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TODAY WAS THE DAY DADDY’SCAT LET ME HOLD IT AND SAT IN MY LAP!   I AM THE LUCKY ONE HERE… AFTER DADDY LEFT TO GO TO THE DOCTOR TODAY, I GOT UP AND GOT THE CAT AND TOOK HIM TO BED WITH ME AND I WILL BE DARNED IF THAT CAT DID NOT ENJOY THIS. HE PURRED AS I RUBBED HIM AND TALKED AS CALMLY AS I COULD, TOUCHING HIS LITTLE NOSE AND RUBBING MOST EVERY PART OF THAT CAT.   THE CAT DID NOT LEAVE WHEN DADDY CAME HOME AND MADE US COOKIES, DADDY SCARED THE CAT BEDORENHE MOVED…AFTER DADDY SCARED THE CAT, IT DID NOT GO TO HIS LAP BUT SAT IN THE CHAIR UNDER THE TABLE NEAR ME. AFTER A  OUPLE HOURS I GOT UP AND APPROACHED THE CAT UNCER THE TABLE AND RUBBED IT AND ASSURED IT I WAS NOT OUT TO HURT IT AND THAT IT NEEDED TO GO SIT ON DADDY’S LAP NOW.  I HAD TO MOVE THE CHAIR OUT FROM UNDER THE TABLE SO I COULD PICK THE CAT UP CAREFULLY AND TAKE IT OVER TO DADDY AND THEN THE CAT WAS STILL WANTING TO BE NEAR ME, AT LEAST THAT IS HOW I SAW THE ACTIONS OF THE CAT WHEN DADDY GOT UP, I PICKED IT UP AND SAT IN HIS CHAIR WITH IT ON MY LAP!  SO NOW THERE IS YET ANOTHER GOOD THING THAT HAPPPENED IN JUNE WHICH IS USUALLY  ERY BAD FOR ME, I HAVE BEEN INJURED A LOT IN THE MONTH OF JUNE, I EVEN CAUGHT MY FACE ON FIRE A FEW YEARS OON MY BIRTHDAY AND SINCE I GAD THE OXYGEN TIED ON, I HAD TO PUNCH MY FACE TO TRY AND SEAL THE OXYGEN OFF FROM THE FIRE AND BROKE MY NOSE BAD DOING IT…THAT WAS ONE PAINFUL BIRTHDAY.  NOW TO THE FUNNY PART-DADDY TOLD ME THERE WAS A RACOON OUTSIDE SO I DECIDED TO INTRODUCE MYSELF TO IT, AND WENT OUTSIDE TO SEEK THE LARGE COON OUT AND GREET IT.   DAD WAS AT THE SINK WWHILE I WAS ON THE PORCH AND I HEARD THAT CHUCKLE TH COONS MAKE WHEN THEY WANT YOUR ATTENTION AND THERE WAS THE COON NOT MORE THAN FIVE FEET AWAY FROM ME AND HEADED RIGHT AT ME AND FAST TOO!  I PICKED UP ON IT’S INTENT REAL QUICK, IT WANTED IN THE COOL TRAILER AND WHEN IT CAME RUNNING AT ME TO TRY AND GET IN, I LOUDLY SAID “NO” AND POINTED MY INDEX FINGER RIGHT IN IT’S FACE AND MADE  THE MOTION TO LAY DOWN WITH MY HAND AND THE COON IMMEDIATELY STOPPED DEAD IN IT’S TRACKS AND DROPPED TO THE PORCH ON IT’S TUMMY THE  TURNED TAIL AND RAN OFF.   I TOLD DADDY ABOUT IT AND WENT OUT AND AGAIN THE COON RUSHED ME TO TRY AND GET INTO THE COOL TRAILER BUT THIS TIME I COULD TELL THE COON HAD ONLY ONE THING ON MIND…TO GET INTO THE THE HOUSE AND I LITERALLY HAD TO SLAM THE DOOR IN IT’S FACE.   I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT THE SCENE WOULD HAVE BEEN IF THE COON HAD GOTTEN INTO THE HOUSE, MY DADDY FREAKING OUT, THE FERAL CAT FREAKING OUT EVEN MORE THAN DAD OR THE COON AND ME LAUGHING AT THE WHOLE SCENE LIKE A MANIAC !!!  THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN ONE FOR THE BOOKS  INDEED…  NOW FOR THE CHERRY ON THE CAKE, I HAD MISPLACED MY CAMERA AND  IT WAS JUST HANDED TO ME BY ONE OF THE GALS THAT WORK THE STACKS!  I HAD ACCESS TO ANOTHER NEW CAMERA BUT SINCE MY PARANOIA HAS REDUCED WITH MY CHANGE OF ATTITUDE, I DID NOT THINK I NEEDED TO TAKE PICS OF CARS I THOUGHT MIGHT BE FOLLOWING ME AND I EVEN GOT A FREE TWENTY DOLLAR CREDIT ON MY DISH TV JUST FOR THE ASKING…LIFE IS GOOD NOW FOR ME AND I HOPE THAT JUST MAKES THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN HARMING ME MAD AS HELL.  EVERYTHING THEY HAVE TAKEN FROM MEI AM GETTING BACK TENFOLD AND I APPRECIATE IT MORE NOW, EXCEPT FOR THE CABLE WHICH I FINALLY SAT DOWN TO WATCH AMOVIE ON WITH A FERAL CAT IN BED WITH ME.  I HAD A MALE IN MY BED AND HE WAS A PUSSY…HAHAHAHAA BI POLAR LIFE IS EXCITING IF NOTHING ELSE…WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-13-17 

