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STRENGTH OF CHARACHTER. A STRONG WILL.  WHAT DO YOU HAVE?   YES, I HAVE HAD TO DRIVE TO COLORADO THREE TIMES FOR MY MEDS AND YES, I CAN JUST SAY ‘NO’ TO THE LEGAL WEED I USED TO LOVE SO MUCH.  COULD YOU?  YESTERDAY I WAS GOING TO GET ME SOME WEED AFTER THE LONG DRIVE BUT TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH-I WOULD RATHER HAVE THE BRAGGING RIGHTS OF BEING ABLE TO SAY ‘NO’ THREE TIMES RATHER THAN RISK A DUI OF ANY KIND…THE VAST AMOUNT OF BUMS HAS ME KIND OF WORRIED TO THE POINT THAT AFTER WRITING THIS, I AM GOING TO LOOK FOR A COPSHOP OR A FIRESTATION TO PARK AT UNTIL DAWN.   AFTER HAVING MY LAST THREE VEHICLES BROKEN INTO-IT MIGHT BE WISE…BUT I WANT IT TO BE ON THE RECORD THAT I AM NOT GOING TO RISK SMOKING OR EATING ANYTHING THAT COULD GET ME IN TROUBLE.   I DARE A COP TO DRUG TEST ME…  IN FACT, I WOULD LOVE IT!!!  THEN THERE WOULD BE BONA FIDE PROOF POSITIVE THAT MY BLOOD IS A NEGATIVE FOR ANY SUBSTANCES THAT MIGHT GET ME A DUI.   JUST SAYIN’…THIS WILL BE THREE TIMES I SAID “NO”TO DRUGS.    I CAN WAIT TIL I GET ANOTHER RV AND DRIVE HERE SPECIFICALLY  FOR RECREATIONAL USE OF MARIJUANA.  HOW MANY OF YOU COULD PULL THAT OFF?   WELL, I HAVRE BEEN BEHIND THE WHEEL FOR TWELVE HOURS SO IT IS TIME TO LOOK FOR A SAFE PLACE TO PARK, AND IF THE POLICE REFUSE TO LET ME PARK IN THIER LOT-I WILL FIND A FIRESTATION OR DRIVE BACK TO THE TRUCK SCALES WHERE THERE IS A STATE PATROL VEHICLE PARKED SO I FEEL SAFE. ENOUGH SAID.  I AM A PERSON OF EXTREMELY GOOD CHARACTER AND I DO WHAT I SAY AND SAY WHAT I DO WITHOUT FEAR MY WORDS WILL BE MISCONSTRUED. TIL NEXT TIME, GOOD NOGHT TO ALLMY FAITHFUL FOLLOWERS INCLUDING THOSE FOLLOWING ME TO TRY AN DHURT ME.  NO THERAPY NEEDED TODAYWRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE, 7-19-17 AND I DID NOT GET LOST ONE SINGLE TIME TODAY.

EXPERIMENTS- I AM BIG ON EXPERIMENTS, THEY PROVE THINGS LIKE MIGRAINE BEING CAUSED BY SOUND RECEEDING WHEN OUT OF ENVIRONMENT THE NOISE HARMING ME IS IN.  TODAY DID JUST THAT.  I WAS IN MAJOR PAIN WHEN I LEFT FOR MENTAL HEALTH INTAKE EVALUATION AND AFTER LEAVING THE NOISY CAR AND ENTERING THE BUILDING AFTER ABOUT 20 OR 30 MINUTES THE MIGRAINE WAS NOTICEABLY LESSENING…I TOLD THE GAL DOING THE EVAL I PLANNED TO DO AN EXPERIMENT TO SEE IF THIS WOUND WOULD STILL BE PRESENT IF I WAS NO WHERE NEAR ELECTRONICS AND I AM GOING TO DO THIS EXPERIMENT AND POST MY RESULTS HERE FOR ALL TO READ.   I SHOWED HER THE PHONE BILL I GOT FROM CENTURYLINK FROM ANOTHER PHONE NUMBER WHEN I WAS LIVING AT THE TABOR GRAND IN LEADVILLE, COLORADO AND A USER CREATION LOG FROM 2013 SHOWING A MULTITUDE OF USERS BEING CREATED AND ME, USER S-1-5-21 BEING DENIED INTERACTIVE AND NETWORK LOG ON RIGHTS AND WHEN I INSTALLED AN APP FOR WIFI NETWORK ANALYSIS UP COMES A WHOLE BUNCH OF UNKNOWN I.P. ADDRESSES AND THE ONE THAT STOOD OUT TODAY WAS 224.0.0.251… I HAVE NOT READ MUCH ON IT BUT ENOUGH TO KNOW IT SHOULD NOT BE THERE.  ANOTHER UNUSUAL THING IS MY UNCLES NETWORK STARTS WITH 10… THOSE ARE USUALLY PUBLIC I.P. ADDRESSES THAT START WITH A 10.   SHE ASKED ME A VERY PARTICULAR QUESTION TODAY, IF I FELT HOPELESS…NO. I DO NOT FEEL HOPELESS AS I NOW FOR A FACT THAT I CAN ESCAPE THE SOUND IN DADDY’S TRAILER AND CAR AND THE MIGRAINE WILL LESSEN WHEN I LEAVE  THE AFFECTED ENVIRONMENT.  SO HOPELESS IS NOT WHAT I AM. MORE LIKE HOPEFUL THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO IDENTIFY THE SOURCE BECAUSE IT IS CAUSED BY SOMETHING IN THE CAR THAT I CAN GET AWAY FROM.  ONCE THE THING CAUSING THE MIGRAINE INDUCING SOUND, I WILL BE ABLE TO REMOVE OR BLOCK IT.  I MAY TAKE LONGER TO ARRIVE AT THE ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS THAN OTHERS BUT THAT IS BECAUSE I WAS RAISED DIFFERENTLY THAN MOST FOLKS BUT I DO FIND ANSWERS… ONE THING YOU SHOULD NEVER, EVER DO-DOUBT MY ABILITY TO FIND SHIT OUT.  YES I USED A CURSE WORD HERE AS IT EMPHASIZES THAT I SHOULD NEVER BE UNDERESTIMATED ON MY ABILITIES. EVER. WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 7-10-17 AFTER A PARTICULARLY BRUTAL MIGRAINE ATTACK ON THE ANNIVERSARY OF MY FRIEND BOB GANT’S DEATH AND A PLANNED  VISIT TO MY AUNT MARY’S THAT THE MIGRAINE THAT HIT ME HARD WHILE IN CHURCH STOPPED ME FROM GOING TO.

