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THIS EVENING I ENJOYED ONE OF THE MOST RELAXING SWIMS  HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE… AFTER TROTTING MY EVENING MILE ON MY TREADMILL, I GOT MY BOTTLE OF  FROZEN JUICE AND JUG OF JELLYBEANS AND MY 3 RING BLOW UP KIDDIE POOL OUT OF THE SHED AND STROLLED THE QUARTER MILE TO THE LAKE WITH MY SWIM FINS AND REFRESHMENTS IN  THE OLD GREEN NYLON BAG I HAVE CARRIED THEM IN FOR YEARS OVER MY LEFT SHOULDER AND THE NOW HALF LIMP POOL OVER THE OTHER ONE… THE WATER WAS STILL AS I HAVE EVER SEEN IT AS I THREW THE WHOLE MESS INTO THE LAKE AFTER A FEW PUFFS IN THE RINGS OF THE POOL THAT HAVE LEAKS FROM CUTS FROM MY FINGERNAILS IN THEM AND I WAS OFF ON ONE OF THE LAZIEST SWIMS OF MY LIFE! I HAVE A SMALL BLOW UP ARC SHAPED BLOW UP THAT I LAY BACK ON AND JUST FLOATED ON WHILE THE KIDDIE POOL DRIFTED NEARBY, MY FIN TIPS STICKING UPOUT OF THE WATER LOOKING AT THE BITS OF FLUFF FROM WEEDS AND LITTLE BUGS STICKING TO THE SURFACE TENSION OF THE WATER…THE ONLY WAVES FROM THE OCCASIONAL FLIP OF MY FINS.   IJUST LAY BACK AND WATCHED THE HALF MOON  UP IN THE SKY RISEAS THE FEW PUFFY CLOUDS DRIFTED PAST IT, ALL THOUGHTS OF HACKING AND AUDIO TORTURE FAR FROM MY MIND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN WEEKS!   I WOULD SEE THE OCCASIONAL WHITE CRANE FLY OUT INTO THE MIDDLE OF THE WATER AND SETTLE NEAR ME AND GET THAT LIITLE THRILL YOU GET WHEN SOMETHING WITH FINS BRUSHES AGAINST YOUR LEG AND REALISE THERE WAS NOTHING IN THE WORLD THAT I REALLY HAD TO WORRY ABOUT RIGHT NOW, NOT MY EMPHYSEMA OR ANY SINGLE THING BAD AT ALL…NOTHING BUTME LAYING INTHE WATER AND WATCHING THE STREAMS OF BUBBLES APPEARING AND THEN THE FAMILIAR LITTLE CIRCULAR WAVES OF THE MANY WATER TURTLES THAT WERE OUT IN THE WATER WITH ME AS THIER LITTLE HEADS WOULDPOKE UP OUT OF THE WATERLOOKING AT ME AND WONDERING WHAT KIND OF NEW FISH THIS WAS OUT THERE WITH THEM.  I SWAM LAZILY LIKE THIS FOR ABOUT A MILE TO WHERE THERE ARE BOUYS TO KEEP THOSE WATER SKIING OUT OF THE SHALLOW AREAS AND  MET A MAN WHO WAS FISHING FOR BASS ANDSPOKE WITH HIM ABOUT THE BEAUTYF THE CALM LAKE WATCHING HIM CAST HIS LINEOUT AND IT STAY ON THE TOP OF THE STILL WATER IN LONG SPIRALS AND TO MY DELIGHT I SAW HIM CATCH A SMALL BASS, WAY TOO SMALL TO KEEP, I WOULD GUESS IT TO BE ABOUT 9 INCHES AND SAW HIM SET THE LITTLE FISH BACK IN THE WARER GENTLY AND THE  CAST THE OLD JIG  HE WAS FISHING WITH OUT AGAIN NOT REALLY TRYING TO CATCH SOMETHING TO EAT, JUST ENJOYING SLINGING THE LINE OUT MOSTLY FROM THE LAZY WAY HE WENT ABOUT IT.   FINALLY I WATCHED THE SUN DIP BEHIND THE TREES LINING THE SHORE ANDHEADED TOWARDS IT AND STROLLED THE QUARTER MILE BACK HOME AND EVEN FOUND A PENNY ON THE GROUND ON MY WAY BACK TO THE TRAILER AND THE GOD AWFUL SOUND THATWILL BE KEEPING ME FROM SLEEPING AGAIN THIS WHOLE LABOR DAY WEEKEND AS HAS BECOME THE NORM SINCE 2014..,ONCE AGAIN I AM HAVING PROBLEMS WHILE TYPING THIS AND THE BEST I CAN DO TO NOT GET PISSED OFF IS THINK OF MY LEISURELY SWIM AS THE AIRPLAY MIRRORING KEEPS POPPING UP.  WRITING DONE BY A  VERY RELAXED KARIN WRAPE, 9-1-17 WHILE SITTING NEXT TO HER DADDY AND HIS  CAT IN MY FAVORITE BLACK SILK PAJAMAS IN THE RECLINER NEXT TO HIM WATCHING AN OLD MOVIE CALLED ‘A POCKET FULL OF MIRACLES’ WHILE I LOVINGLY STOKE THE CAT IN HIS LAP…HOPE TOMORROW IS EXACTLY LIKE TODAY WAS AND THINKING ABOUT BAKING SOME SNICKERDOODLE COOKIES LATER TO ENJOY WITH WOME ICED MILK IN MY FAVORITE ALUMINUM  MUG!!! HOPING SOMEONE OUT THERE HAS HAD A DAY LIKE THIS THEMSELVES…