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REALLY…I HAVE NOT ONLY FATHER’S DAY COMING UP BUT MY DADDY’S BIRTHDAY TOO AND THERE IS NOT ONE SINGLE THING I COULD BUY FOR THIS MAN THAT HE WOULD NEED OR ENJOY AS HE ALREADY HAS A HAPPINESS FROM HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD THAT FEW WILL EVER ACHIEVE.  MY DADDY AND I HAVE BEEN HAVING PROBLEMS LIVING TOGETHER BUT THAT ALL CHANGED AFTER CHURCH LAST SUNDAY AND EVEN HIS FERAL CAT CAN SEE THE DIFFERENCE IN MY ATTITUDE AND WILL LET ME TOUCH AND PET IT AND IF A CAT CAN TELL I HAVE A DIFFERENT ATTITUDE – I WONDER WHAT HUMANS SEE?   THE ONLY THING MY DADDY WOULD GET JOY FROM S SEEING ME HAPPY SO FOR HIS BIRTHDAY AND FATHER’S DAY THAT IS WHAT I AM GIVING MY DADDY- I WILL PUT THIS STUPID HACKING AND THE HORRIBLE ATTITUDE IT CAUSED ME TO BE IN ON A DAILY BASIS FOR YEARS BEHIND ME AND FROM THIS DAY FORWARD THERE WILL BE NO PROBLEMS WITH MY ATTITUDE FROM THE HACKING OR ANY OTHER SOURCE.  IF I GET UPSET-I WILL GO TAKE A DRIVE IN THE CAR HE GOT ME AND I WILL DO AS HE ASKS ME THE FIRST TIME WITHOUT ARGUING WITH HIM OR COPPING AN ATTITUDE.  I WILL SHOW MY DADDY THE RESPECT HE DESERVES AND BE A RESPECTFUL DAUGHTER.   TODAY DADDY ACTUALLY ASKED ME TO COVER THE OTHER WINDOW WITH MYLAR TO REDUCE COOLING COSTS AND THAT IS A GIANT STEP FORWARD RIGHT THERE! HE IS SEEING THAT SOME OF THE IDEAS I HAVE ARE GOOD INSTEAD OF REJECTING EVERYTHING BEFORE CONSIDERING THE PROS OR CONS OF THINGS.  WE ARE FINDING OUT THAT WE EAT AT DIFFERENT TIMES AND NOW INSTEAD OF BEING MAD AT ME BECAUSE IT IS TOO HOT FOR ME TO EAT OR I DO NOT LIKE WHAT HE COOKS-HE EITHER ASKS ME WHAT WE WANT FOR DINNER OR WILL COOK IT AND SET IT ASIDE SO I CAN HEAT IT UP LATER.  THESE ARE ALL POSITIVE THINGS I COULD NOT HAVE EVEN IMAGINED US FIGURING UOT LAST WEEK, HECK-HE EVEN LET ME COOK HIM CHICKEN FRIED STEAK ONE NIGHT AND ATE IT!!!  HE DID NOT LIKE THE MASHED POTATOES AND WHITE GRAVY BUT HE DID EAT ALL THE CHICKEN FRIED STEAK FINGERS I PUT ON HIS PLATE!  I GOT TO DRINK MILK WITH REAL ICE CUBES IN IT AND I HAVE NOT HAD THAT IN YEARS…SO MUCH GOOD STUFF IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE LATELY THAT I AM KIND OF IN SHOCK.  I DID NOT REMEMBER WHAT BEING HAPPY WAS AND PEOPLE AT THE WALMART I HAVE GROWN TO LOVE GOING TO MOST EVERY DAY ARE THE ONES POINTING THIS OUT TO ME AS I SKIP AND WALTZ THROUGH THE STORE!  TWICE WOMEN HAVE SAID TO ME THAT I SOUND HAPPY AND THE FIRST TIME I HAD TO STOP AND THINK ABOUT IT AND THEN I REALIZED SHE WAS RIGHT-I AM HAPPY NOW!   CAN YOU IMAGINE BEING MISERABLE FOR SO LONG THAT YOU FORGOT WHAT BEING HAPPY WAS LIKE TO THE POINT THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAD TO POINT IT OUT TO YOU?  SO THIS ARTICLE IS MY COMBINATION BIRTHDAY AND FATHER’S DAY PRESENT TO MY DADDY WHO IS SHOWING ME WHAT FAMILY REALLY IS LIKE AND THE THINGS THEY ARE WILLING TO GO THROUGH FOR ONE OF THEIR OWN.  THIS IS SOMETHING NEW TO ME-FAMILY- AND I AM FINDING THAT IT REALLY IS BETTER THAN I COULD HAVE IMAGINED JUST LAST WEEK!  SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND FATHER’S DAY, DADDY!  I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FERAL CAT BOTH AND AM SO HAPPY THAT YOU PUT UP WITH YOUR BI-POLAR DAUGHTER AND HER HORRIBLE ATTITUDES SHE HAS BEEN GOING THROUGH.  THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER EVERY SINGLE DAY AND WILL CONTINUE TO IMPROVE BECAUSE I WILL KEEP MY MIND RIGHT AS MY GIFT TO YOU!  I LOVE YOU MORE EVERY DAY AND I NOTICE THE LITTLE THINGS THAT YOU PUT UP WITH EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU DO NOT LIKE THEM.  I AM GETTING BETTER EVERY DAY, MENTALLY, AND EVEN A FRIGGIN FERAL CAT CAN TELL I HAVE HAD A CHANGE OF ATTITUDE!  I AM SURE WE WILL HAVE ONE HECK OF A GREAT LIFE TOGETHER FROM NOW ON AND IF THINGS GET ROUGH- WE CAN TALK THEM THROUGH INSTEAD OF ME COPPING AN ATTITUDE AND MAKING YOU FEEL BAD LIKE I WAS WHEN I FIRST GOT HERE. SO THIS IS NOT THERAPUTIC WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-10-17-THIS IS MY GIFT TO MY DADDY FOR HIS BIRTHDAY AND FOR FATHER’S DAY!  