THE SOUND HAS RETURNED AND WITH IT THE MIGRAINE…BUT JUST ONE SINGLE HOUR OUT OF THAT GOD AWFUL NOISE AND MY MIGRAINE HAS GOTTEN BACK TO THE HANDLEABLE POINT AND I WAS SINGING WITH THE CAR RADIO AGAIN EVEN WITH THE SOUND BACK IN THE CAR AGAIN.  THE FACT THAT THE SOUND IS STOPPING FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS PROVES IT S NOT TINNITUS.  THE SOUND LEFT THE HOUSE  AND MY CAR FOR TWO DAYS AND I STILL HAVE THE SHAKES FROM THE LAST ASSAULT WHEN IT RETURNED.  I AM CONCERNED ABOUT MY BLOOD PRESSURE AS IT WAS 165 OVER 125…MY BLOOD PRESSURE IS USUALLY MUCH LOWER AROUND 95-100 OVER 80-90 WITH A PULSE RATE OF AROUND 90-100 BUT MY PULSE RATE WAS AT 70 SO THERE IS REALLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME WHEN THIS SOUND IS PRESENT.  THE FACT THAT IT RECEDES WHEN OUT OF THE NOISE SHOWS IT IS THE SOUND THAT IS CAUSING IT.  THE STRANGE TASTE IS KINDA NASTY- REMINDS ME OF WHEN I WAS COOKING DOPE AND WE MADE A BAD BATCH… THE TASTE WAS LIKE WHAT I AM TASTING RIGHT NOW-BUT I DO NOT DO DOPE ANYMORE…THE PAIN IS ONLY IN ONE EYE-NOT IN THE ONE I HAVE GONE BLIND IN BUT THE ONE I CAN SEE WITH- THE OTHER EYE IS SO MESSED UP TO READ I HAVE TO COVER IT WITH MY HAND BUT I CAUGHT PIGMENT CHANGES TO THE CELLS IN MY EYES RIGHT AWAY- AND MY OPTOMETRIST SAID HE HAD ONLY SEEN THIS 5 TIMES IN HIS 30 YEAR CAREER BUT NEVER IN RED.  HE TOOK A NICE PICTURE OF MY EYEBALLS AND IT WAS WEIRD SEEING THE BLOOD VESSELS IN MY OWN EYEBALL.  THE PAIN IN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE EYEBALL IT IS IN PULSING IN ONLY ONE EYE-WHY NOT BOTH?  I AM SURE THE SOUND WAVES ENTER BOTH EYES AND HIT ALL OF MY SKIN.  LAST NIGHT I WAS ON THE COUCH AND SUDDENLY THE SOUND INTENSIFIED SO BAD I WAS IMMEDIATELY HOT AND WSUDDENLY SO SICK I PULLED THE CUSHIONS OFF THE COUCH AND USED THEM TO COVER THE AREA I SLEEP IN BUT THE NOISE WAS SO BAD LAST NIGHT THAT I GOT NO SLEEP AGAIN AND I WAS WEARING EARBUDS AND LISTENING TO THE INTRO MUSIC I LOVE FROM THE FRINGE SERIES- I KEEP THESE DISKS SIMPLY TO LISTEN TO THIS MUSIC WHILE SLEEPING BUT THE SOUND IS SO FRANTIC AND LOUD THAT IS OVERPOWERS THE SOUND COMING FROM MY NEW NOISE ISOLATING EARBUDS AND I CAN HARDLY HEAR THE MUSIC OR THE SOUND ON THE DVD I AM WATCHING.  I STILL HAVE THE SHAKES FROM BEING IN THIS SOUND THAT IS LIKE LIVING IN A SWARM OF ANGRY WASPS AND HAS ME LOOKING AT A POINT I EXPECT TO SEE SOME KIND OF THING WHERE IT IS, I HAVE BEEN CATCHING MYSELF LOOKING WHERE I ‘FEEL’ THIS SOUND ON SEVERAL DIFFERENT DAYS.  I THINK THE PEOPLE WHO ARE CAUSING THIS SOUND KNOW WHEN THEY ARE CLOSE TO CAUSING ME TO HAVE BRAIN BLEEDING AND STOP JUST SHORT OF CAUSING IT BECAUSE THEY ARE REALLY SADISTIC AND WOULD NOT LIKE FOR ME TO DIE JUST YET AS THEY HAVE NOT TORTURED ME ENOUGH FOR THEM TO GET THE PLEASURE GIVING ME PAIN GIVES THEM.  BEING SOMEWHAT SADISTIC MYSELF- I UNDERSTAND THIS…WOULD NOT WANT TO KILL A PERFECTLY GOOD VICTIM NO ONE BELIEVES ALL AT ONCE WHEN THEY CAN HURT ME AND STOP JUST SHORT OF KILLING ME AND THEN IN A COUPLE DAYS START HURTING ME SOME MORE.  WHAT THE HELL IS BEING USED TO CAUSE THIS DAMN NOISE AND WHY CAN I HEAR IT RAMP UP AND LOWER LIKE SOME KIND OF LOOPBACK? WTF IS THE SOURCE??? THE APPS I PUT ON THE IPAD THE OTHER DAY THAT DETECT ELECROMAGNETIC FIELDS WERE SHOWING THE LINES CROSSING AND UNCROSSING THE OTHER DAY WHEN I FELT LIKE THE SOUND WAS SPRAYING THE WHOLE AREA…ANYHOO, AS I AM TIRED I AM GONNA DO MY SHOPPING AND WHEN I GET DONE WITH SOME THINGS I HAVE NOT ADDRESSED YET I AM GOING TO START MY EXPERIMENTS OF CREATING POWER CORD FOR DEVICES I WAS GIVEN BY SOMEONE WHEN I WAS LIVING IN MY CAR SO I CAN SEE WHAT IS ON THE THINGS GIVEN TO ME-IF I HAVE TO CRACK THE DEVICES OPEN AND SOLDER MY OWN HOME MADE CORDS TO MAKE THEM WORK I CAN DO THAT TOO.  I HAVE MY BIG BOOK OF ELECTRONICS HANDY SHOULD I FEEL THE NEED TO CONSULT IT BUT TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH- I LIKE FIGURING OUT THINGS THAT OPERATE OFF ELECTRICITY THE OLD FASHIONED WAY BY RISKING GETTING A JOLT- MAKES YOU REMEMBER YOUR MISTAKES BETTER,hehehe  JUST HAD SOMETHING STRANGE HAPPEN HERE AT THE LIBRARY- A TOAD PLUGGED IN A CAMERA AND THE CAMERA SHOWED UP ON THE PC SCREEN I AM USING AS THIS- Icatchtek Co. Ltd GENERAL (/dev / sdc1) THE UDISK PROJECT MOUNTS A FIKLE SYSTEM FROM A DEVICE PLUGGED INTO ANOTHER SEAT- polkit.subject pid- 4817  polkit.caller pid-2251 AND WGHEN I GHIT THE DROPDOWN TWO NAMES COME UP-BRIAN CLUFF AND NEAL DUNCAN- ONE OF THESE NAMES BELONGS TO THE TOAD 3 SEATS DOWN FROM ME… MORE NEAT CRAP TO INVESTIGATE!  