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WOW… THIS IS IRONY AT IT’S BEST!  I CAN TOP THAT OFF WITH WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON WITH MY DISH TV SERVICE-BUT FIRST LET’S FINISH WITH IRONY AT CHURCH- PASTOR AT CHURCH SAYS NO OFFERING TO GIVE A CHURCH MEMBER THE REFERRAL CREDIT FOR SIGNING UP WITH DISH SINCE MY FAMILY HAS SERVICE WITH DIRECT TV…SOLICITING. WHEN I WAS GIVING BJ’s FOR DRUGS-THAT WAS SOLICITING.   I THOUGHT IT WAS BEING CHARITABLE AND SOMEONE FROM CHURCH WOULD GET $50 OFF THEIR BILL AND I WOULD GET THE $50 OFF MY BILL TOO.   MY COUSIN HAS MARRIED A MAN THAT HAS A SEVERE WAY OF LOOKING AT THE WORLD AS HE WAS A POLICE OFFICER AND ALSO IN THE ARMED FORCES- BUT HIM SAYING HE HAD THOUGHTS OF STRIKING ME AFTER I SAID “JESUS CHRIST” IN THE PARKING LOT OF THE CHURCH- I DID SAY IT OUT OF CONTEXT, I ADMIT BUT I DID NOT UNDERSTAND IT WAS CONSIDERED A CURSE WORD- THE NAME OF THE LORD.  IF I HAD SAID ‘JESUS F**KING CHRIST” I FEEL THEN HE MIGHT HAVE CAUSE TO THINK OF STRIKING ME FOR A TRANSGRESSION, HEHEHE  WHO IS DOING THE SINNING HERE? IS NOT WRATH ONE OF THE BIG 7???   TODAY WAS REAL FUN SO FAR AS DISH TV HAS COME OUT TO CHECK OUT A NUMBER OF THINGS-ONE, I HAVE LOCKED OUT CERTAIN CHANNELS ON MY DVR AND NOW SPORTS CHANNELS AND A LATIN CHANNEL AND VOD CHANNELS ARE SHOWING UP AND EVEN MORE APPEARING WHILE I WAS ON THE PHONE WITH DISH ABOUT THE LOCKED CHANNELS RE-APPEARING AFTER LOCKING THEM DOWN SEVERAL TIMES.   NOW THE DVR IS SAYING THERE IS NO SIGNAL-OR EVEN WORSE THINGS…WHEN THERE IS NO SIGNAL- THE THINGS I AM RECORDING STOP RECORDING OR JUST RECORD BLACK.  THIS IS GETTING OLD BUT THE PRICE OF SECURITY IS ETERNAL VIGILANCE.  IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THE HARD DRIVE ON THIS UNIT IS CORRUPTED LIKE THE FIRST ONE WAS – BUT THE FACT REMAINS THAT PROGRAMS HAVE BEEN ADDED FROM SOMETHING OTHER THAN MY DVR-THE TECH WHO CAME TO MY DADDY’S FROM SOUTHERN STAR- THE PEOPLE WHO INSTALLED THE DVR- SAW I HAD PERFECT SIGNAL SO THE SIGNAL GOING OUT WAS WEIRD AND THE PROGRAMS ADDED BY A DIFFERENT MACHINE THAN MY DVR AND THE SPORTS CHANNELS I HAD LOCKED DOWN RE-APPEARING ARE PROOF POSITIVE THAT MY HACKERS HAVE INDEED FOLLOWED ME TO TEXAS AND ARE STILL INVADING MY PAID FOR PUBLIC UTILITIES AND THEY HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE AS I WAS HACKED BY MICHAEL SHURER AND HIS EMPLOYEES FROM HIS AUDIO AND VIDEO BUSINESS ‘MICHAEL’S AUDIO AND VIDEO’ OUT OF GRAND COUNTY, COLORADO-CAUGHT THEM CUTTING INTO MY DIRECT TV SATELLITE DISH BACK THEN AND LOOKS LIKE THEY ARE REALLY WANTING TO WATCH SPORTS BAD USING MY DISH TV SERVICE.   NOW LET’S GET TO THE REAL JUICY STUFF SO ALL OF YOU KNOW THE DEPTH OF THE PILE OF CRAP I AM DEALING WITH- YESTERDAY I FOUND OUT THAT MY MENTAL HEATH DOCTOR HAD LITERALLY DROPPED ME AS A PATIENT WITHOUT EVEN  BOTHERING TO TELL ME AND I AM ON SCHEDULE 2 MEDICATIONS SO FORCED DETOX IS GOING TO BE REALLY FUN FOR ME!  I HAD PREDICTED JUST THIS EXACT TREATMENT (OR LACK OF) HAPPENING AS DOCTOR RICHARD BERKLEY HAD BEEN CHANGING MY DOSAGES OF MEDICATIONS WITHOUT BOTHERING TO TELL ME RECENTLY JUST AS I FINALLY GOT MY THYROID AT THE CORRECT LEVELS!  AND HE ALSO TRIED TO PRESCRIBE ME A DRUG THAT HAD MULTIPLE SEVERE COMPLICATIONS FOR THOSE OF US WITH HEPATATIC CONDITIONS AND DIFFERENT DRUG INTERACTIONS-SEVERE ENOUGH THAT I REFUSED TO TAKE THIS MEDICATION AFTER READING THE RISK FACTORS.  