I CAN JUST SAY “NO” TO ANYTHING…EVEN TV!  I HAVE NOT SEEN TV IN YEARS BUT I AM STILL NOT STUCK TO THE NEW TV MY DADDY JUST GOT FOR ME.  I WOULD RATHER SIT NEXT TO DADDY AND SPEND QUALITY TIME WITH HIM AND HIS CAT… TIHE CAT LETS ME PET IT LONGER EVERY DAY AS LONG AS IT IS IN DADDY’S LAP, BUT STILL I GET THE SHAKES AND AM NERVOUS AND THE CAT CAN FEEL THAT, IT WILL ACTUALLY GET UP AND REPOSITION ITSELF SO IT CAN SEE WHO IS REALLY PETTING IT!  THE CAT SHOULD BE IN HEAVEN WITH TWO  PEOPLE LOVING ON IT I GAVE IT A KITTY FOOTRUB AND IT WAS STRECHING OUT THE TOES AND EVEN LETTING ME RUB ITS BELLY!   IF THE LITTLE ANIMAL ONLY KNEW HOW MUCH JOY I GET TOUCHING IT, MAYBE IT WOULD UNDERSTAND WHY I GET THE SHAKES WHEN I GET TO PET IT.   I HAVE HAD NOTHING IN MY LIFE FOR YEARS TO PET AND I HAVE SOOOO MUCH LOVE TO GIVE, I JUST HAVE NO ONE TO GIVE IT TO.  MAYBE SOON I WILL BE ABLE TO FIND A FRIEND OUT HERE..ALL PEOPLE DO HERE IS GO TO WALMART AND MOW THE GRASS ON THESE RIDING LAWNMOWING TRACTORS THAT I CAN  ARELY WAIT TO PLAY ON, I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED DRIVING SO A LAWNMOWER WILL BE FUN TO ME TO RIDE!  THE GUY AT THE WALMART CHECKED MY RECEIPTS AT THE DOOR LIKE I WOULD EVEN THINK OF STEALIING FROM WALMARRT AFTER BEING FREAKED OUT BY THE THEFT AGENT AT THE FRISCO , COLORADO WALMART INCIDENT WHERE THE THEFT AGENT KEPT STARING AT ME WHILE USING THE PHONE AT THE ELECTRONICS DEPT. TO CALL ASURION ABOUT THAT PC I BOUGHT THAT CAME WITH A VPN CONFIGURATION ON IT WHEN IT WAS OPENED UP IN THE STORE TO CHECK SPECIFICALLY FOR A VPN CONFIGURATION.   THE THEFT AGENT THREATENED ME WITH GETTING KICKED OUT OF THE STORE IF I TOLD ANYONE HE WAS THE THEFT PREVENTION GUY…AND THAT DID HAPPEN AS I HAD TRIED TO APOGIZE TO HIM FOR HIM FREAKING ME OUT TWO DIFFERENT DAYS BY STARING AT ME OVER TWO HOURS WHILE I WAS USING THE PHONE, THAT IS WHAT I GOT FOR TRYING TO APOGIZE FOR HIM FREAKING ME OUT.   THREATS AND THEN POLICE CALLED AND OF COURSE THE PUBLIC EMBARRASSMENT OF BEING HELD AT THE FRONT ENTRANCE WHILE COPS WERE CALLED WHEN I TOOK A PIC OF THE CREEP TO INCLUDE WITH A COMPLAINT ABOUT HIS THREAT.  DO NOT WORRY AS I GOT HIM BACK THE OLD SCHOOL WAY BY TELLING ALL ABOUT THE GUY BEING A THEFT AGENT AND POSTED HIS PIC ALLL AROUND SO THE SPICS COULD KNOW WHO TO DISTRACT SO THEY COULD STEAL WHATEVER THEY WANTED…I EVEN WROTE AN ARTICLE HERE ON WORDPRESS ABOUT IT, IT IS A GOOD READ, YOU WOULD GET A GOOD LAUGH IF YOU READ IT BUT I DOUBT HE THOUGHT IT WAS AS FUNNY AS I DID AFTER FINDING PICTURES OF HIMSELF AT BUS STOPS AND ON THE POLES OF CROSSWALKS AROUND THE STORE!   NO WALMART WITHIN 100 MILES FOR YEARS WHEN LIVING IN GRAND COUNTY, COLORADO THEN WHEN I WENT TO SUMMIT COUNTY THAT TREATMENT???? BEING ALLOWED IN A WALMART AFTER NO WALMART FOR YEARS AND YEARS IS A TRIP AND I BOUGHT EVERY FLASHLIGHT OF THIS ONE KIND THEY HAD BUT THE RECEIPT FOR THE FOOD I GOT WITH MY EBT CARD WAS NOT COMPLETE SO AFTER WE WENT BACK AND TALKED TO THE GAL AT THE REGISTER I HAD TO PULL OUT THE IPAD AND SHOW THE GUY A PICTURE OF THE LETTER WRITTEN ABOUT MY VERACITY BY MY FORMER NURSE MAUREEN WENGER OF GRAND COUNTY NURSING…AT LEAST NOW HE KNOWS A BIT MORE ABOUT THE GAL WITH THE GREAT BIG SMILE AND A DIFFERENT DRESS EVERY DAY!   