HE IS WEARING A DEVICE PLUGGED INTO A PHONE SO I WONDER IF THIS JIGABOO IS LISTENING TO WHAT I AM TYPING?  IT IS POSSIBLE- I HAVE SEEN SOME REALLY CREEPY THINGS SINCE THIS HACKING BEGAN… HOPE HE LIKE HEARING THE WORD ‘TOAD’ AND ‘JIGABOO’…I USED TO VERY RACIST DUE TO BEING GANG RAPED BY A BUNCH OF TOADS THAT USED TO CHASE ME AROUND WHEN I WAS A RUNAWAY – SO’METIMES I GOT AWAY BUT MOST OF THE TIME THEY CAUGHT ME AS I WAS OUTNUMBERED…I AM NOW MORE PREDJUDIST AGAINST THE WHITE NIGGERS CAUSE THEY HIDE EASIER… YOU CAN’T SEE THE NIGGER IN THE WHITE ONES TIL ITS TOO LATE.  SO I HOPE HE IS LISTENING IN TO WHAT I AM TYPING CAUSE SOME DAYS YOU WANT TO HURT PEOPLE’S FEELINGS…HUMAN NATURE.  SO AFTER THAT LITTLE COMMENT I AM DONE TYPING FOR NOW, MAYBE THIS TOAD WILL LEAVE A COMMENT ON WHAT HE IS HACKING INTO! WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 7-8-17  STILL IN PAIN FROM THE MIGRAINE BUT STILL HAPPY BECAUSE I HAVE ASCERTAINED THE MIGRAINE WILL SUBSIDE IF I LEAVE THE ENVIRONMENT THE SOUND IS SPRAYING!  BET I WILL ENJOY READING ABOUT THE UDISK PROJECT…

TO SAY THAT I HAVE SEEN THIS PATTERN OF EVENTS WITH 3 DIFFERENT TV SERVICES AND DVR’S IS TRUE- THE EXTENT OF THE HACKING IS WHAT IS SHOCKING…YESTERDAY I WAS SICK WITH A MIGRAINE THE WHOLE DAY FROM WHATEVER IS TRANSMITTING THE ‘SOUND’ INTO MY DADDY’S TRAILER AND TODAY IT WAS WORSE- THE SOUND HAD ME SO SICK MY GUTS WERE SCREAMING AT ME TO ‘GET OUT! GET OUT NOW!’ I WAS VOMITOUS AND LIGHT SENSITIVE AGAIN AND HAD TO RESORT TO TAKING MEDICATION PRESCRIBED FOR MIGRAINES- AGAIN.  I KNEW I WOULD BE TORTURED WITH THIS SOUND THIS WHOLE WEEKEND AS HAS BEEN THE PATTERN IN THE PAST- THIS BUZZING SOUND WAKING ME UP IN THE EARLY AM AND ME GETTING SICK FROM IT.  MY HAIR HAS STARTED TO COME OUT IN CLUMPS AGAIN IN THE LAST 2 DAYS THE SOUND HAS BEEN BACK AFTER THE DISH TECH GUY LEFT.  I HAVE CALLED DISH QUITE A BIT ABOUT THIS AND THEY CANNOT PROVIDE A REAL EXPLANATION AS TO WHY I KEEP HAVING LOCKED OUT CHANNELS REAPPEARING- THEY SAY EVERY NIGHT THEY UPDATE THE SYSTEM AND THAT IS WHAT IS PUTTING UNLOCKED CHANNELS ON MY DVR- BULLSHIT IS WHAT I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT.  IT DOES NOT EXPLAIN WHY AFTER I LOCKED EVERY SINGLE CHANNEL DOWN OVER AND OVER YESTERDAY THAT I WOULD GET KICKED OUT OF WHAT I WAS WATCHING BECAUSE MY DVR WAS BEING RESET AND REFRESHED AND THEN I WOULD CHECK THE LOCKED CHANNELS AND FIND HUNDREDS MORE UNLOCKED… THE NUMBER OF LOCKED CHANNELS WOULD VARY TOO- THAT SHOULD NEVER VARY,  LAST NIGHT AT 6:15 pm THERE WERE 433 UNLOCKED AND 615 LOCKED CHANNELS!!!!!!!THAT IS A TOTAL OF 1048 CHANNELS.  EXPLAIN THAT WITH A STRAIGHT FACE, I DARE YOU.  I DO NOT WATCH SPORTS OR LATIN CHANNELS OR PORN AND THEY MUST BE ADDING THE SHOPPING CHANNELS BECAUSE OF PLAYBOY CHANNEL FREEVIEWS.  I AM SUPPOSED TO ONLY HAVE 240 CHANNELS- THAT IS WHAT IS IN THE TOP 200 PACKAGE.  MY DVR IS SHOWING ME THE TOP 500…  I HAVE LOCKED THE CHANNELS OUT I DO NOT WANT AND WHEN I LEFT THE HOUSE AT 11 AM TODAY THERE WERE 160 UNLOCKED CHANNELS AND 457 LOCKED CHANNELS AND AS THE DISH TECH SAID TO DO I SAVED SETTINGS AND HID THE ADULT AND LOCKED CHANNELS-I BET YOU EVERY DAMN PENNY I HAVE THE NUMBER WILL BE DIFFERENT WHEN I RETURN.  MY FEELING ILL STOPPED WHEN I CAME TO THE LIBRARY- THE SOUND IS IN MY CAR TOO.   I AM STILL HAPPY ABOUT WHO I AM BUT AM GETTING A BIT PISSED ABOUT THIS HAPPENING AGAIN AFTER YEARS OF NO TV SERVICE JUST BECAUSE OF CATCHING  EMPLOYEES OF THAT AUDIO AND VIDEO STORE CUTTING INTO MY DIRECT TV DISH AND SPORTS PROGRAMS APPEARING ON MY DVR BACK IN 2013.  I ALREADY KNEW SOMEONE WHO SPEAKS AND READS AND WRITES SPANISH IS HACKING ME BECAUSE OF THE DIFFERENT KEYBOARD SHOWING UP AND BECAUSE OF THE LAST MENTAL HEALTH HOLD I WAS FORCED TO ENDURE IN SUMMIT COUNTY, CO. I WAS FOLLOWED FROM THE SILVERTHORNE, CO. PUBLIC LIBRARY TO THE REC CENTER BY 3 MEXICAN MALES WHO SAT WITHIN FEET OF ME AND I SAW STUFF BEING ADDED TO MY PC- THAT IS A FACT.   