HE HAD ME AT 900 MG. OF SEROQUEL DAILY ON TOP OF 20 MG. OF VALIUM- THAT IS DARN NEAR A LETHAL DOSAGE! SO AS SOON AS I CAN GET SOME FREE TIME FROM ALL THIS CRAP- I WILL BE LOOKING TO SUE MIND SPRINGS MENTAL HEALTH FOR MALPRACTICE OR AT THE VERY LEAST FILE A COMPLAINT ABOUT THIS BUSINESS – I WILL BE THINKING OF EVERY WAY I CAN FILE SOME KIND OF COMPLAINT OR CHARGES BECAUSE OF THE MANY STUPID THINGS I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH FROM MIND SPRINGS INCLUDING THEM SCHEDULING ME FOR AN APPOINTMENT AT A LOCATION I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO INSTEAD OF THE VIDEO CONFERENCING SESSIONS I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR YEARS.   HAVING LOTS OF FUN TYPING THIS OUT TOO, I CANNOT FAT FINGER THE ITALICS BEING PUT BACK ON AFTER I REMOVE IT MULTIPLE TIMES.   I HAVE ALSO SPOKEN WITH SOMEONE AT THE SHERIFF DEPARTMENT IN WOOD COUNTY ABOUT THE DISH TV INTERCESSIONS- I HAVE NOT UPDATED HIM ON THE SPORTS CHANNELS RE- APPEARING AFTER AGAIN LOCKING THEM OUT WHILE ON THE PHONE WITH DISH TV TECHNICAL SUPPORT TODAY…  SO NOW YOU HAVE SOME IDEA OF WHAT IRONY IS- IRONY IS MOVING TO A PLACE WHERE YOU CANNOT GET THE MEDICATIONS YOU HAVE BEEN ON FOR MANY YEARS AND HAVING YOUR MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDER JUST REFUSE TO BE YOUR DOCTOR.  NEXT STUPID STUFF TO HAPPEN IS MY DADDY’S INTERNET AND PHONE SERVICE BEING DISRUPTED (WHICH HAS ALREADY STARTED) BY THE PHONE BEING HUNG UP WHILE TALKING WITH DISH TV TECHNICAL SUPPORT N SOMEONE TAKING OVER HIS PC  (HE HAS NO FIREWALLS ON BUT DOES NOT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE) AND THEN NEXT HAVING MY SSI  AND MEDICARE CUT OFF!  I DO NOT KNOW IF THERE IS A DOCTOR IN THIS AREA ABLE TO DEAL WITH MY MULTIPLE TYPES OF HEALTH ISSUES-INCLUDING GETTING OXYGEN SERVICE GOING AS ONCE AGAIN MY REGULATORS ARE CEASING TO FUNCTION PROPERLY.  WHEN THE CAR DEVELOPS MORE PROBLEMS I WILL NOT BE SURPRISED AND WHEN DOCTORS REFUSE TO TAKE MY MEDICAIDE-OR ME AS A NEW PATIENT-I WILL NOT BE SURPRISED AND WHEN THIS POLICE STATION IS HACKED INTO AND SOMEONE ACTIVELY SCRIPTING ON POLICE COMPUTERS LIKE THEY ARE AT THE MINEOLA PUBLIC LIBRARY, I WILL NOT BE SURPRISED ABOUT THAT EITHER ANYMORE THAN I WILL BE SURPRISED BY A HATEFUL REACTION FROM THE OH SO GODLY MAN MY COUSIN MARRIED AFTER HE READS THIS ARTICLE ABOUT IRONY!!!  I’M TELLIN YA, IF I COULD NOT LAUGH ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF, I WOULD BE PISSED OR CRYING, BUT IRONY IS EXACTLY WHAT IT REPRESENTS ITSELF TO BE…HOW IRONIC-NOT TO LAUGH AT IT!  WRITING DONE BY A SOMEWHAT AMUSED AND CONFUSED KARIN WRAPE 6-27-17  I AM SURE IT IS ILLEGAL TO DROP SOMEONE FROM MENTAL HEALTH SERVICE WITHOUT EVEN INFORMING THEM OF IT AND REFUSE TO FILL MEDICATIONS I WILL HAVE TO SUFFER WITHDRAWALS OF THAT MIGHT RESULT IN DEATH AS I AM OUT OF VALIUM, ADDERALL AND PROVIGIL AS WELL AS MY WATER PILLS THAT KEEP ME FROM SUFFERING MAJOR EDEMA.  JUST MORE RANK TREATMENT (OR LACK OF) BY MIND SPRINGS MENTAL HEALTH IN COLORADO…I SHOULD BE USED TO THEIR INCOMPETENCE AND LACK OF CONCERN FOR PATIENTS BY NOW, YOU WOULD THINK…ONE LAST FOOTNOTE- THE ‘SOUND’ THAT IS USUALLY PRESENT WAS NOT PRESENT TODAY AS THE DISH TV TECH WAS COMING OUT- YOU CAN BET IT WILL RE-APPEAR THIS EVENING-JUST LIKE THE LOCKED OUT SPORTS CHANNELS…AND I WILL LAUGH ABOUT IT RATHER THAN CURSE CAUSE THIS IS A PATTERN OF EVENTS I HAVE SEEN OVER AND OVER SINCE 2013!  THIS WILL NOT CRUSH MY ATTITUDE TO SOMETHING DARK AND ANGRY.  I REFUSE TO LET THE CONTINUED CRIMES BEING COMMITTED DESTORY MY HAPPINESS.

