THIS SOUND SEEMS TO EFFECT MY WRITING WITH MY RIGHT HAND, I GUESS I WILL START,WRITING WITH MY LEFT HAND AGAIN TO SEE IF I AM STILL TRANSPOSING LETTERS AND WORDS AS BADLY I I HAVE  BEEN DOING  WITH THE RIGHT HQND LATELY.

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