I HAVE TRIED TO TELL THE SHERIFF THAT THIS AUDIO AND VIDEO BUSINESS IS CAPABLE OF PRETTY MUCH ANY KIND OF REMOTE ACCESS TO ANYTHING YOU OWN WITH A PLUG OR A BATTERY BUT THEY DO NOT KNOW I WAS FINDING PROGRAMMING CARDS IN THE TRASH WHEN I WAS LIVING IN SHURER’S BUILDING- HE SIGNS PEOPLE UP FOR DISH, DIRECT TV AND COMCAST BUT DOES NOT DO INSTALLATION OR REPAIR-JUST HACKING INTO CUSTOMERS DISHES THAT HE SIGNS UP.  THE COPS HERE ARE FIXING TO HAVE MAJOR INTERNET CRIME OCCUR AND THEY HAVE NO IDEA HOW BAD IT IS GOING TO GET-YET.  I CANNOT DO AN UPDATE ON MY IPAD AT ALL SINCE TV PROVIDERS WERE ADDED ON THE ONLY UPDATE I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO DO ON IT.  I GAVE UP ON CELLPHONES BECAUSE THEY WERE BEING TAKEN OVER BY LANDLINES IN THE AREA.   I AM AT A LOSS ON HOW TO GET ACROSS TO POLICE THE CAPABILITIES OF THESE CRIMINALS. I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO CALL THE CRIMESTOPPERS HOTLINE NEXT TO ALERT POLICE OF WHAT IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN TO THE SYSTEMS HERE.   THE FACT I AM AGAIN HAVING MIGRAINES AND THAT DAMN SOUND IS BACK IN DADDY’S AND IN THE CAR SCARES THE HELL OUT OF ME AS  WHEN I FIRST STARTED TO GET MIGRAINES IN 2014- MY NEIGHBORS ON ONE SIDE – THE MOTHER AND KIDS, NOT THE FATHER BECAUSE HE WAS AT WORK BUT THE NEIGHBOR ON THE OTHER SIDE DIED OF A G.I. BLEEDOUT…ANAL BLEEDING.  I THINK THIS OCCURRED FROM THE WATER MOLECULES IN HIS BODY BEING EXITED BY THE SOUND WAVES BEING TRANSMITTED AT ME AND HIS INTESTINES AND ORGANS RUPTURED FROM IT AND HE HAD INTERNAL BLEEDING TO THE POINT OF DEATH I8NSTEAD OF DYING FROM LIVER FAILURE AS HE WAS DOING HIS BEST TO DRINK HIMSELF TO DEATH.  MY PC WAS SAMPLING AUDIO AT 22050 Hz AND 44100 Hz THEN.  I AM GOING TO TRY AND GET MY PACKAGE CHANGED WITH DISH TV SO THERE ARE NO SPORTS OR LATIN CHANNELS BUT TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH-I DO NOT EVEN THINK I CAN GET RID OF THE SPORTS AND PORN AND LATIN CHANNELS EVEN IF I CHANGE MY PACKAGE TO ONE WITHOUT THEM.  THESE HACKERS KNOW HOW TO REMOTELY MANAGE SMART CARDS AND THAT IS WHAT IS IN MY DVR.  I INVITE ALL TO LOOK AT THE MEDIA (PICTURES) ON THIS SITE AS I HAVE ADDED SEVERAL PHOTOS FROM MY IPAD AT THE LIBRARY THIS MORNING.  I FEEL HORRIBLE ABOUT WHAT THIS TOWN IS FIXING TO GO THROUGH AS I HAVE SEEN THIS SAME THING HAPPEN OVER AND OVER- I AM SICK OF BEING VICTIMIZED BY THESE METH ADDICTS AND THIEVES.  ANYONE WHO MAY HAVE SOME IDEA OF HOW TO STOP THESE CRIMINALS FROM ADDING LATIN CHANNELS, PORN AND SPORTS CHANNELS TO MY UNLOCKED CHANNELS=-PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT ON THIS SITE- I WILL SEE IT WHEN I LOOK AT MY STATS PAGE BUT THE PAGE SEEMS TO ONLY HAVE 3- 7 PEOPLE LOOKING AT IT.    I MAKE SURE TO SHARE IT WITH MY FAMILY SO IT SEEMS KIND OF STRANGE TO ONLY HAVE 3-7 PEOPLE LOOKING AT MY WORDPRESS SITE WHEN I HAVE OVER 40 FOLLOWERS.   THE ONE GOOD THING ABOUT TODAY IS I GOT A REALLY COOL SHIRT FOR MY COUSIN’S HUSBAND- I KNOW HE DOES NOT LIKE ME BUT I BET HE WOULD LOOK GREAT IN IT!  I DO NOT HOLD A GRUDGE IF I CAN AVOID IT AS REGRET IS AN AWFUL THING SO I HOPE HE ACCEPTS THE SHIRT AS A PEACE OFFERING.  I9 WAS AT THE POINT OF SEEKING ANOTHER CHURCH TO ATTEND BUT MY AUNT MARTHA CAME OVER YESTERDAY AND ASKED ME TO GO TO CHURCH WITH THE FAMILY THIS SUNDAY SO I WILL-IF THE MIGRAINES THAT STARTED WITH THE RETURN OF THE ‘SOUND’ ALLOW IT.  THE CHURCH HAS WONDERFUL MUSIC AND YOU DO NOT HAVE TO HOLD A HYMNAL TO SEE THE WORDS AS THEY PROJECT THEM TO THE WALL ABOVE THE PULPIT.  I HOPE THIS SOUND GIVES ME A BREAK BUT I HAVE WRITTEN IN MY LOGBOOK THAT I WILL MOST LIKELY BE TORTURED WITH IT THE WHOLE HOLIDAY WEEKEND AS I HAVE BEEN SINCE 2014.   THIS IS THERAPUTIC WRITING TODAY AS I NEED TO GET THIS OUT WHERE PEOPLE CAN READ WHAT I AM SUFFERING THROUGH-AGAIN-IN A DIFFERENT STATE BUT THE SAME EXACT CRIMES AND AUDIO TORTURES AND BATTERY DRAINAGES OCCURRING ON MY THINGS.  I GIVE UP ON THE CELLPHONE THING SO I WILL NOT EVER BE ABLE TO GET IN MY EMAIL AGAIN.   JUST ANOTHER THING I HAVE TO DO WITHOUT BECAUSE POLICE HERE DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT PROGRAMMING.  AND ANOTHER GOOD THING TO ADD- I WAS ABLE TO GO TO THE SENIOR CENTER AND PLAY DOMINOES WITH THE LADIES THERE THURSDAY! TO SIT WITH PEOPLE I KNOW FOR A FACT ARE NOT HACKERS WAS NICE AND TO ENJOY A GAME OF CHICKENFOOT DOMINOES WAS FUN!  SO THERE IS STILL GOOD STUFF IN MY LIFE DESPITE THE HACKING…AND I BEAT DODY’S BEJWELLED SCORE BY SEVERAL MILLION POINTS TOO!