I AM GETTING READY TO GO  AND SPEND A BIT OF QUALITY KITTY TIME AFTER I BUILD UP SOME POINTS ON MY GAMES WITH THE INTERNET CONNECTION I CAN USE WHILE SITTING IN THE CAR WITH  THE STERO BLASTING THE TOP 40 POP MUSIC I HAVE GROWN TO LOVE.  THIS IS JUST WRITING  BY THE AMAZING ONE AND ONLY KARIN WRAPE-ACCEPT NO CHEAP IMITATIONS…6-9-17 NO THERAPY NEEDED TODAY! HERE IS A PICTURE OF ME WITH A SMILE TO INFURIATE ALL THOSE TRYING THEIR BEST TO MAKE ME MISERABLE, GOTTA BE DRIVING THEM INSANE SEEING ME WITH THAT SH*T EATING GRIN I USED TO BE SO FAMOUS FOR, DAMN I AM ONE SADISTIC CHICK AND THE ONLY THING NEEDED TO TORTURE OTHERS IS A SMILE…

 

MOST PEOPLE COULD NOT IMAGINE A LIFE WITH NO TV OR CELLPHONE OR RADIO BUT THAT HAS BEEN MY LIFE SINCE I CAUGHT THAT RANK HACKING BY MICHAEL SHURER AND HIS HACKERS FROM HIS AUDIO AND VIDEO BUSINESS IN 2013.  I GAVE UP EVERY SINGLE ELECTRONIC DEVICE ONE BY ONE TRYING TO ISOLATE MYSELF FROM THE INVASIONS TO THE POINT THAT I HAD NO SERVICES OF ANY KIND…MY IPAD IS NOW GOOD FOR NOTHING BUT PLAYING STUPID GAMES AND I USE IT AS A DECIBEL METER WITH ONE OF THE APPS FOR IDENTIFYING ‘NOISE’.   AFTER MY CHURCH EXPERIENCE WHEN I WENT BACK INSIDE AND ASKED FOR PRAYER OR HELP OF SOME KIND-I WENT TO THE MINEOLA LIBRARY AND CONNECTED MY IPAD TO THEIR INTERNET AND THE IPAD WAS AGAIN DESTROYED AS THE PREVIOUS 5 HAVE BEEN.  I DID NOT LET IT BOTHER ME BUT JUST TOOK A SCREENSHOT OF THE CORRUPTED HARD DRIVE THING TELLING ME I WAS BEING LOCKED OUT AND PLAYED SOME GAMES.  IT IS JUST A THING, AFTER ALL… BACK TO THE SUBJECT OF THE DAY-I NO LONGER AM GOING TO DENY MYSELF SERVICES FOR ENTERTAINMENT JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE GONNA BE HACKED INTO.  THE DAY THE INSTALLER CAME OUT-I SAW ON THE DVR THAT THE HARD DRIVE WAS CORRUPTED AND WOULD BE WIPED.  LAST WEEK THIS WOULD HAVE DRIVEN ME OVER THE EDGE BUT I WAS ABLE TO JUST BLOW IT OFF- MY ATTITUDE IS DIFFERENT- I CAN’T SAY FOR SURE IF THE PRAYER AND LAYING ON OF HANDS IS THE CAUSE OF THE CHANGE IN MY MENTAL STATE-BUT IT CANNOT BE DISCOUNTED…PSYCHOSOMATIC CONDITIONS COULD DEFINITELY BE A CONTRIBUTING FACTOR BUT I ALSO THINK THAT MY WILL TO LIVE A BETTER WAY IS PART OF THE CHANGE AS WELL.  WHO DO YOU KNOW WHO CAN DROP ANY BAD HABIT BY STRENGTH OF WILL ALONE?  ME -I AM THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE EVER MET WHO CAN DO THIS WITH SO MANY DIFFERENT HABITS-FROM STOPPING SMOKING TO SHOOTING UP DOPE- I JUST MADE UP MY MIND AND QUIT.   MY FATHER IS QUITE PLEASED WITH THE CHANGE TO THE POSITIVE AND EVEN HIS CAT HAS NOTICED I AM SOMEHOW DIFFERENT AND I CAN NOW SPEND QUALITY TIME PETTING MY DADDY’S FERAL CAT WHILE IT SITS ON HIS LAP- THE FIRST TIME IT LET ME PET IT, IT TURNED AROUND TO SEE WHO WAS ACTUALLY TOUCHING IT AND I WAS IN TEARS FROM BEING ABLE TO FINALLY PET THE ANIMAL!  I SEEM TO CRY QUITE A BIT LATELY-BUT NOT BECAUSE I AM UNHAPPY…EVEN THOUGH I NOW HAVE TV SERVICE- I PREFER TO SIT NEXT TO MY DADDY JUST SO I CAN PET HIS BABY.  I HAVE GONE WITHOUT TV SO LONG IT IS NOT LIKE I AM MISSING OUT ON MORE OF ANYTHING- I CAN WATCH IT WHEN I WANT AND FOR NOW I CHOOSE TO SIT NEXT TO DADDY AND SPEND QUALITY TIME WITH HIM AND HIS CAT!  I CAN EVEN CONTROL THE DVR FROM THE CHAIR TO PROGRAM IT LIKE I DID YESTERDAY.   