I GUESS THAT NO MATTER WHAT I DO I WILL NEVER BE ACCEPTED BY THE SO CALLED ‘NORMAL’ PEOPLE AS I AM VERY BIPOLAR AND WHEN I GET AROUND PEOPLE I GET MANIC.  IT IS SOMETHING I HAVE TRIED VERY HARD TO DO- CHANGE MY BEHAVIOR TO BECOME  MORE ACCEPTABLE IN PUBLIC AND IF YOU ONLY KNEW HOW RANK MY ATTITUDE AND MOUTH USED TO BE, YOU WOULD SEE HOW MUCH DIFFERENT I AM NOW.   SO SINCE I CANNOT PLEASE EVERYONE NO MATTER WHAT I DO, I AM JUST GONNA HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE LIKE I USED TO, ALONE BECAUSE PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND ME.  I WISH I HAD BEEN RAISED BY A REAL FAMILY, I COULD HAVE BEEN SOMEONE REALLY REMARKABLE BUT I DID NOT GET THAT SO I DO AND SAY THINGS STILL THAT PROVE I AM NOT EVER GOING TO BE ACCEPTED AS A NORMAL PERSON BY ANYONE.   I HAVE NO FRIENDS AT ALL SO BEING SOMEONE NO ONE WANTS AROUND IS NOTHING NEW TO ME, PEOPLE HAVE ALWAYS LOOKED UPON ME AS CRAZY AND A THING TO BE AVOIDED, I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO BLEND INTO ANY CROWD, I EVEN SCARE THE CRAZY PEOPLE… SO I JUST WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW THAT MY GUT TELLS ME WHEN I AM LIKED OR MERELY PUT UP WITH AND FROM WHAT I HAVE SEEN OF OTHER PEOPLE WHO DO NOT CARE TO ACCEPT ME DESPITE MY MENTAL PROBLEMS I JUST MAY BE BETTER OFF ALONE RATHER THAN TRYING TO PLEASE PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY ARE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE.  I WOULD RATHER BE THE ECCENTRIC PERSON I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN  THAN PUT ON SOME ACT TO TRY AND PLEASE OTHERS WITH  LOSED MINDS.  YOU MAY NOT LIKE ME BUT YOU HAVE TO RESPECT THE FACT THAT AT LEAST I HAVE TRIED MY BEST TO CHANGE MY WAYS AND HAVE A WILL STONG ENOUGH TO QUIT DRUGS, DRINKING, SMOKING AND CURSING LIKE A SAILOR, I STILL HAVE THIS MOUTH WITH A WILL OF IT’S OWN THOUGH.  I HAVE THE STRENGTH OF CHARACTER TO CONTROL WHAT GOES INTO MY BODY BUT STILL CANNOT CONTROL WHAT COMES OUT OF IT… BUT I AM STILL TRYING, MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL FIND PEOPLE I DO NOT HAVE TO KISS A$$ TO FEEL WELCOME AROUND BECAUSE IF YOU FEEL YOU HAVE TO DO DRASTIC CHANGES AND ARE STILL SEEN AS A THING- YOU STILL ARE NOT ACCEPTED – YOU ARE TOLERATED…I DO NOT WANT TO BE TOLERATED, I WANT A REAL FRIEND THAT ACCEPTS ME ‘AS IS’ OR IS WILLING TO HELP ME BECOME THAT BETTER PERSON INSTEAD OF MAKING ME FEEL THE DISLIKE I GOT AFTER  CHURCH TODAY FROM MY COUSIN’S HUSBAND.   I HOPE HE SEES HE IS NOT ANY MORE PERFECT THAN I AM AND DOES NOT HARBOR HATE IN HIS HEART FOR GOOD, YOU SHOULD NOT GO TO BED WITH BAD THOUGHTS OF OTHERS IN YOUR HEART. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE PEOPLE WHO TAKE ONE LOOK AT YOU AND HATE YOU, THAT IS JUST PEOPLE BEING THE JUDGEMENTAL THINGS WE REALLY ARE.  THE WORLD IS FULL OF PEOPLE WHO ARE ALL UNIQUE, CAN YOU IMAGINE A WORLD WITHOUT THOSE OF US WHO ARE ECCENTRIC? I WOULD NOT WANT TO LIVE THERE.  SO I GUESS I WILL JUST HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE BEING THE PERSON PEOPLE STARE AT INSTEAD OF TRY TO GET TO KNOW.  THEY ARE MISSING OUT, NOT ME CAUSE I KNOW WHAT I USED TO BE AND HOW MUCH I HAVE CHANGED!  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-25-17  THIS IS THERAPUTIC WRITING- BUT THIS TIME IT IS INTENDED FOR OTHERS…LOVE U ALL, FROM THE OTHER ( ! )  IN OUR FAMILY,hehehe

EVERY DAY WITH MY DADDY IS GETTING BETTER!  I CAN PICK UP HIS CAT- THIS IS SOMETHING I DOUBT THIS ANIMAL HAS EVER HAD DONE- BEEN PICKED UP…  CATS CAN BE TRAINED, IF YOU HAVE THE PATIENCE AND A PORK CHOP BONE!!~!  I DO NOT HAVE TO HANG A PORK CHOP AROUND MY NECK TO GET THE CAT TO PLAY WITH ME-BUT I DO RUB ONE ON MY FINGERS SO IT LIKES THE SMELL OF MY HANDS WHEN I PET IT!   THE KITTY CUTS FROM THE ANIMAL PEELING OUT WHEN FRIGHTENED ARE REDUCING QUITE A BIT TOO.  I CAN PICK UP THE CAT AND TAKE IT OVER AND SIT NEXT TO DADDY WHEN HE IS USING HIS PC AND THE ANIMAL CAN LOOK AT IT’S DADDY INSTEAD OF SITTING ON THE FLOOR AT HIS FEET NOW-I CAN ALSO SET THE CAT DOWN IN DADDY’S LAP WITHOUT IT DIGGING IN TO DADDY’S ‘PARTS’, I CAN EVEN SET IT DOWN ON HIS CHAIR AND THE CAT WILL STAY THERE WAITING FOR HIM TO COME SIT DOWN.   I SWEAR THIS IS A CAT SHAPED DOG AS THE THING FOLLOWS DADDY EVERYWHERE AND YOWLS WHEN HE GETS UP TO CHANGE MOVIES.  