YEP, SSDP…SAME STUFF, DIFFERENT PLACE.  I HAVE TRIED MY BEST TO BLOCK THE LATINO CHANNELS, SPORTS CHANNELS AND ADULT CHANNELS FROM BEING ADDED TO MY UNLOCKED CHANNELS BUT AS SOON AS I TRY TO BLOCK THEM- THERE THEY ARE ADDED AGAIN- I DO NOT WATCH SPORTS OF ANY KIND, NOR DO I WATCH PORN OR SPEAK SPANISH BUT THESE ARE THE CHANNELS BEING REPEATEDLY ADDED TO THE UNLOCKED CHANNELS ON MY DVR- AND THE PHONE IS GETTING HUNG UP WHILE TRYING TO SPEAK TO DISH ABOUT LOCKING THESE CHANNELS OUT.  I AM ONLY SUPPOSED TO BE SUBSCRIBED TO THE TOP 200- WHICH IS REALLY 240 CHANNELS BUT I HAVE SEVERAL HUNDRED EXTRA CHANNELS BEING ADDED AND THE AMOUNT OF LOCKED CHANNELS BEING REDUCED- I CAN ONLY ASSUME IT IS THE SAME PEOPLE DOING THIS THAT MADE ME QUIT HAVING TV SERVICE IN THE PAST SINCE IT IS THE SAME CHANNELS THEY ARE ADDING NOW…I CANNOT HEAR ANYTHING ON DADDY’S PHONE WHEN SPEAKING TO TECHNICAL SUPPORT AND THIS IS IRRITATING AS HECK.  I HAVE GONE TO THE SHERIFF AND GOTTEN A CASE STARTED AS REQUESTED BY THE DISH TV SUPPORT TODAY -AFTER MAKING APPOINTMENTS WITH DOCTORS HERE-INCLUDING MENTAL HEALTH AS THE STRESS IS ONCE AGAIN CAUSING MY BODY TO WEAKEN.  MY DADDY DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THE DEPTH OF THE HACKING OR THAT IT HAS TOTALLY DESTROYED MY WAY OF LIVING TRYING TO STOP THE HACKING AND IDENTITY THEFT I OBVIOUSLY STILL HAVE GOING ON, IT UPSETS HIM BUT I HAVE SEEN THAT MY FATHER’S PC HAS NETWORK 2 SHOWING UP- SO THERE MUST BE A FIRST NETWORK-AND THERE ARE NO FIREWALLS ON HIS PC- RED BALL WITH A WHITE ‘X’ OVER THE FLAG HAS BEEN THERE SINCE I SHOWED BACK UP.  I DO NOT HAVE MY DVR CONNECTED TO THE INTERNET OR HIS PHONE LINE BUT THE PHONE IS GETTING HUNG UP WHILE TALKING WITH DISH- THIS HAS HAPPENED TWICE IN THE LAST WEEK.   2 CELLPHONES HAVE BEEN SHOWING UP AS BEING OWNED BY LANDLINES SINCE MY RETURN TO TEXAS, THIS LAST ONE IS SHOWING UP AS BEING PROVIDED BY SOUTHWESTERN BELL IN HAINESVILLE, TEXAS- I HAVE NEVER BEEN THERE NOR DO I HAVE A LANDLINE OF ANY KIND-THE OTHER PREVIOUS CELLPHONE WAS SHOWING UP AS BEING OWNED BY LEVEL 3 COMMUNICATIONS, LlC-TX IN THE AREA OF THE GOLDEN CHICK IN MINEOLA.  I GUESS THESE GUYS LIKE TO WATCH PORN AND SPORTS WHILE THEY MAKE SURE I CANNOT USE INTERNET WITHOUT THEM BEING ABLE TO LOOK AT EVERY SINGLE THING I TRY TO GET OUT ON THE INTERNET AND THE COPS HERE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE BUSINESS THAT HACKED ME CAN DO-INCLUDING ADDING SMART CARDS- THEY ARE AN AUDIO AND VIDEO BUSINESS THAT BRAGS ABOUT BEING ABLE TO ACCESS EVERYTHING IN YOU HOME FROM A CELLPHONE THAT HAS A PLUG OR A BATTERY IN IT.  THEY DO HOME SECURITY SYSTEMS AND 3D TV AND HOME THEATER AND BACKWARDS COMPATIBILITY INSTALLATIONS FOR WHOLE HOME AUTOMATION.  I CAUGHT THIS BUSINESS AT A NUMBER OF CRIMES SO I AM NOT EVEN SLIGHTLY SURPRISED THAT THE PORN, SPANISH AND SPORTS CHANNELS ARE SHOWING UP AGAIN.  I HAVE TOLD THE SHERIFF TO GOOGLE MY NAME AND SEE WHAT COMES UP- LITERALLY NOTHING BEFORE 2012- THEN NOTHING BUT ME HAVING EVERY ACCOUNT AND DEVICE I OWN TAKEN OVER AND ACCOUNTS CREATED WITH NAMES SIMILAR TO MINE BUT WITH DIFFERENT ADDRESSES AND PHONE NUMBERS, AND THEY WOULD ORDER PRODUCTS AND SERVICES- THEN CANCEL THE SERVICE AND AFTER GETTING THE MODEMS DELIVERED TO THEIR APARTMENT-ALTER IT AND LEAVE AT COMMUNAL POST BOX AREA WHEN I LIVED AT THE TABOR GRAND IN LEADVILLE, COLORADO.  I GOT THE BILLS FOR THIS IN THE MAIL AND STILL HAVE THEM AS EVIDENCE THIS HAS HAPPENED-JUST FOUND THEM THE OTHER DAY.  SO THESE CREEPS ARE COMMITTING FEDERAL MAIL FRAUD AS WELL AS IDENTITY THEFT.  I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING TO BLOCK THESE CREEPS FROM INVADING MY PUBLIC UTILITIES I CAN THINK OF -NOW I AM GOING TO CHANGE MY PACKAGE TO GET RID OF THE SPORTS AND PORN AND SPANISH CHANNELS AND THEN SEE IF THEY KEEP GETTING ADDED TO UNLOCKED CHANNELS.  THE TECH WHO CAME OVER THE OTHER DAY FROM SOUTHERN STAR SAW THAT PROGRAMS HAD BEEN ADDED FROM A DIFFERENT RECEIVER SO IT IS NOT JUST ME IMAGINING THIS – HE ALSO SAW THE HISTORY OF THE DIAGNOSTICS WHERE THERE HAVE BEEN 9 INTERNAL RESETS SO FAR AND 2 FROM THE BUTTON ON THE DVR…  THE LOCAL SHERIFF WHO I SPOKE WITH TODAY SUGGESTED I GET RID OF MY DISH SERVICE RATHER THAN TRY AND DISCOVER WHO IS ADDING SPORTS, SPANISH AND PORN TO MY UNLOCKED CHANNELS.  DISH TV GUIDE SHOWS ME HAVING HAVING THE TOP 500 AND HOPPER 3 AND THIS PICTURE SHOULD PRETTY MUCH EXPLAIN IT ALL- 532 UNLOCKED CHANNELS AND 388 LOCKED CHANNELS…I WROTE DOWN THE CHANNELS THEY ARE ADDING IN MY LOG BOOK SO I KNOW FOR A FACT WHAT I HAVE TRIED TO LOCK OUT AND WHEN IT RE-APPEARS I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HAS BEEN ADDED AGAIN.  