MY DADDY EVEN MADE A POINT OF SAYING THAT I JUST GOT TV AND AM NOT EVEN WATCHING IT,hehehe PRIORITIES HAVE CHANGED FOR ME SINCE SUNDAY AND I REFUSE TO LET THIS HACKING KEEP ME FROM ALL THE GOOD THINGS IN LIFE OTHER PEOPLE GET- EVEN WHEN THE DVR WAS BEING INSTALLED AND THE DEVICE SAID THE HARD DRIVE HAD BEEN CORRUPTED AND WOULD NEED TO BE REPLACED I DID NOT FREAK OUT-I HAD KIND OF EXPECTED THAT TO HAPPEN JUST AS SOON AS I PUT PARENTAL CONTROL PASSWORD ON IT AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED AND SINCE I HAVE NOT HAD TV FOR YEARS-ONE MORE DAY WITHOUT IT TIL A NEW DVR WAS INSTALLED DID NOT BOTHER ME.   I HAVE MADE UP MY MIND TO HAVE A HAPPY LIFE AND NOT A CRAPPY ONE ANYMORE.  I MAY LIVE OFF $5900 A YEAR BUT THAT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR SOMEONE AS THRIFTY AS I AM.  SO EVEN THOUGH MY LATEST CELLPHONE HAS BEEN TAKEN OVER BY NUANCE COMMUNICATIONS, I REALLY DON’T GIVE A DARN.  I ONLY NEED A CELLPHONE FOR EMERGENCY USE.  AND OF COURSE, IT IS JUST ANOTHER ‘THING’…I COULD NOT HAVE MADE LIFE DECISIONS LAST WEEK BUT THIS WEEK SINCE GETTING SOME REAL SLEEP-I AM ABLE TO DO THIS  AND HAVE BEGAN THE TRIP BACK TO LIVING A GOOD LIFE WITH ALL THE STUFF OTHER PEOPLE GET.  I AM POSITIVE THAT ANY THING I COULD DESIRE OR NEED WILL COME.   MUST BE DRIVING THOSE HACKING ME FRIGGIN NUTS TO SEE ME SMILING AGAIN AFTER THE YEARS OF TORTURE AND DEPRIVATION THEY HAVE DONE ME!  AND THIS IS JUST THIS WEEK…I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT NEXZT WEK HOLDS GOOD FOR ME AND MY DADDY AND HIS PSYCHOTIC CAT!  EITHER WAY-EVEN THE CONTINUED HACKING OF MY THINGS IS NOT GOING TO DRAG ME BACK DOWN AGAIN.  I NOW REALIZE WHAT A FOOL I WAS FOR LETTING THESE HACKERS DESTROY MY HAPPINESS.  I CAN STILL LEARN ALL I CAN IN MY EFFORTS TO STOP IT BUT NOW I AM NOT GOING TO LET IT BE A SOURCE OF ANGER.  I CAN LEARN BETTER WITH A POSITIVE OUTLOOK.  SO FOR NOW I JUST WANTED ALL TO KNOW THAT THE TORTURE HAS ENDED AND MY WAY OF THINKING IS DIFFERENT AND ALL CAN SEE IT – EVEN A FERAL CAT CAN TELL MY ATTITUDE IS DIFFERENT-ENOUGH TO LET ME TOUCH IT!!! THIS IS NOT THERAPUTIC WRITING TODAY-IT IS ME LETTING THE WORLD KNOW THAT I AM IN CONTROL OF MY STATE OF MIND- NOT MY HACKERS-THEY MAY CONTROL MY DEVICES BUT THEY WILL NO LONGER MAKE ME MISERABLE DOING IT.  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THAT IS THE BEST WAY TO HURT SOMEONE TRYING TO CAUSE YOU HARM- DON’T LET THEM…NOW THAT I HAVE SEEN  MY FIRST TOMATO STARTING TO GROW ON MY 3 TOMATO PLANTS, I AM HAPPY- I HAVE SEEN THINGS SINCE COMING BACK TO TEXAS THAT I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER SEE AGAIN-LIGHTING BUGS!!!! I WAS ACTUALLY THINKING THAT I COULD FIND SOMEPLACE THEY WERE STILL LIVING AND CATCH AND RE-INTRODUCE THEM TO THIS PLACE BUT THEY ARE ALREADY HERE! I SAW A LYNX WILDCAT THE OTHER DAY- A WHITE EGRET, A FROG AND EVEN THE BUGS DO NOT BUG ME-I THINK MY SKIN PUTS OUT A SMELL FROM MY ILLNESSES THAT REPELS EVEN FIRE ANTS!  THEY WILL CLIMB ON MY FEET BUT CURL UP IN A BALL INSTEAD OF BITING ME LIKE THEY USED TO DO – MOSQUITOES DO NOT BITE ME EITHER…GUESS THIS DEATH THING AIN’T SO BAD AFTER ALL… SO I SHALL END MY WRITING FOR NOW AS IT IS AFTER 4 PM AND I WANT TO SPEND SOME MORE QUALITY TIME WITH MY DADDY AND HIS CAT BEFORE HE GOES TO BED.WRITING DONE 6-8-17 BY THE GAL WITH THE NEW OUTLOOK ON LIFE, RELIGION AND FAMILY, THE ONE AND ONLY AMAZING KARIN WRAPE…