THE CAT HAS HIM TRAINED.  BUT EVERY DAY THE ANIMAL GETS EASIER TO DEAL WITH AND BEFORE LONG IT WILL NOT BE SITTING ON DADDY’S LEFT SIDE BUT MORE TO THE MIDDLE SO I CAN RUB IT IN ALL THOSE PLACES A KITTY SIMPLY CANNOT REACH!  I HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING HAPPINESS NOW FOR 2 STRAIGHT WEEKS AND NOW AM WONDERING IF I CAN GET SO HAPPY THAT IT CAUSES ME HARM FROM BEING IN THAT SEROTONIN ELEVATED STATE SO LONG- I KNOW THE HUMAN BODY CAN ONLY STAND THE STATE OF BEING IN LOVE FOR A YEAR BEFORE THINGS START BECOMING LESS INTENSE- THAT IS A SCIENTIFIC FACT.  IT IS JUST THAT I HAVE BEEN UNHAPPY FOR SO LONG-ABOUT 4 STRAIGHT YEARS-THAT I DID NOT KNOW I WAS ACTUALLY HAPPY UNTIL PEOPLE BEGAN TO POINT IT OUT TO ME AT THE WALMART STORE- ME SINGING AND DANCING TO THE TOP 40 SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD THAT DAY IS SOMETHING PEOPLE SEE AND ARE FEELING THEY NEED TO REMARK UPON-WOW, WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT JUST A MONTH AGO THAT I WOULD BECOME CONCERNED ABOUT BEING TOO HAPPY???  FIRST THING THIS MORNING MY DADDY MADE ME A NEW TRAY OF COOKIES AND THE HOUSE SMELLED SOOOO GOOD I COULD BARELY KEEP AWAY FROM THE COOKIES THAT DADDY SAID NEED TO SIT FOR A BIT BEFORE YOU CAN GET THEM OFF THE BAKING PAN AS THEY FALL APART WHEN HOT.   BUT THEY WILL BE THERE WHEN I GET HOME- ANOTHER THING I WOULD NOT HAVE EVEN IMAGINED MYSELF THINKING I HAD JUST A MONTH AGO…   THIS FAMILY THING IS TURNING OUT TO BE PRETTY COOL!   YEAH, I STILL HAVE THE HACKERS MESSING WITH MY STUFF AND LISTENING IN ON EVERY PHONE CALL I MAKE FROM MY CELLPHONE BUT SOMEHOW THAT DOES NOT SEEM TO BOTHER ME AS MUCH AS IT USED TO.  I AM SURE THEY HAVE INVADED MY DADDY’S LANDLINE BUT UNTIL I CAN PROVE IT-IT IS JUST AN ASSUMPTION.   I AM GIVING MY DADDY THE RESPECT HE DESERVES AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT I HAVE GOTTEN TV SERVICE AND STILL HAVE ONLY WATCHED 2 WHOLE MOVIES SINCE GETTING MY DVR-I HAVE RECORDED 60% OF MY 2 TERRABYTES OF STORAGE- THE THING HOLDS 2000 HOURS OF PROGRAMMING AND I AM CONSTANTLY RECORDING MOVIES ON THE CHANNELS THAT I HAVE A 3 MONTH PROMOTION ON FOR LATER WHEN I DISCONTINUE THE PREMIUM CHANNELS AFTER THE FREE TIME IS DONE- USED TO DO THAT WHEN I HAD TV SERVICE YEARS AGO- WAIT FOR THE PROMOS AND RECORD THE MOVIES AND WAIT FOR THE NEXT FREEVIEW TO RECORD MORE, LITTLE TRICKS FOR GETTING THE MOST OUT OF WHAT LITTLE SERVICE I HAVE WITHOUT INTERNET CONNECTION TO DVR.  I HAD BLOCKED ALL SPORTS FROM THE DVR BUT IT LOOKS LIKE MY HACKERS HAVE ADDED THE SPORTS CHANNELS AGAIN AND THEY STOP MY SCHEDULED STUFF FROM RECORDING WHEN THE SPORTS STUFF THEY WANT TO WATCH IS ON SO VIGILANCE IS A NECESSARY PART OF MY LIFE.  YESTERDAY AT THIS LIBRARY THE PRINTING WAS JUST ABOUT IMPOSSIBLE AS I WAS WANTING TO PRINT UP THE ASCII EXTENDED TABLES AND THE HEXIDECIMAL AND BIT STUFF- I ALREADY GOT BINARY DOWN BUT THE ASCII TABLES ARE THE KEY I THINK TO DECIPHERING THE CODE I KEEP FINDING IN MY DEVICES.  YESTERDAY THE HACKERS MADE ME PEE MYSELF WHILE SLEEPING-LAST NIGHT I PREPARED FOR THAT AND ALSO DID THE PADDED CELL THING-A DIFFERENT WAY AND  LAST NIGHT THEY KEPT TURNING THE TV ON TO WAKE ME UP…IF THAT IS ALL YOU LAME HACKERS GOT IN YOUR BAG OF TRICKS- I WIN AGAIN!  I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS NOT POSSIBLE SO TO ME-ANYTHING I CAN THINK OF IS A POSSIBILITY-EVEN IF I HAVE TO INVENT WHAT I THINK UP-SOMEONE HAD TO THINK UP PROGRAMMING IN THE FIRST PLACE AFTER ALL FOR IT TO BECOME A REALITY SO WHY CAN’T I DO THE SAME THING?  PC USE AND PHONE USE IS NOT SOMETHING I HAVE HAD REGULAR ACCESS TO OR I WOULD HAVE FIGURED ALL THIS PROGRAMMING STUFF OUT LONG AGO…FOR NOW I WILL LEARN A BIT HERE AND THERE AND EVENTUALLY BE SMARTER THAN THOSE HACKING ME BUT FOR NOW I AM IN MY OWN FORM OF ELEMENTARY SCHOOL BUT UNLIKE SCHOOL-I CAN CHOOSE WHEN I FEEL LIKE LEARNING!  WELL, I HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT THE GOOD THINGS IN MY LIFE AND UPDATED MY FOLLOWERS ON MY WAY OF THINKING SO IT’S  TIME TO GO TO WALMART BEFORE I START TO DETOX FROM NOT BEING THERE FOR OVER 24 HOURS, hehehe!  JUST WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-24-17  AND AS USUAL I WELCOME ANY AND ALL COMMENTS- WHETHER GOOD, BAD OR INDIFFERENT!