I AM NOT FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS CONTINUED INVASION OF MY PUBLIC UTILITIES BUT I THINK THE POLICE ASKING ME TO RID MYSELF OF TV SERVICE THAT I HAVE A 2 YEAR COMMITMENT ON RATHER THAN INVESTIGATE THE HACKING IS RATHER LAME- I ALREADY DID THAT FOR YEARS AND WHEN I HAD NO TV SERVICE TO INVADE- THE HACKERS WOULD BLOCK FM RADIO USE IN MY CAR AND ON 8 DIFFERENT RADIOS BEFORE I COULD HEAR SOME MUSIC. AND WHEN I FINALLY FOUND A FM RADIO I COULD HEAR- SOME BUTTHEAD CALLED ME SINGING TO THE MUSIC AS I CLEANED UP TRASH AT THE SCENIC OVERLOOK WHERE I WOULD PARK MY RV OVERNIGHT AS YELLING…  NOW THERE IS A POLICE REPORT OF THE DISH INVASION TO ADD TO THE 2 CELLPHONES THAT HAVE BEEN TAKEN OVER BY LANDLINES FILED WITH THE WOOD COUNTY SHERIFF DEPARTMENT.   IT IS JUST A PITY THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS ONGOING CRIME YET AGAIN IN ANOTHER STATE.  AND WHEN THE POLICE DEPARTMENT GETS HACKED INTO BECAUSE OF THESE REPORTS- I AM GOING TO GET A GOOD LAUGH OUT OF THAT.  IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I DID NOT HAVE SO MUCH DAMNING EVIDENCE BUT HAVING O.C.D. I AM LUCKY THAT I HAVE DOCUMENTED THIS AS MUCH AS I HAVE AND TAKEN SO MANY PHOTOS OF WHAT I DISCOVER AND HAVE SOME OF IT PRINTED UP SO I CAN SHOW IT TO PEOPLE WITHOUT HAVING TO SHOW THEM PROOF ON MY CAMERA OR IPAD.   THE COPS DO NOT BELIEVE I AM BEING HACKED YET BUT THEY WILL SOON ENOUGH.  JUST NOW AT THE MINEOLA LIBRARY THE DEBUGGER POPPED UP SAYING A MUTATED PROTOTYPE WOULD SLOW DOWN CODE ON THIS PC.  WHAT IT IS A PROTOTYPE OF-I AM NOT SURE BUT IT IS ACTIVE SCRIPTING.  I AM HAVING A GREAT DAY AND HAVE ACCOMPLISHED A LOT SO I AM OFF TO GET SOME CHERRIES FOR MY WEEKEND AND GO HOME- WOW-I AM USING THE WORD ‘HOME’…AS I HAVE NOT HAD A HOME SINCE I WAS A CHILD-THIS IS COOL!  I HAVE ALSO ASKED POLICE AND THIS MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDER HERE TO GOOGLE MY NAME AND WATCH THE YOUTUBE VIDEOS I HAVE MADE AND TO LEAVE A COMMENT- I GUESS WE WILL SEE IF ONE OF THE SHERIFF OFFICERS WHO HAS SAID HE WOULD LEAVE A COMMENT DOES IT.  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-29-17  A LOVELY DAY THAT I SPENT PART OF PLAYING DOMINOES AT THE SENIOR CENTER AND HAD A BLAST BEING WITH PEOPLE I KNOW FOR A FACT ARE NOT CRIMINALS!!~!  AND I CAN BARELY WAIT TO GET HOME SO I CAN PLAY WITH MY DADDY’S PUSSY (CAT) you perverts,hehehe  ALMOST FORGOT TO UPDATE YOU THAT THE ‘SOUND’ STARTED AGAIN LAST NIGHT AT 7:15 PM AND IS ALSO IN MY CAR AND MY SECOND COUSIN I PICK UP FROM WORK EARLY MORNINGS HEARD IT TODAY.  I AM FEELING A BIT ILL SINCE THE SOUND RE-APPEARED LAST NIGHT AND HAD TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE BECAUSE OF IT BUT THAT WAS A GOOD THING AS I HAVE STARTED TO GET DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS SCHEDULED SO I DO NOT HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE WITHDRAWALS SO BAD THAT I WAS NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO AFTER MIND SPRINGS MENTAL HEALTH DROPPED ME FROM BEING A PATIENT.  I AM SURE THERE IS A LAW ABOUT DROPPING PATIENTS WHO ARE ON DRUGS THAT SUDDEN STOP OF COULD POSSIBLY CAUSE DEATH.  NEXT I AM LOOKING UP THE AMERICAN MEDICAL ASSOCIATION TO CONTACT THEM ABOUT DOCTOR RICHARD BERKLEY AND HIS BIZARRE CHANGING OF MY MEDICATIONS WITHOUT INFORMING ME AND DROPPING ME AS A CLIENT WITHOUT EVEN BOTHERING TO TELL ME HE HAD DONE THIS EVEN THOUGH I HAD AN APPOINTMENT SCHEDULED FOR JULY…

WOW… THIS IS IRONY AT IT’S BEST!  I CAN TOP THAT OFF WITH WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH MY DISH TV SERVICE-BUT FIRST LET’S FINISH WITH IRONY AT CHURCH- PASTOR AT CHURCH SAYS NO OFFERING TO GIVE A CHURCH MEMBER THE REFERRAL CREDIT FOR SIGNING UP WITH DISH SINCE MY FAMILY HAS SERVICE WITH DIRECT TV…SOLICITING. WHEN I WAS GIVING BJ’s FOR DRUGS-THAT WAS SOLICITING.   I THOUGHT IT WAS BEING CHARITABLE AND SOMEONE FROM CHURCH WOULD GET $50 OFF THEIR BILL AND I WOULD GET THE $50 OFF MY BILL TOO.   MY COUSIN HAS MARRIED A MAN THAT HAS A SEVERE WAY OF LOOKING AT THE WORLD AS HE WAS A POLICE OFFICER AND ALSO IN THE ARMED FORCES- BUT HIM SAYING HE HAD THOUGHTS OF STRIKING ME AFTER I SAID “JESUS CHRIST” IN THE PARKING LOT OF THE CHURCH- I DID SAY IT OUT OF CONTEXT, I ADMIT BUT I DID NOT UNDERSTAND IT WAS CONSIDERED A CURSE WORD- THE NAME OF THE LORD.  IF I HAD SAID ‘JESUS F**KING CHRIST” I FEEL THEN HE MIGHT HAVE CAUSE TO THINK OF STRIKING ME FOR A TRANSGRESSION, HEHEHE  WHO IS DOING THE SINNING HERE? IS NOT WRATH ONE OF THE BIG 7???   