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I HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS BEFORE BUT I KNOW THERE ARE TWO DIFFERENT OPERATING SYSTEMS ON THIS DEVICE.  FUNNY IT SHOULD POP UP TODAY AS I JUST FOUND OUT THE SOUND I AM BEING TOTRURED TO DEATH WITH CAN BE CANCELLED OUT BY -60db.   I JUST FOUND THIS RELIEF LAST NIGHT BUT DID NOT USE THE SOUND MASKING APP THE WHOLE NIGHT, JUST LONG ENOUGH TO TAKE OVER TO MY COUSIN’S AND LET THEM HEAR THE SOUND THAT I FEEL VIBRATING MY JAWBONE UP TO THE POINT THAT MY JAW WAS WIRED TOGETHER AFTER BEING BROKEN WHEN I WAS 18… THE ADDRESS IN THE ADDRESS BAR WAS THIS- frifitox.win- I HAVE NEVER SEEN THIS BEFORE BUT I TOOK SCREENSHOTS OF IT AND DID NOT CLOSE THE WINDOW.  THE SOUND IN THE CAR IS HARDLY BAREABLE RIGHT NOW.  I AM AFRAID TO TRY AND OPEN A DECIBEL APP BUT I WAS GETTING READINGS ON SEVERAL OF THESE DECIBEL METERS OF OVER ONE HUNDRED DECIBELS WITH CAR PARKED AND MOTOR OFF AND TOTAL SILENCE OUTSIDE…  I HAVE FOUND A WAY TO MASK THE SOUND AT MINUS SIXTY DECIBELS.   I DO NOT KNOW THE MATH BUT I FEEL THREE SEPARATE SOUNDS WITHIN THE AUDIO NOISE.   NOISE IS DEFINED AS UNWANTED SOUND.  I THINK IF I PUT MYSELF IN THE MIDDLE OF THREE NOISES THAT ARE HIGHER IN DECIBELS THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO CANCEL IT OUT.  ONE SOUND DID NOT DO IT AND MY EPIPHANY CAME WHEN MY AUNT MARTHA GAVE ME A HORRIBLY LOUD FAN THAT PRODUCED OVER 100db AND THE PINK NOISE ON THE WHITE NOISE GENERATING APP.  I MADE MYSELF A PADDED CELL TO SLEEP IN AND IT HAS DRASTICALLY REDUCED THE NOISE FROM THAT COMPARABLE TO A GARBAGE DISPOSAL TO A QUIET CONVERSATION IN A RESTAURANT JUST WITH THE FAN AND ONE SOUND GENERATING APP.  I USED VERY LOUD SOUNDS TO REDUCE THE DECIBEL LEVEL IN A SMALL PADDED AREA.  THAT IS TANTAMOUNT TO USING TWO KINDS OF FIRE TO CREATE ICE.   I TOLD YOU PEOPLE I WOULD FIGURE OUT SOME WAY TO BLOCK THIS NOISE, I CANNOT HARDLY BELIEVE THAT MORE NOISE COULD REDUCE THE SOUND IN MY ENVIRONMENT BUT I HAVE PROVED IT TO MYSELF.   MOST THINGS IN YOUR HOME OPERATE AT 60 DECIBELS, MICROWAVES, PHONES AND OTHER ELECTRONICS SO NOW THIS MAKES PERFECT SENSE TO ME, I JUST HAVE TO UTILIZE THREE VERY LOUD SOUNDS TO CANCEL OUT WHATEVER IS BEING RANSMITTED AT ME.  I AM READING ABOUT VOICE TO SKULL TRANSMISSIONS AND AM ACTUAL WITNESS TO THINGS THAT PRODUCE VIBRATION OF BONE.  YOU CAN CALL ME CRAZY IF YOU WANT BUT I AM NOT NUTS, I AMA PERSON WHO IS BEING DELIBERATELY TORTURED BY A NOISE I HAVE BEEN DOCUMENTING FOR YEARS.  I AM MORE THAN HAPPY TO LET ANYONE SEE THESE LOGBOOKS.  TODAY AFTER CHURCH WAS OVER AND MY FAMILY LEFT I WENT BACK INSIDE AND ASKED FOR PRAYER.   I TRIED TO EXPLAIN MY SITUATION AS SIMPLY AS POSSIBLE AND WHEN THESE PEOPLE LAID HANDS ON ME AND PRAYED FOR MY RELIEF FROM THE DEMON IN ME, I FELL TO MY KNEES IN TEARS AND WAS IMMEDIATELY VERY TIRED.  SOMETHING INSIDE ME FELT DIFFERENT.  I DO NOT KNOW IF IT WAS JUST SOMEONE LISTENING TO ME WITHOUT CALLING ME CRAZY OR IF THE HOLY SPIRIT TOOK CONTROL OF MY MIND OR SOME OTHER THING I CANNOT PUT A NAME TO BUT THE SENSE OF BEING TIRED ENOUGH TO FALL ASLEEP RIGHT THERE ON THE FLOOR OF THE CHURCH WAS VERY REAL.   DOUBT GOD ALL YOU WANT BUT ME, I BELIEVE IN GOD WITH ALL MY HEART JUST AS I BELIEVE IN SATAN AND DEMONS AS I HAVE MET THE DEVIL AND HIS CREATURES MANY TIMES.  IF YOU STILL THINK I AM CRAZY, I PUT ONE MORE THING BEFORE YOU TO CONSIDER…MY DAD HAS A FERAL CAT AND THE LAST TWO NIGHTS IT HAS BEEN ATTACKING HIS FEET WHILE HE HAS BEEN SLEEPING.  