SAME STUFF STILL HAPPENING CONCERNING MY CELLPHONES BEING TAKEN OVER- STRANGE TEXTS OF GIBBERISH AND I HAVE REPORTED THIS TO THE WOOD COUNTY SHERIFF DEPT. AGAIN…TODAY A NEW NUMBER CAME UP WITH A WEIRD TEXT FROM PHONE NUMBER (972)893-9585, I HAVE NOT OPENED THE TEXT.  THE PREVIEW OF THE TEXT IS THIS: srhhsa rhdni ponmn n62/07a :OP tTrel31 Tne rSie25erlT 56.T ofr el ih’e75’i o e   I HAVE JUST PRINTED UP THE EXTENDED ASCII TABLES AND WILL BE SEEING WHAT I CAN FIGURE OUT FROM OLD PHONE THAT MESSAGES OPENED UP ON BY THEMSELVES AND SEE WHAT IT MAY REVEAL.  I WILL LEARN SCRIPTING EVENTUALLY BUT I DO NOT LEARN THINGS IN THE CONVENTIONAL SENSE SO IT MAY TAKE ME A ROUND ABOUT WAY TO GET TO WHERE I NEED TO BE- ALL I KNOW FOR SURE IS THAT I AM TRYING!!~!  YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH UNLESS YOU TRY, AND AS I HAVE NO CONCEPT OF WHAT CANNOT BE DONE-TO ME EVERY SINGLE THING I CAN IMAGINE IS POSSIBLE AND I CAN IMAGINE SOME PRETTY FAR OFF THE PATH STUFF,hehehe   HECK, I MAY EVEN INVENT SOME NEW STUFF WHILE TRYING TO LEARN THE HEXIDECIMAL STUFF, I ALREADY LEARNED BINARY SO THIS HEX AND ASCII STUFF IS WHERE MY LEARNING IS HEADED NOW.    I CAN BARELY WAIT TO DECIPHER MY FIRST  HACKING THINGS…I AM LIKE A CHILD WHEN IT COMES TO LEARNING AND AM VERY INTERESTED AS TO WHAT I WILL LEARN NEXT- IT IS JUST A MATTER OF TIME AND MOTIVATION BEFORE I HAVE FIGURED THIS OUT SO TO ALL MY FAITHFUL FOLLOWERS AND THOSE WHO MEAN ME HARM, GET READY FOR SOME INTENSE SESSIONS!  THE SOUND THAT I HAVE BEEN HEARING WAS ABSENT FOR 3 WHOLE DAYS AND IT WAS SHEER LUXURY NOT TO HEAR THIS AUDIO TORTURE FOR THAT LONG- IT HAS RETURNED, THOUGH AND I AM ONCE AGAIN EXPERIMENTING WITH OFFSETTING THE SOUND WITH DIFFERENT SOUNDS, MATERIALS AND OTHER THINGS YOU NEED NOT KNOW ABOUT JUST YET BUT THIS IS A FACT- EARLY MORNING WHILE I WAS SLEEPING- I WAS NOT ONLY EATING IN MY SLEEP-BUT I PISSED MY BED.  THIS IS WSOMETHING I USUALLY PREPARE FOR BUT LAST NIGHT I WAS A BIT LAX ON MY USUAL PREPARATIONS FOR AUDIO ATTACK AND WAS DOING ONE OF MY EXPERIMENTS AND THE RESULTS ARE CLEARLY EVIDENT TO ME AS I AM NOT INCONTINENT.  ALSO WHEN I GOT OUT OF MY PADDED CELL- I GOT THE VOMIT URGE PRETTY QUICK AND HAD TO STOP MYSELF FROM GOING TO THE TOILET TO PUKE AS I HAD JUST TAKEN MY MORNING MEDICATION.  I WILL KEEP DOING MY EXPERIMENTS AND MOST OF YOU WILL NOT UNDERSTAND THE NATURE OF THEM BUT LAST NIGHT I HAD THE SOUND LEVEL IN MY PADDED ENVIRONMENT DOWN TO -20 DECIBELS!!~!  I WAS EXPERIMENTING WITH A TONE GENERATOR AND I HIT ON SOMETHING THAT TOOK THE VOLUME OF THE SOUND I AM BEING HIT WITH FROM 80+ DECIBELS DOWN TO -20 DECIBELS!  SO AT THE VERY LEAST I KNOW I AM ON THE RIGHT TRACK.  THE MAKING ME PISS MYSELF IN MY SLEEP IS MY HACKER’S WAY OF PUNISHING ME… I AM DOING VERY WELL WITH DADDY’S FERAL CAT, I CAN PICK THE ANIMAL UP AND PLACE IT IN DADDY’S LAP WITHOUT HIM GETTING KITTY CUTS FROM HIS SHARP CLAWS WHEN HE SETS DOWN, I CAN SET THE CAT IN BED WITH ME WHILE DADDY IS GONE AND THEN TAKE THE CAT AND SIT HOLDING IT NEXT TO DADDY WHILE HE IS ON HIS PC THEN TELL THE CAT I WILL PUT IT IN HIS LAP AFTER HE SITS DOWN AND THE CAT IS BEGINNING TO TRUST I WILL DO THIS!  I KNOW THE SOUND AFFECTS THE CAT.  I HAVE PROVEN IT WITH THE TONE GENERATOR.  IT HEARS THINGS PEOPLE DO NOT HEAR AND MY HEARING HAS BEEN SO DAMAGED THAT I FEEL SOUND INSTEAD OF HEARING IT- MUCH LIKE A CAT DOES.  THE CAT DOES NOT LIKE THE SOUND BUT I AM GETTING IT TRAINED TO BE ABLE TO BE PICKED UP SAFELY AND SET DOWN WITHOUT IT FREAKING OUT-EVEN WITH THE SOUND PRESENT.  MY HACKERS MAY THINK THEY ARE STILL HARMING ME BUT SINCE MY CHANGE OF ATTITUDE OCCURRED THESE THINGS THE HACKERS DO CANNOT QUELL MY SPIRITS AND THAT IS THE BEST WAY TO GET BACK AT THEM-I CAN PISS THEM OFF WITH MY BRILLIANT SMILE!  THAT IS ALL THAT IS NECESSARY-THEY SHOULD BE PRETTY PISSED AFTER SEEING ME IN THIS GREAT  MOOD DAY AFTER DAY… THIS IS NOT THERAPUTIC WRITING- BUT JUST PLAIN OLD WRITING ABOUT THINGS IN MY LIFE- I DO NOT FEEL I NEED THERAPY AT THIS TIME!  BUT IF I DO FEEL THE NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE-I KNOW MANY DIFFERENT NUMBERS TO CALL AND TALK WITH SOMEONE!  AS A FOOTNOTE-ANY CALL I MAKE TO ONE OF MY VARIOUS DOCTORS THAT THE HACKERS LISTEN IN ON VIOLATES MY HIPPA RIGHTS…JUST THOUGHT ALL OF YOU SHOULD BE AWARE OF THIS FACT.  WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-23-17 OH, FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I WAS A CHILD- I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A HOME! AND I AM SENDING A COPY OF THIS TO THE WOOD COUNTY, TEXAS SHERIFF’S DEPT.-SGT AARON WARREN, I HOPE HE READS THIS ARTICLE AND LEAVES ME A COMMENT AND MAYBE EVEN SUBSCRIBE TO MY BLOG-LIKE WINTER PARK, CO. POLICE CHIEF GLEN TRAINOR DOES…