TODAY WAS REAL FUN SO FAR AS DISH TV HAS COME OUT TO CHECK OUT A NUMBER OF THINGS-ONE, I HAVE LOCKED OUT CERTAIN CHANNELS ON MY DVR AND NOW SPORTS CHANNELS AND A LATIN CHANNEL AND VOD CHANNELS ARE SHOWING UP AND EVEN MORE APPEARING WHILE I WAS ON THE PHONE WITH DISH ABOUT THE LOCKED CHANNELS RE-APPEARING AFTER LOCKING THEM DOWN SEVERAL TIMES.   NOW THE DVR IS SAYING THERE IS NO SIGNAL-OR EVEN WORSE THINGS…WHEN THERE IS NO SIGNAL- THE THINGS I AM RECORDING STOP RECORDING OR JUST RECORD BLACK.  THIS IS GETTING OLD BUT THE PRICE OF SECURITY IS ETERNAL VIGILANCE.  IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THE HARD DRIVE ON THIS UNIT IS CORRUPTED LIKE THE FIRST ONE WAS – BUT THE FACT REMAINS THAT PROGRAMS HAVE BEEN ADDED FROM SOMETHING OTHER THAN MY DVR-THE TECH WHO CAME TO MY DADDY’S FROM SOUTHERN STAR- THE PEOPLE WHO INSTALLED THE DVR- SAW I HAD PERFECT SIGNAL SO THE SIGNAL GOING OUT WAS WEIRD AND THE PROGRAMS ADDED BY A DIFFERENT MACHINE THAN MY DVR AND THE SPORTS CHANNELS I HAD LOCKED DOWN RE-APPEARING ARE PROOF POSITIVE THAT MY HACKERS HAVE INDEED FOLLOWED ME TO TEXAS AND ARE STILL INVADING MY PAID FOR PUBLIC UTILITIES AND THEY HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE AS I WAS HACKED BY MICHAEL SHURER AND HIS EMPLOYEES FROM HIS AUDIO AND VIDEO BUSINESS ‘MICHAEL’S AUDIO AND VIDEO’ OUT OF GRAND COUNTY, COLORADO-CAUGHT THEM CUTTING INTO MY DIRECT TV SATELLITE DISH BACK THEN AND LOOKS LIKE THEY ARE REALLY WANTING TO WATCH SPORTS BAD USING MY DISH TV SERVICE.   NOW LET’S GET TO THE REAL JUICY STUFF SO ALL OF YOU KNOW THE DEPTH OF THE PILE OF CRAP I AM DEALING WITH- YESTERDAY I FOUND OUT THAT MY MENTAL HEATH DOCTOR HAD LITERALLY DROPPED ME AS A PATIENT WITHOUT EVEN  BOTHERING TO TELL ME AND I AM ON SCHEDULE 2 MEDICATIONS SO FORCED DETOX IS GOING TO BE REALLY FUN FOR ME!  I HAD PREDICTED JUST THIS EXACT TREATMENT (OR LACK OF) HAPPENING AS DOCTOR RICHARD BERKLEY HAD BEEN CHANGING MY DOSAGES OF MEDICATIONS WITHOUT BOTHERING TO TELL ME RECENTLY JUST AS I FINALLY GOT MY THYROID AT THE CORRECT LEVELS!  AND HE ALSO TRIED TO PRESCRIBE ME A DRUG THAT HAD MULTIPLE SEVERE COMPLICATIONS FOR THOSE OF US WITH HEPATATIC CONDITIONS AND DIFFERENT DRUG INTERACTIONS-SEVERE ENOUGH THAT I REFUSED TO TAKE THIS MEDICATION AFTER READING THE RISK FACTORS.  HE HAD ME AT 900 MG. OF SEROQUEL DAILY ON TOP OF 20 MG. OF VALIUM- THAT IS DARN NEAR A LETHAL DOSAGE! SO AS SOON AS I CAN GET SOME FREE TIME FROM ALL THIS CRAP- I WILL BE LOOKING TO SUE MIND SPRINGS MENTAL HEALTH FOR MALPRACTICE OR AT THE VERY LEAST FILE A COMPLAINT ABOUT THIS BUSINESS – I WILL BE THINKING OF EVERY WAY I CAN FILE SOME KIND OF COMPLAINT OR CHARGES BECAUSE OF THE MANY STUPID THINGS I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH FROM MIND SPRINGS INCLUDING THEM SCHEDULING ME FOR AN APPOINTMENT AT A LOCATION I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO INSTEAD OF THE VIDEO CONFERENCING SESSIONS I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR YEARS.   HAVING LOTS OF FUN TYPING THIS OUT TOO, I CANNOT FAT FINGER THE ITALICS BEING PUT BACK ON AFTER I REMOVE IT MULTIPLE TIMES.   I HAVE ALSO SPOKEN WITH SOMEONE AT THE SHERIFF DEPARTMENT IN WOOD COUNTY ABOUT THE DISH TV INTERCESSIONS- I HAVE NOT UPDATED HIM ON THE SPORTS CHANNELS RE- APPEARING AFTER AGAIN LOCKING THEM OUT WHILE ON THE PHONE WITH DISH TV TECHNICAL SUPPORT TODAY…  SO NOW YOU HAVE SOME IDEA OF WHAT IRONY IS- IRONY IS MOVING TO A PLACE WHERE YOU CANNOT GET THE MEDICATIONS YOU HAVE BEEN ON FOR MANY YEARS AND HAVING YOUR MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDER JUST REFUSE TO BE YOUR DOCTOR.  NEXT STUPID STUFF TO HAPPEN IS MY DADDY’S INTERNET AND PHONE SERVICE BEING DISRUPTED (WHICH HAS ALREADY STARTED) BY THE PHONE BEING HUNG UP WHILE TALKING WITH DISH TV TECHNICAL SUPPORT N SOMEONE TAKING OVER HIS PC  (HE HAS NO FIREWALLS ON BUT DOES NOT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE) AND THEN NEXT HAVING MY SSI  AND MEDICARE CUT OFF!  I DO NOT KNOW IF THERE IS A DOCTOR IN THIS AREA ABLE TO DEAL WITH MY MULTIPLE TYPES OF HEALTH ISSUES-INCLUDING GETTING OXYGEN SERVICE GOING AS ONCE AGAIN MY REGULATORS ARE CEASING TO FUNCTION PROPERLY.  WHEN THE CAR DEVELOPS MORE PROBLEMS I WILL NOT BE SURPRISED AND WHEN DOCTORS REFUSE TO TAKE MY MEDICAIDE-OR ME AS A NEW PATIENT-I WILL NOT BE SURPRISED AND WHEN THIS POLICE STATION IS HACKED INTO AND SOMEONE ACTIVELY SCRIPTING ON POLICE COMPUTERS LIKE THEY ARE AT THE MINEOLA PUBLIC LIBRARY, I WILL NOT BE SURPRISED ABOUT THAT EITHER ANYMORE THAN I WILL BE SURPRISED BY A HATEFUL REACTION FROM THE OH SO GODLY MAN MY COUSIN MARRIED AFTER HE READS THIS ARTICLE ABOUT IRONY!!!  