IT WAS TWO DAYS AGO I FOUND THESE APPS.   THE CAT IS SCARED TO DEATH OF THE JACKSON GALAXY CAT TOYS MY FORMER FRIEND INCLUDED IN A PACKAGE SHE SENT ME.  I TRIED TO JUST LAY THE THINGS ON THE FLOOR BUT THE CAT WAS SO AFRAID OF THEM IT WOULD YOWL AND NOT COME DOWN THE HALL UNTIL MY DAD REMOVED THEM.   THE CAT HAS GOTTEN SO SCARED THAT MY DAD TOLD ME THE CAT BOLTED AND HIT THE WALL OF THE HALL AT FULL SPEED AND I AM ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE IT IS BECAUSE OF THE SOUND THAT I AM BEING KEPT AWAKE BY.  I AM GOING TO TRY TO CONTACT THIS JACKSON GALAXY GUY AS THE CAT IS SCARED OF HIS TRADEMARKED PRODUCTS AND AS HE IS KNOWN TO FIX CATS OTHERS WOULD HAVE PUT DOWN, I AM IN HOPE THAT HE WILL TAKE AN INTEREST IN THIS SITUATION AS IT IS SO FAR FROM NORMAL I DOUBT THE CAT WILL SURVIVE IF THIS IS NOT CORRECTED AND RIGHT FAST.  I WOULD LOVE TO PET THIS ANIMAL AND LET IT KNOW I AM BEING HURT TOO BUT I CAN BARELY SIT NEXT TO MY DAD WITHOUT THE CAT BOLTING.   THERAPUTIC WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-4-17 

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  1. the ipad just did some crazy split screen thing where the typw was at a diagonal…i have never seen this before.

this happened on sunday right after church connected to the mineola public library internet…so my expensive ipad is now nothing but a decibel meter and a thing to play bejewelled onE A

YESTERDAY WAS A GREAT DAY!  AFTER ONCE AGAIN BEING RELEASED INTO THE WILD BY MIND SPRINGS MENTAL HEALTH, I WENT TO THE SENIOR CENTER IN FRICO, COLORADO TO PLAY DOMINOES…I REALLY LIKE BEING WITH THESE PEOPLE-I DO NOT FEEL THREATENED AND THEY ARE VERY UNDERSTANDING OF MY MENTAL DISABILITIES, MY TICS AND TWITCHES WOULD KNOCK OVER THE DOMINOES OCCASIONALLY, AND I WAS JUST A BIT MANIC, BUT THESE PEOPLE AT THE SENIOR CENTER WELCOMED ME AND THEY WERE ALL THERE FOR A GOOD OLD FASHIONED GAME OF DOMINOES AND FELLOWSHIP, CHEATING OR LOOKING AT OTHERS’ DOMINOES WAS NOT AN ISSUE-IT WAS REFRESHING FOR ME TO BE AROUND PEOPLE FROM A DIFFERENT GENERATION-NOT WORRIED A BIT THAT ONE OF THEM MAY BE A HACKER-TELLING ME TO JOIN A GROUP ACTIVITY IS ONE OF THE BEST REQUESTS MY WORKER HAS ASKED OF ME-I WAS REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AND CAN HARDLY WAIT TO PLAY AGAIN!  MY COON WAS A BIT PISSED THOUGH, THAT I WAS NOT THERE EARLIER-AND AS SOON AS I GOT MY STUFF IN FROM THE CAR-IT WAS FEEDING TIME FOR MAMA COON-IT BRINGS TEARS OF JOY TO MY EYES AT TIMES WATCHING HER…SHE IS VERY GENTLE WITH ME AND LAST NIGHT AFTER TAKING A MORSEL FROM MY HAND-SHE REACHED OUT WITH HER PAW AND LIGHTLY TOUCHED MY FINGER!   EVERYONE KEEPS WARNING ME THAT THE COON IS GOING TO HARM ME-I JUST DO NOT SEE THAT HAPPENING AS I AM IN NO WAY AFRAID OF HER.  MY DADDY USED TO HAVE RACCOONS THAT CAME IN THROUGH THE CAT DOOR, HE WOULD GIVE THEM CATFOOD AND THEY CAME AND WENT IN AND OUT AT WILL-I DON’T KNOW WHY, BUT DADDY ENDED UP GETTING BIT OR CLAWED BY ONE OF THEM-I THINK IT MAY HAVE BEEN HIS FEAR OF THEM THAT THE COONS PICKED UP ON OR MAYBE IT WAS A MAMA COON IN A BAD MOOD-WHATEVER THE CAUSE-MY DADDY DECIDED TO CLOSE THE CAT DOOR AND KEEP HIS COONS OUTSIDE.   THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS DOING SOME TRAINING WITH MY COON, I PUT MY BARE FOOT ON THE STEP AND FED HER BY HAND FROM JUST INSIDE THE DOOR- SHE LOOKED AT THE JUICY TOES SEVERAL TIMES-BUT I TOLD HER ‘NO’ AND MADE A CERTAIN MOTION WITH THE SMALL MORSEL I WAS GIVING HER AND BELEIVE IT OR NOT- SHE HAS LEARNED MY TOES ARE NOT A SNACK, SHE IS VERY GENTLE AND I SING TO HER WHILE I FEED HER-I THINK IT CALMS HER.  AND WHEN SHE TAKES FOOD FROM MY HAND I TELL HER HOW GOOD HER MANNERS ARE- SHE IS A TOUCH JUMPY AT TIMES- BUT FOR THE MOST PART VERY GENTLE AND A JOY TO WATCH!   I WILL MISS THEM WHEN I HAVE TO LEAVE, LIKE A MOTHER WOULD.  TODAY I DO NOT HAVE A DOCTOR APPOINTMENT, SO I AM GOING TO LOOK THROUGH CRAIGSLIST FOR A PLACE TO LIVE AND TRY AND CONTACT SOME FRIENDS, DO SOME CHORES AND TRY TO TALK WITH THE FRISCO HEAD LIBRARIAN AND SEE IF THERE IS ANYTHING I COULD DO TO GET MY LIBRARY PRIVELEDGES RESTORED-I HAVE BROUGHT MY MOST BELOVED BOOK, THE BIBLE, TO SHOW HER HOW I HAVE A HABIT OF HIGHLIGHTING THINGS IN BOOKS I FEEL RELATE TO ME.  MY FORMER BIBLE WAS JUST AS HIGHLIT AS THIS ONE IS- I RETURNED IT TO THE WOMAN WHO HAD GIVEN IT TO ME AS SHE SAID IT WAS HER DAUGHTERS’ BIBLE, AND THOUGHT-WOW-THIS WOMAN GAVE ME A BIBLE DEAR TO HER, I HOPE THE THINGS I HAD HIGHLIGHTED WERE READ BY HER DAUGHTER SO SHE COULD SEE WHAT OTHERS THINK WORTHY OF NOTE IN THE BIBLE.   IT WAS A BIBLE FROM THE MORMONS-BUT TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH- THESE DIFFERENT BIBLES PRETTY MUCH ALL SAY THE SAME THING, SO READING A MORMON BIBLE WAS NOT A PROBLEM FOR ME, I WAS HAPPY TO HAVE ONE…  TODAY IS BEAUTIFUL, I DO NOT HURT THAT MUCH AND I DO NOT HAVE THAT ‘HOPELESS’ FEELING OR THE ‘FIGHT OR FLIGHT’ SYNDROME YET-I KNOW FOR A FACT I WILL BE FOLLOWED EVERY SINGLE PLACE I GO BY A MINIMUM OF 2 VEHICLES BUT I THINK TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHEN I WILL BE ABLE TO LAUGH ABOUT IT RATHER THAN FEEL TERRORIZED.  THERE ARE A NUMBER OF ADS IN THE SUMMIT NEWSPAPER I PUT IN YESTERDAY AND I WILL REMAIN HOPEFUL THAT SOMEONE OUT THERE MAY BE IN NEED OF SOME HELP OR JUST A FRIEND AND HAVE A PLACE FOR ME TO RENT OR KNOW OF SOMEONE WILLING TO ACCEPT MY SECTION 8 VOUCHER-SMALL AND LARGE MIRACLES HAPPEN ALL THE TIME-I AM EVIDENCE OF THEM JUST THE FACT I AM ALIVE PROVES THIS.  I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD 13 YEARS AGO-I WAS LOOKING SO BAD THAT SOCIAL SECURITY PUSHED MY APPLICATION THROUGH IN LESS THAN 3 MONTHS…DYING HURTS-ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE A DRUG ADDICT AS I USED TO BE- I NEEDED THE DRUGS JUST TO GET UP AT THAT TIME-BUT I CHANGED MY LIFE-NOT AN EASY TASK AND I LET MY FAITH BECOME STRONG ENOUGH TO CHANGE MY LIFE.  IT DOES NOT WORK UNLESS YOU HAVE FAITH.  IT DOES NOT NECESSARILY HAVE TO BE FAITH IN GOD-JUST SIMPLE FAITH IN YOURSELF CAN HELP YOU OVERCOME THE WORST ADDICTION.  IF YOU DO NOT HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF TO DO WHAT NEEDS DONE, YOU WILL NOT BE SUCESSFUL AT ANYTHING YOU TRY.  AND I AM NOT BLOWING MY OWN HORN HERE, BUT I AM-IN MY OPINION-AN EXCELLENT EXAMPLE OF WHAT CAN BE OVERCOME BY HAVING FAITH YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU NEED.   TIME TO GO FOR NOW, SO LET’S ALL HAVE SOME FUN TAKING 4 LEFT TURNS AND FINDING SOME NEW ROADS TO TRAVEL-YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO SEE ME, I AM THE GAL WITH THE SMILE!  THERAPUTIC WRITING DONE BY KARIN WRAPE 6-29-16

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