TODAY WAS THE DAY DADDY’SCAT LET ME HOLD IT AND SAT IN MY LAP!   I AM THE LUCKY ONE HERE… AFTER DADDY LEFT TO GO TO THE DOCTOR TODAY, I GOT UP AND GOT THE CAT AND TOOK HIM TO BED WITH ME AND I WILL BE DARNED IF THAT CAT DID NOT ENJOY THIS. HE PURRED AS I RUBBED HIM AND TALKED AS CALMLY AS I COULD, TOUCHING HIS LITTLE NOSE AND RUBBING MOST EVERY PART OF THAT CAT.   THE CAT DID NOT LEAVE WHEN DADDY CAME HOME AND MADE US COOKIES, DADDY SCARED THE CAT BEDORENHE MOVED…AFTER DADDY SCARED THE CAT, IT DID NOT GO TO HIS LAP BUT SAT IN THE CHAIR UNDER THE TABLE NEAR ME. AFTER A  OUPLE HOURS I GOT UP AND APPROACHED THE CAT UNCER THE TABLE AND RUBBED IT AND ASSURED IT I WAS NOT OUT TO HURT IT AND THAT IT NEEDED TO GO SIT ON DADDY’S LAP NOW.  I HAD TO MOVE THE CHAIR OUT FROM UNDER THE TABLE SO I COULD PICK THE CAT UP CAREFULLY AND TAKE IT OVER TO DADDY AND THEN THE CAT WAS STILL WANTING TO BE NEAR ME, AT LEAST THAT IS HOW I SAW THE ACTIONS OF THE CAT WHEN DADDY GOT UP, I PICKED IT UP AND SAT IN HIS CHAIR WITH IT ON MY LAP!  SO NOW THERE IS YET ANOTHER GOOD THING THAT HAPPPENED IN JUNE WHICH IS USUALLY  ERY BAD FOR ME, I HAVE BEEN INJURED A LOT IN THE MONTH OF JUNE, I EVEN CAUGHT MY FACE ON FIRE A FEW YEARS OON MY BIRTHDAY AND SINCE I GAD THE OXYGEN TIED ON, I HAD TO PUNCH MY FACE TO TRY AND SEAL THE OXYGEN OFF FROM THE FIRE AND BROKE MY NOSE BAD DOING IT…THAT WAS ONE PAINFUL BIRTHDAY.  NOW TO THE FUNNY PART-DADDY TOLD ME THERE WAS A RACOON OUTSIDE SO I DECIDED TO INTRODUCE MYSELF TO IT, AND WENT OUTSIDE TO SEEK THE LARGE COON OUT AND GREET IT.   DAD WAS AT THE SINK WWHILE I WAS ON THE PORCH AND I HEARD THAT CHUCKLE TH COONS MAKE WHEN THEY WANT YOUR ATTENTION AND THERE WAS THE COON NOT MORE THAN FIVE FEET AWAY FROM ME AND HEADED RIGHT AT ME AND FAST TOO!  I PICKED UP ON IT’S INTENT REAL QUICK, IT WANTED IN THE COOL TRAILER AND WHEN IT CAME RUNNING AT ME TO TRY AND GET IN, I LOUDLY SAID “NO” AND POINTED MY INDEX FINGER RIGHT IN IT’S FACE AND MADE  THE MOTION TO LAY DOWN WITH MY HAND AND THE COON IMMEDIATELY STOPPED DEAD IN IT’S TRACKS AND DROPPED TO THE PORCH ON IT’S TUMMY THE  TURNED TAIL AND RAN OFF.   I TOLD DADDY ABOUT IT AND WENT OUT AND AGAIN THE COON RUSHED ME TO TRY AND GET INTO THE COOL TRAILER BUT THIS TIME I COULD TELL THE COON HAD ONLY ONE THING ON MIND…TO GET INTO THE THE HOUSE AND I LITERALLY HAD TO SLAM THE DOOR IN IT’S FACE.   I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT THE SCENE WOULD HAVE BEEN IF THE COON HAD GOTTEN INTO THE HOUSE, MY DADDY FREAKING OUT, THE FERAL CAT FREAKING OUT EVEN MORE THAN DAD OR THE COON AND ME LAUGHING AT THE WHOLE SCENE LIKE A MANIAC !!!  THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN ONE FOR THE BOOKS  INDEED…  NOW FOR THE CHERRY ON THE CAKE, I HAD MISPLACED MY CAMERA AND  IT WAS JUST HANDED TO ME BY ONE OF THE GALS THAT WORK THE STACKS!  I HAD ACCESS TO ANOTHER NEW CAMERA BUT SINCE MY PARANOIA HAS REDUCED WITH MY CHANGE OF ATTITUDE, I DID NOT THINK I NEEDED TO TAKE PICS OF CARS I THOUGHT MIGHT BE FOLLOWING ME AND I EVEN GOT A FREE TWENTY DOLLAR CREDIT ON MY DISH TV JUST FOR THE ASKING…LIFE IS GOOD NOW FOR ME AND I HOPE THAT JUST MAKES THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN HARMING ME MAD AS HELL.  EVERYTHING THEY HAVE TAKEN FROM MEI AM GETTING BACK TENFOLD AND I APPRECIATE IT MORE NOW, EXCEPT FOR THE CABLE WHICH I FINALLY SAT DOWN TO WATCH AMOVIE ON WITH A FERAL CAT IN BED WITH ME.  I HAD A MALE IN MY BED AND HE WAS A PUSSY…HAHAHAHAA BI POLAR LIFE IS EXCITING IF NOTHING ELSE…WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-13-17 