I’M TELLIN YA, IF I COULD NOT LAUGH ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF, I WOULD BE PISSED OR CRYING, BUT IRONY IS EXACTLY WHAT IT REPRESENTS ITSELF TO BE…HOW IRONIC-NOT TO LAUGH AT IT!  WRITING DONE BY A SOMEWHAT AMUSED AND CONFUSED KARIN WRAPE 6-27-17  I AM SURE IT IS ILLEGAL TO DROP SOMEONE FROM MENTAL HEALTH SERVICE WITHOUT EVEN INFORMING THEM OF IT AND REFUSE TO FILL MEDICATIONS I WILL HAVE TO SUFFER WITHDRAWALS OF THAT MIGHT RESULT IN DEATH AS I AM OUT OF VALIUM, ADDERALL AND PROVIGIL AS WELL AS MY WATER PILLS THAT KEEP ME FROM SUFFERING MAJOR EDEMA.  JUST MORE RANK TREATMENT (OR LACK OF) BY MIND SPRINGS MENTAL HEALTH IN COLORADO…I SHOULD BE USED TO THEIR INCOMPETENCE AND LACK OF CONCERN FOR PATIENTS BY NOW, YOU WOULD THINK…ONE LAST FOOTNOTE- THE ‘SOUND’ THAT IS USUALLY PRESENT WAS NOT PRESENT TODAY AS THE DISH TV TECH WAS COMING OUT- YOU CAN BET IT WILL RE-APPEAR THIS EVENING-JUST LIKE THE LOCKED OUT SPORTS CHANNELS…AND I WILL LAUGH ABOUT IT RATHER THAN CURSE CAUSE THIS IS A PATTERN OF EVENTS I HAVE SEEN OVER AND OVER SINCE 2013!  THIS WILL NOT CRUSH MY ATTITUDE TO SOMETHING DARK AND ANGRY.  I REFUSE TO LET THE CONTINUED CRIMES BEING COMMITTED DESTORY MY HAPPINESS.

I GUESS THAT NO MATTER WHAT I DO I WILL NEVER BE ACCEPTED BY THE SO CALLED ‘NORMAL’ PEOPLE AS I AM VERY BIPOLAR AND WHEN I GET AROUND PEOPLE I GET MANIC.  IT IS SOMETHING I HAVE TRIED VERY HARD TO DO- CHANGE MY BEHAVIOR TO BECOME  MORE ACCEPTABLE IN PUBLIC AND IF YOU ONLY KNEW HOW RANK MY ATTITUDE AND MOUTH USED TO BE, YOU WOULD SEE HOW MUCH DIFFERENT I AM NOW.   SO SINCE I CANNOT PLEASE EVERYONE NO MATTER WHAT I DO, I AM JUST GONNA HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE LIKE I USED TO, ALONE BECAUSE PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND ME.  I WISH I HAD BEEN RAISED BY A REAL FAMILY, I COULD HAVE BEEN SOMEONE REALLY REMARKABLE BUT I DID NOT GET THAT SO I DO AND SAY THINGS STILL THAT PROVE I AM NOT EVER GOING TO BE ACCEPTED AS A NORMAL PERSON BY ANYONE.   I HAVE NO FRIENDS AT ALL SO BEING SOMEONE NO ONE WANTS AROUND IS NOTHING NEW TO ME, PEOPLE HAVE ALWAYS LOOKED UPON ME AS CRAZY AND A THING TO BE AVOIDED, I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO BLEND INTO ANY CROWD, I EVEN SCARE THE CRAZY PEOPLE… SO I JUST WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW THAT MY GUT TELLS ME WHEN I AM LIKED OR MERELY PUT UP WITH AND FROM WHAT I HAVE SEEN OF OTHER PEOPLE WHO DO NOT CARE TO ACCEPT ME DESPITE MY MENTAL PROBLEMS I JUST MAY BE BETTER OFF ALONE RATHER THAN TRYING TO PLEASE PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY ARE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE.  I WOULD RATHER BE THE ECCENTRIC PERSON I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN  THAN PUT ON SOME ACT TO TRY AND PLEASE OTHERS WITH  LOSED MINDS.  YOU MAY NOT LIKE ME BUT YOU HAVE TO RESPECT THE FACT THAT AT LEAST I HAVE TRIED MY BEST TO CHANGE MY WAYS AND HAVE A WILL STONG ENOUGH TO QUIT DRUGS, DRINKING, SMOKING AND CURSING LIKE A SAILOR, I STILL HAVE THIS MOUTH WITH A WILL OF IT’S OWN THOUGH.  I HAVE THE STRENGTH OF CHARACTER TO CONTROL WHAT GOES INTO MY BODY BUT STILL CANNOT CONTROL WHAT COMES OUT OF IT… BUT I AM STILL TRYING, MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL FIND PEOPLE I DO NOT HAVE TO KISS A$$ TO FEEL WELCOME AROUND BECAUSE IF YOU FEEL YOU HAVE TO DO DRASTIC CHANGES AND ARE STILL SEEN AS A THING- YOU STILL ARE NOT ACCEPTED – YOU ARE TOLERATED…I DO NOT WANT TO BE TOLERATED, I WANT A REAL FRIEND THAT ACCEPTS ME ‘AS IS’ OR IS WILLING TO HELP ME BECOME THAT BETTER PERSON INSTEAD OF MAKING ME FEEL THE DISLIKE I GOT AFTER  CHURCH TODAY FROM MY COUSIN’S HUSBAND.   I HOPE HE SEES HE IS NOT ANY MORE PERFECT THAN I AM AND DOES NOT HARBOR HATE IN HIS HEART FOR GOOD, YOU SHOULD NOT GO TO BED WITH BAD THOUGHTS OF OTHERS IN YOUR HEART. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE PEOPLE WHO TAKE ONE LOOK AT YOU AND HATE YOU, THAT IS JUST PEOPLE BEING THE JUDGEMENTAL THINGS WE REALLY ARE.  THE WORLD IS FULL OF PEOPLE WHO ARE ALL UNIQUE, CAN YOU IMAGINE A WORLD WITHOUT THOSE OF US WHO ARE ECCENTRIC? I WOULD NOT WANT TO LIVE THERE.  SO I GUESS I WILL JUST HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE BEING THE PERSON PEOPLE STARE AT INSTEAD OF TRY TO GET TO KNOW.  THEY ARE MISSING OUT, NOT ME CAUSE I KNOW WHAT I USED TO BE AND HOW MUCH I HAVE CHANGED!  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-25-17  THIS IS THERAPUTIC WRITING- BUT THIS TIME IT IS INTENDED FOR OTHERS…LOVE U ALL, FROM THE OTHER ( ! )  IN OUR FAMILY,hehehe

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