REALLY…I HAVE NOT ONLY FATHER’S DAY COMING UP BUT MY DADDY’S BIRTHDAY TOO AND THERE IS NOT ONE SINGLE THING I COULD BUY FOR THIS MAN THAT HE WOULD NEED OR ENJOY AS HE ALREADY HAS A HAPPINESS FROM HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD THAT FEW WILL EVER ACHIEVE.  MY DADDY AND I HAVE BEEN HAVING PROBLEMS LIVING TOGETHER BUT THAT ALL CHANGED AFTER CHURCH LAST SUNDAY AND EVEN HIS FERAL CAT CAN SEE THE DIFFERENCE IN MY ATTITUDE AND WILL LET ME TOUCH AND PET IT AND IF A CAT CAN TELL I HAVE A DIFFERENT ATTITUDE – I WONDER WHAT HUMANS SEE?   THE ONLY THING MY DADDY WOULD GET JOY FROM S SEEING ME HAPPY SO FOR HIS BIRTHDAY AND FATHER’S DAY THAT IS WHAT I AM GIVING MY DADDY- I WILL PUT THIS STUPID HACKING AND THE HORRIBLE ATTITUDE IT CAUSED ME TO BE IN ON A DAILY BASIS FOR YEARS BEHIND ME AND FROM THIS DAY FORWARD THERE WILL BE NO PROBLEMS WITH MY ATTITUDE FROM THE HACKING OR ANY OTHER SOURCE.  IF I GET UPSET-I WILL GO TAKE A DRIVE IN THE CAR HE GOT ME AND I WILL DO AS HE ASKS ME THE FIRST TIME WITHOUT ARGUING WITH HIM OR COPPING AN ATTITUDE.  I WILL SHOW MY DADDY THE RESPECT HE DESERVES AND BE A RESPECTFUL DAUGHTER.   TODAY DADDY ACTUALLY ASKED ME TO COVER THE OTHER WINDOW WITH MYLAR TO REDUCE COOLING COSTS AND THAT IS A GIANT STEP FORWARD RIGHT THERE! HE IS SEEING THAT SOME OF THE IDEAS I HAVE ARE GOOD INSTEAD OF REJECTING EVERYTHING BEFORE CONSIDERING THE PROS OR CONS OF THINGS.  WE ARE FINDING OUT THAT WE EAT AT DIFFERENT TIMES AND NOW INSTEAD OF BEING MAD AT ME BECAUSE IT IS TOO HOT FOR ME TO EAT OR I DO NOT LIKE WHAT HE COOKS-HE EITHER ASKS ME WHAT WE WANT FOR DINNER OR WILL COOK IT AND SET IT ASIDE SO I CAN HEAT IT UP LATER.  THESE ARE ALL POSITIVE THINGS I COULD NOT HAVE EVEN IMAGINED US FIGURING UOT LAST WEEK, HECK-HE EVEN LET ME COOK HIM CHICKEN FRIED STEAK ONE NIGHT AND ATE IT!!!  HE DID NOT LIKE THE MASHED POTATOES AND WHITE GRAVY BUT HE DID EAT ALL THE CHICKEN FRIED STEAK FINGERS I PUT ON HIS PLATE!  I GOT TO DRINK MILK WITH REAL ICE CUBES IN IT AND I HAVE NOT HAD THAT IN YEARS…SO MUCH GOOD STUFF IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE LATELY THAT I AM KIND OF IN SHOCK.  I DID NOT REMEMBER WHAT BEING HAPPY WAS AND PEOPLE AT THE WALMART I HAVE GROWN TO LOVE GOING TO MOST EVERY DAY ARE THE ONES POINTING THIS OUT TO ME AS I SKIP AND WALTZ THROUGH THE STORE!  TWICE WOMEN HAVE SAID TO ME THAT I SOUND HAPPY AND THE FIRST TIME I HAD TO STOP AND THINK ABOUT IT AND THEN I REALIZED SHE WAS RIGHT-I AM HAPPY NOW!   CAN YOU IMAGINE BEING MISERABLE FOR SO LONG THAT YOU FORGOT WHAT BEING HAPPY WAS LIKE TO THE POINT THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAD TO POINT IT OUT TO YOU?  SO THIS ARTICLE IS MY COMBINATION BIRTHDAY AND FATHER’S DAY PRESENT TO MY DADDY WHO IS SHOWING ME WHAT FAMILY REALLY IS LIKE AND THE THINGS THEY ARE WILLING TO GO THROUGH FOR ONE OF THEIR OWN.  THIS IS SOMETHING NEW TO ME-FAMILY- AND I AM FINDING THAT IT REALLY IS BETTER THAN I COULD HAVE IMAGINED JUST LAST WEEK!  SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND FATHER’S DAY, DADDY!  I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FERAL CAT BOTH AND AM SO HAPPY THAT YOU PUT UP WITH YOUR BI-POLAR DAUGHTER AND HER HORRIBLE ATTITUDES SHE HAS BEEN GOING THROUGH.  THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER EVERY SINGLE DAY AND WILL CONTINUE TO IMPROVE BECAUSE I WILL KEEP MY MIND RIGHT AS MY GIFT TO YOU!  I LOVE YOU MORE EVERY DAY AND I NOTICE THE LITTLE THINGS THAT YOU PUT UP WITH EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU DO NOT LIKE THEM.  I AM GETTING BETTER EVERY DAY, MENTALLY, AND EVEN A FRIGGIN FERAL CAT CAN TELL I HAVE HAD A CHANGE OF ATTITUDE!  I AM SURE WE WILL HAVE ONE HECK OF A GREAT LIFE TOGETHER FROM NOW ON AND IF THINGS GET ROUGH- WE CAN TALK THEM THROUGH INSTEAD OF ME COPPING AN ATTITUDE AND MAKING YOU FEEL BAD LIKE I WAS WHEN I FIRST GOT HERE. SO THIS IS NOT THERAPUTIC WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-10-17-THIS IS MY GIFT TO MY DADDY FOR HIS BIRTHDAY AND FOR FATHER’S DAY!  

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